i stared up at him his face looked like he was going to go into shock
"even you jacob black cannot hate me as much as i hate myself"
wrong he thought he was to angry to speak
"killin me now doesnt save her" i said quietly.
"so what does?" he asked if i knew i would have done it i would do anything now just to see bella health and well. at any coast i would pay it.
"jacob you have to do something for me" i alomost begged
"the hell i do" he spat back
"for her?" i kept staring at him
"i did everything i could to keep her away from you everything its too late"
"you know her jacob you connect to her in a way i carnt even understand you are apart of her and she is apart of you she wont listern to me she thinks i am underestermating her she thinks she`s strong anouth for this...." i chocked and then swollowed " she might listern to you"
"why would she?"
then suddenly it clicked i just needed her to stop havin this baby but maybe....
i hopped on to my feet my eyes wider and brighter then before i could see from jacobs mind can vampiros go crazy he thought
"maybe" i replied it was a queastion so why not answer "i dont know it feels like it " i shook my head i was gettin destracted. "i have to try to hide this from her stress makes her mais ill she carnt keep anything down as it is i have to be composed i carnt make it harder she has to listern to you!" i almost screamed at him she had to keeping this face from her is harder then to stop myself from drinkin her blood the first time we met. i would take that and be greatfull.
"i carnt tell her anything you havnt. what tell her she is stupid she probably allready knows that. tell her she is going to die? she probably knows that to "
"you can offer her what she wonts"
he didnt seam to get me he thought it was aprt of the crazy which might be right but i wernt giving in.
"i dont care about anything but keeping her alive" i almost growled. " if its a child she wonts she can have it. she can have half a dozen babies" i paused this was not going to work but i had to try something right? " she can have cachorrinhos if thats what it takes" i felt sick after that last part i didnt wont to say it the thought of havin bella in his arms made me wont to scream but i had to try and control my face.
i stared at him wiating for him to get it. finaly something clicked he understood his morth popped open.
"but not like this not this thing that is sucking the life out of her while i stand there helpless watchin her waste away. seeing it hurtin her." i sucked in a hug breathe i needed it " you have to make her see reason jacob she wont listern to me anymore rosalie is allways there feeding her lies protecting her no protecting him her life means nothing to rosealie"
he made a chocking nouise.
i let him think alone for a minuto and cut his mind out while he progressed what i was offering i caught a little.
what was he sayin bella have bebês with me was he giving her up or was we ment to share her?
"whatever, wihichever" i told him.
"thats the craziest thing you`ve said yet" he was determend not to think of it
"she loves you"
"not enought"
"she is ready to die to have a child maybe she will except somethin less extream" i suggested.
" dont you know her at all?"
"i know i know its going to take a lot of convinsing thats why i need you i know how she thinks make her see sense"
it all got to much when he started to think about her that way i completly tuned him out and i wouldnt till he spoke out load.
it took a couple of minutos for him to get out of his little fantercy that was killing me most of all this convosation
"make bella see sense? what unerverse do you live on?" i snapped up what he was finaly finished now. good.
"at least try"
he shook his head fast which i ignored and i waited i could hear it in his thoughts he wonted this more.
" where is all this phyco crap comming from are you making this up as you go?"
i went throught everything with him explaining how i was goning to fined him and what that thing was doin
"what is it" he asked i knew what he ment he wonted to know what that thing was inside her.
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