Warning: Thist is just my fantasia coming through. And some information to you; the story plays before Bella became a Vampire and there is no Nessie in sight. So its just for our little Jacob's sake, he needs some luving.
...and so the story goes on
Right into it
I was alive, mais than the past few months. I was able to sleep and mais important i was willing to face the world. And why? All happened two days ago, when i had only one wish: To forget. But instead of that, my pain got washed away por a human girl. I didnt know her name, and i wasnt sure if i ever got a chance ot find out.- but she was it. I had not feel sad about not having Bella, neither was i jealous anymore to all the others imprinting on someone. Cause after all i lived in the real world, and here 'normal' amor was possible. But there was one pergunta that was burning inside of me: Was it possible for me? To have a normal girlfriend, that i couldnt share the Shape Shifting subject with? And the fact that she liked my lobo form, didnt tell me if she would like me. So allthough i felt a lot better now, i was not having my usual confidence back. You need a plan. But that was easier said than done, cause i might have been a great fighter.- but amor was kinda new to me. If you forgot about the weird addiction i had for Bella. Allthough that didnt interest me one bit currently, i wanted back to the stranger. Having her hands on me again, looking in her dreamy green eyes. And again i was driffting away, and for a strange reason i heard the familar voice of the little pixie like vampire called Alice: Jacob is in love.
''Get out of my head'', i mumbled so quietly, making sure no one heard me. It wasnt like i had time on my own, not since my lobo brothers had found out my mood was better. They wanted to hang around, and tried their best to get behind the secret, but i made it rather hard for them. After a while i had heard Sam in my mind, telling them to leave me alone. He was maybe not my best friend, but he tried.
Listen to the beating of your heart
Finally i was proud to be Jacob Black again, i was happy to say the least. I spend my dia riding on the motorbike, going way too fast.- but i didnt care. That was the person that i wanted to be, the one that i was ont he inside. I had slept like a baby the last two nights, with some satisfying dreams. She was there with me, on the meadow, holding my hand. In a gentle way she ran her fingers over my skin, not my fur, it was really my skin. I felt her touch in those dreams, remembering her deep green eyes. And after waking up, i was like i could still smell her hair. I was even upset that i woke up, like i was obsessed already. But that wasnt the case, that was mais about the urge to protect her. Then came the need to be close to her, and out of all that came the feeling that i needed her. So my plan was to change into my lobo form again, sneaking away from my brothers and of course my all too nosey dad.
''Where you going'', he asked when i had laid my hand on the doorknob. Just lie. I didnt wanted to give him anymore headaches, i had done that mais than enough latley. So i let out a deep but soundless sigh, turning to face him. I tried a little grin, it almost felt unreal.- its been a while.
''Just wanna walk for a while, i feel all stiff after sleeping so long'', perfect lie, and he definatley was onto believing me. With a light nod he said goodbye, turning back round to watch some mais television. I was free, at least until i changed into a wolf, and i wondered how long it would take for the rest to follow. But to my suprise, it never happened. No other thoughts in my mind, silence.- it was a pleasure. In no time i had reached the meadow again, trying to find the spot where she had been located.- and it worked. Her scent was still there, not as present anymore, but there. First part of the plan worked, i had to prove to myself that i wasnt completly insane. And now came the mais important part, i had to follow that scent wherever it would lead me. Without thinking too much i started to run, faster than ever before. And i had reached my goal in no time, i was still in Forks but somehow this looked like the better part of town. Very nice gardens, and the houses looked mais colourful than the ones in Bella's Neighborhood. I was hiding behind some trees, knowing now what house it was. The only problem was i had to change into my human form, to not have people flip out.
You can only hope your coração can take it
If i wasnt nervous before, i felt like throwing up now. Of course i wasnt showing anything on the outside, but deep inside i was screaming. There were kids playing on the outside, the enjoyed the sunlight. It was something so rare here, but today was perfect. This time it was necessary to carry a camisa along with my jeans, just incase someone would wonder who the hell i was. Main Question: Who the hell was I for real? An evil grin appeared on my face, as i walked closer choosing my steps carefully. And again just like the first time i saw her, she entered my sight.- without warning. I spotted her in one of the gardens, playing with some kid.- probably around three years old. She tried her best to keep him entertained, but somehow she looked tired or was that sadness that i saw? My coração burnt, i didnt wanted her to be sad for whatever reason, she didnt deserve that. Again i felt weird, a mixture of a bodyguard and yet a stalker. The truth was i didnt come prepared all i had was the thought of her, and that made things a bit hard. I got closer hiding again, making sure she couldnt see me. But i heard her lovley voice... .
''Taylor i said stop playing in the mudhole, i will tell mum'', she said, her voice far from being angry. But I had the feeling that her mind wasnt here, maybe she thought about me?!Yeah sure, she thinks about a furball monster.
''But...is funny...'', the boy replied, his dark eyes focused on her.
''Okay then i will go inside and leave you alone'', this time she was a bit angry, but still angelic like on the first day.
He didnt react at first, but as she turned around to leave her got out of the dirt. He started to run after her and to me it appeared like she was walking extra slow so he could reach her. He jumped up her back, trying to hold her back.
''Kris...'', he cried out. I felt that my face was burning, finally i had a name coming to the pictures. For a moment i was tempted to just step out of the shadows, screaming her name too. She gave him a beautiful smile, showing off her perfect white teeth that did fit her soft face. Maybe i was seeing things the wrong way, but for a moment it was like she saw me there behind the trees. That was not possible though, was it? I wanted to keep on with that thought as i saw some other person entering the scene, mais than likley her mother. She didnt look as friendly as Kris did, mais serious and maybe lightly angered.
''Kristine, all i wanted you to do was take care of your brother. Are you really that dumb?'', she nearly spit that in her face. I was only one step away from getting there, pushing her mother down. But of course that wouldnt happen, for now i wasnt even existing. But the heartbreaking face she made now, nearly made me lose it. Her mother was quick to grap her brother bringing him inside, not looking back at her daugther.
I dont stalk you, i am just...erm, counting the flowers?!
I heard her heartbeat, it was uneven.- like something made it stop. She was there, the sunlight burning on her face, and then i saw it. There was something shimmering on her cheek, tears. Even though i didnt know why, i felt like crying with her. Of course she probably had it better than me, she had a mother at least. But what if it was the same picture every day? I didnt need to know backround stuff to see that something was wrong here. That she wasnt the 'good' kid in her parents eyes, something i knew too good myself. Out of nowhere her face changed, for the first time i saw her angry. Her face was hard, and the tears were gone. She had build herself up again, i liked that facette about her.- even though i didnt know her. As she started to walk, i realized that she was coming directly to my spot, and i didnt know what to do. Of course my senses told me to run, but the chains she had laid around me.- made me stay. I started to mumble, trying to prepare something i could say when she caught me.- something mais than, Yeah i am an idiot.
''Hi, I am Jacob Black'', i said not sure what i was doing. I was not paying enough attention to see that she already had reached the big tree, only a few inches away from me. I still had enough o espaço to run, but just like expected i didnt.
''Nice to meet you Jacob Black'', i heard her light and soft voice. She had reached me too quick, i wasnt prepared. But if i ever wanted to know her, i couldnt just run now. I had to play it off cool, or give it a try. I was still half in the shadow the árvore gave, while her full beauty was in front of me. Again i was speechless, my dark brown eyes fascinated with her body being so close and me not having my lobo eyes to admire her. I felt like a kid, too easy to hurt and too curious to run. Had i lost my tongue? Where were the cool lines i said to her in my dreams? Dork
''May i ask what you do in my backyard...'', she asked still soft, and i wasnt sure if i heard curiousity in her voice.- or if i only wanted to hear that. The pokerface strategy didnt work, so i could very well just let my mural down. With well messured steps i got into the light aswell, looking at her hoping for that awesome smile again.
''I heard screaming and i wasnt sure...'', i replied, hoping that made sense. She seemed to look for something, trying to find it in my face.
''Can it be that i have seen you before?''
Bingo!My feeling was back, she knew it was me. Take stronger pills, Jacob. Of course she didnt know, but i had the feeling before that she knew i was inside that lobo form, but that was impossible. I couldnt put her in danger, or break with my brothers.For a moment i was so angry with myself, for coming here.- but that didnt last too long. She raised one of her brows, and then she giggled.
''I doubt that'', i said or mumbled.
''You are one of the guys from LaPush, arent you?''
I only nodded, and she wanted to say something again.- but there was some interference. Her mother came out, screaming her name.- what an annoying voice she had. Kristine whirled around, getting lightly nervous. I heard her heartbeat becoming faster as she did snap forward, her lips reaching my ear. That was nearly too much for me too take, having her so close and i was still not prepared.
''You have to go now, if they see you here we are both in trouble. I will find you soon'', it was a whisper. Her hot breath reaching my skin, she gave me chills. When she moved her head back it felt like her lips were touching my cheek, but i was far from being sure. She had to run, but turned back one last time her hair flying while she ran. I couldnt mover away, not even twenty minutos after she had entered the house. I was still staring and letting the sentences replay in my head. What did she mean with the words she would find me?
The time passed too quickly, i had to leave. I had to run faster than before, to make sure no one would get suspicious. When i was back in my lobo form and sure none of my brothers was, i allowed myself to relife the past minutes. I wondered what her secret was, or better said why she was so scared of her mother. I saw the fear in her eyes, the moment her mum called for her. That was not respect, that was fear. My thoughts became mais quiet when i returned to our house, again all i had left was dreaming. Of her, my Kristine.
End of the segundo Chapter
...and so the story goes on
Right into it
I was alive, mais than the past few months. I was able to sleep and mais important i was willing to face the world. And why? All happened two days ago, when i had only one wish: To forget. But instead of that, my pain got washed away por a human girl. I didnt know her name, and i wasnt sure if i ever got a chance ot find out.- but she was it. I had not feel sad about not having Bella, neither was i jealous anymore to all the others imprinting on someone. Cause after all i lived in the real world, and here 'normal' amor was possible. But there was one pergunta that was burning inside of me: Was it possible for me? To have a normal girlfriend, that i couldnt share the Shape Shifting subject with? And the fact that she liked my lobo form, didnt tell me if she would like me. So allthough i felt a lot better now, i was not having my usual confidence back. You need a plan. But that was easier said than done, cause i might have been a great fighter.- but amor was kinda new to me. If you forgot about the weird addiction i had for Bella. Allthough that didnt interest me one bit currently, i wanted back to the stranger. Having her hands on me again, looking in her dreamy green eyes. And again i was driffting away, and for a strange reason i heard the familar voice of the little pixie like vampire called Alice: Jacob is in love.
''Get out of my head'', i mumbled so quietly, making sure no one heard me. It wasnt like i had time on my own, not since my lobo brothers had found out my mood was better. They wanted to hang around, and tried their best to get behind the secret, but i made it rather hard for them. After a while i had heard Sam in my mind, telling them to leave me alone. He was maybe not my best friend, but he tried.
Listen to the beating of your heart
Finally i was proud to be Jacob Black again, i was happy to say the least. I spend my dia riding on the motorbike, going way too fast.- but i didnt care. That was the person that i wanted to be, the one that i was ont he inside. I had slept like a baby the last two nights, with some satisfying dreams. She was there with me, on the meadow, holding my hand. In a gentle way she ran her fingers over my skin, not my fur, it was really my skin. I felt her touch in those dreams, remembering her deep green eyes. And after waking up, i was like i could still smell her hair. I was even upset that i woke up, like i was obsessed already. But that wasnt the case, that was mais about the urge to protect her. Then came the need to be close to her, and out of all that came the feeling that i needed her. So my plan was to change into my lobo form again, sneaking away from my brothers and of course my all too nosey dad.
''Where you going'', he asked when i had laid my hand on the doorknob. Just lie. I didnt wanted to give him anymore headaches, i had done that mais than enough latley. So i let out a deep but soundless sigh, turning to face him. I tried a little grin, it almost felt unreal.- its been a while.
''Just wanna walk for a while, i feel all stiff after sleeping so long'', perfect lie, and he definatley was onto believing me. With a light nod he said goodbye, turning back round to watch some mais television. I was free, at least until i changed into a wolf, and i wondered how long it would take for the rest to follow. But to my suprise, it never happened. No other thoughts in my mind, silence.- it was a pleasure. In no time i had reached the meadow again, trying to find the spot where she had been located.- and it worked. Her scent was still there, not as present anymore, but there. First part of the plan worked, i had to prove to myself that i wasnt completly insane. And now came the mais important part, i had to follow that scent wherever it would lead me. Without thinking too much i started to run, faster than ever before. And i had reached my goal in no time, i was still in Forks but somehow this looked like the better part of town. Very nice gardens, and the houses looked mais colourful than the ones in Bella's Neighborhood. I was hiding behind some trees, knowing now what house it was. The only problem was i had to change into my human form, to not have people flip out.
You can only hope your coração can take it
If i wasnt nervous before, i felt like throwing up now. Of course i wasnt showing anything on the outside, but deep inside i was screaming. There were kids playing on the outside, the enjoyed the sunlight. It was something so rare here, but today was perfect. This time it was necessary to carry a camisa along with my jeans, just incase someone would wonder who the hell i was. Main Question: Who the hell was I for real? An evil grin appeared on my face, as i walked closer choosing my steps carefully. And again just like the first time i saw her, she entered my sight.- without warning. I spotted her in one of the gardens, playing with some kid.- probably around three years old. She tried her best to keep him entertained, but somehow she looked tired or was that sadness that i saw? My coração burnt, i didnt wanted her to be sad for whatever reason, she didnt deserve that. Again i felt weird, a mixture of a bodyguard and yet a stalker. The truth was i didnt come prepared all i had was the thought of her, and that made things a bit hard. I got closer hiding again, making sure she couldnt see me. But i heard her lovley voice... .
''Taylor i said stop playing in the mudhole, i will tell mum'', she said, her voice far from being angry. But I had the feeling that her mind wasnt here, maybe she thought about me?!Yeah sure, she thinks about a furball monster.
''But...is funny...'', the boy replied, his dark eyes focused on her.
''Okay then i will go inside and leave you alone'', this time she was a bit angry, but still angelic like on the first day.
He didnt react at first, but as she turned around to leave her got out of the dirt. He started to run after her and to me it appeared like she was walking extra slow so he could reach her. He jumped up her back, trying to hold her back.
''Kris...'', he cried out. I felt that my face was burning, finally i had a name coming to the pictures. For a moment i was tempted to just step out of the shadows, screaming her name too. She gave him a beautiful smile, showing off her perfect white teeth that did fit her soft face. Maybe i was seeing things the wrong way, but for a moment it was like she saw me there behind the trees. That was not possible though, was it? I wanted to keep on with that thought as i saw some other person entering the scene, mais than likley her mother. She didnt look as friendly as Kris did, mais serious and maybe lightly angered.
''Kristine, all i wanted you to do was take care of your brother. Are you really that dumb?'', she nearly spit that in her face. I was only one step away from getting there, pushing her mother down. But of course that wouldnt happen, for now i wasnt even existing. But the heartbreaking face she made now, nearly made me lose it. Her mother was quick to grap her brother bringing him inside, not looking back at her daugther.
I dont stalk you, i am just...erm, counting the flowers?!
I heard her heartbeat, it was uneven.- like something made it stop. She was there, the sunlight burning on her face, and then i saw it. There was something shimmering on her cheek, tears. Even though i didnt know why, i felt like crying with her. Of course she probably had it better than me, she had a mother at least. But what if it was the same picture every day? I didnt need to know backround stuff to see that something was wrong here. That she wasnt the 'good' kid in her parents eyes, something i knew too good myself. Out of nowhere her face changed, for the first time i saw her angry. Her face was hard, and the tears were gone. She had build herself up again, i liked that facette about her.- even though i didnt know her. As she started to walk, i realized that she was coming directly to my spot, and i didnt know what to do. Of course my senses told me to run, but the chains she had laid around me.- made me stay. I started to mumble, trying to prepare something i could say when she caught me.- something mais than, Yeah i am an idiot.
''Hi, I am Jacob Black'', i said not sure what i was doing. I was not paying enough attention to see that she already had reached the big tree, only a few inches away from me. I still had enough o espaço to run, but just like expected i didnt.
''Nice to meet you Jacob Black'', i heard her light and soft voice. She had reached me too quick, i wasnt prepared. But if i ever wanted to know her, i couldnt just run now. I had to play it off cool, or give it a try. I was still half in the shadow the árvore gave, while her full beauty was in front of me. Again i was speechless, my dark brown eyes fascinated with her body being so close and me not having my lobo eyes to admire her. I felt like a kid, too easy to hurt and too curious to run. Had i lost my tongue? Where were the cool lines i said to her in my dreams? Dork
''May i ask what you do in my backyard...'', she asked still soft, and i wasnt sure if i heard curiousity in her voice.- or if i only wanted to hear that. The pokerface strategy didnt work, so i could very well just let my mural down. With well messured steps i got into the light aswell, looking at her hoping for that awesome smile again.
''I heard screaming and i wasnt sure...'', i replied, hoping that made sense. She seemed to look for something, trying to find it in my face.
''Can it be that i have seen you before?''
Bingo!My feeling was back, she knew it was me. Take stronger pills, Jacob. Of course she didnt know, but i had the feeling before that she knew i was inside that lobo form, but that was impossible. I couldnt put her in danger, or break with my brothers.For a moment i was so angry with myself, for coming here.- but that didnt last too long. She raised one of her brows, and then she giggled.
''I doubt that'', i said or mumbled.
''You are one of the guys from LaPush, arent you?''
I only nodded, and she wanted to say something again.- but there was some interference. Her mother came out, screaming her name.- what an annoying voice she had. Kristine whirled around, getting lightly nervous. I heard her heartbeat becoming faster as she did snap forward, her lips reaching my ear. That was nearly too much for me too take, having her so close and i was still not prepared.
''You have to go now, if they see you here we are both in trouble. I will find you soon'', it was a whisper. Her hot breath reaching my skin, she gave me chills. When she moved her head back it felt like her lips were touching my cheek, but i was far from being sure. She had to run, but turned back one last time her hair flying while she ran. I couldnt mover away, not even twenty minutos after she had entered the house. I was still staring and letting the sentences replay in my head. What did she mean with the words she would find me?
The time passed too quickly, i had to leave. I had to run faster than before, to make sure no one would get suspicious. When i was back in my lobo form and sure none of my brothers was, i allowed myself to relife the past minutes. I wondered what her secret was, or better said why she was so scared of her mother. I saw the fear in her eyes, the moment her mum called for her. That was not respect, that was fear. My thoughts became mais quiet when i returned to our house, again all i had left was dreaming. Of her, my Kristine.
End of the segundo Chapter
