For those of you who are new, Here is chapter 1, 2 and 3.
Chapter 1 - link
Chapter 2 - link
Chapter 3 - link
Ending of Chapter 3
It wasn't raining as much in the woods, the trees protected me from the rain. I didn't realize how cold it had gotten until I noticed the ganso bumps tickle on my arms. I wrapped my arms around myself, still crying and kept walking until my legs and feet grew tired. I spotted a rock and wiped it off before I sat down. I hugged my knees close to my body.
“I can't say here. Where can I go? Renee is traveling with Phil. Would Charlie even let me leave? He wouldn't understand. Would Renee understand?” not that I would tell her why I really needed to leave.
I sat there for what seemed like hours, just listening to the rain and the birds. My stomach growled, which made me realize it was almost noon. I got up and wiped the assento of my jeans off and started heading towards the house when I heard someone approach me from behind.
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“Bella, wait” I heard from behind me. I turned around at the familiar voice. Edward. Was he trying to make this unbearable for me? He stepped progressivo, para a frente closing the o espaço between us.
“Edward, I already told you...I...” I said struggling to look him in the eye.
“I know, I heard what you said” He pulled at his hair.
I dropped my glance down to my feet, which were soaked through to my socks. I wasn't going to miss that thats for sure.
“Edward..” I sighed, looking up, my fidgeting my hands playing with the strap of my backpack.
“Bella, I need to know...why are you leaving?” He struggled to get the last part out. I could hear the sadness in his voice, I could see it in the way he carried himself. He was crushed. I couldn't tell him the truth, I couldn't tell him I had to leave because I felt like I was putting his family in danger. That I felt like mais of a bother than anything. I didn't belong. Edward wouldn't hear any of it. He would deny everything. I could see how my presence affected the family. I could see the hatred in Rosales eyes, I knew the way Jasper looked at me. I hated making Jasper feel like he barely had a grasp on control every time he was around me. As much as I loved Edward, I couldn't sacrifice the feelings of everyone else in his family just to get what I want. I wasn't going to do that anymore. I thought back to a time when Edward wanted me to choose my own way out. To make the right decision, no matter how many times I told him that me leaving was not an option. I need to make Edward understand that I have now chosen that option. He won't argue with me, It's what he wanted before. Knowing that I was going to play with his feelings a bit I took a deep breath and bit my lip before speaking.
“I changed my mind” I said sternly trying to sound sure of myself. I stared in his eyes, trying to understand his reaction. I could see the pain, I could see he would believe me. “I can't be with you, I need to mover on” I continued. “It's too dangerous, and I think growing up is an option I overlooked” I knew he would have to see it my way, using his words against him.
He didn't say anything, he just stood there watching me. I was never good at acting, but I hoped that he would take me seriously, noticing the urgency in my voice, look past the lie, and see that I needed to leave anyway.
“And your sure of this?” He asked as he brushed his hand through his hair again, looking broken.
“Yeah” I paused “It's something I need to do, I need to be there for Renee and Charlie, I need to grow with them..” I half lied some more.
“Okay” He said dropping his eyes, staring at his hands. “I'm gonna miss you” He said with a half smile, meeting my gaze again.
Why did he have to say that! I knew if I said the same words back to him that I would fall apart.
“Goodbye” I said as I pulled my backpack higher on my back. I turned around and started walking. I took about 5 steps and suddenly felt a chill, I turned around to where Edward was standing, but he was gone. He was gone. I stared at the place where he had stood, finally realizing that I would never see him again. This is what he wanted in the beginning, he never wanted to get close, to fall in love. My coração fell, stop falling. This is what I wanted. Right? Everyone would be seguro again. I'm doing the right thing. Right? I tore my watering eyes away and started towards the house again.
I checked the mail before opening the door. Bills, bills, readers digest subscription, college application. A painful reminder of how Edward wanted me to apply. I placed the mail on the cozinha mesa, tabela and looked around the empty kitchen. Noticing how cool it was I went over and turned up the heat. It didn't normally get this cool this time of year. I checked the time, 12:45. Considering it was still lunch, I decided to make a sandwich. I could start ceia later for Charlie. I was just finishing washing the dishes when there was a knock at the door. Who would be here in the middle of the afternoon? I dried my hands and went to answer the door.
“Can we talk?” Alice said as soon as I had opened the door. Her eyes looking sad.
“Uhh, Sure, come in” I said as I stepped to the side, allowing her to enter.
She walked past me swiftly, bringing the cool air in with her. I closed the door and hugged my arms around myself again.
“You look horrible. She noted, glancing at me
“Thanks..” I mumbled as I looked in the mirror, noticing my hair was all messy from the rain, and my eyes were still puffy. Face, red. I walked past her back into the cozinha to put the rest of the dishes away. Alice just stood there watching me. I grabbed the cloth and washed down the counter, and then the table. I looked at the plant por the sink and felt the need to water it. As I grabbed for it Alice's cool hand touched my arm.
“Stop it, stop distracting yourself.” She said as she pulled me around to face her. I looked into her sad eyes, once again feeling horrible. If I was doing the right thing, why was it hurting everyone I loved.
“He's gonna let you go” She blurted out. “He won't stop you.” Her cool hands reached around both of my small wrists. Her expression showing a mix of feelings, she was mad, and hurt.
“Thats the plan..” I said softly, trying to let her know that this is how it had to be.
“It's gonna kill him, he won't say anything to anyone about it, but it's going to absolutely ruin him” she paused, “he won't be the same without you.”
The tears were starting up again. Edward wasn't going to be the same. I loved him exactly the way he was, and this was going to change him, change everything. I shook Alice off my arms and sat down at the table. My head falling into my hands. I couldn't make up my mind. Do I stay? Do I go? Even if I went for a little while, will that change everything?
“He'll mover on, eventually.” I said, not moving my head from my hands.
“No, he won't” She said as she took the assento across from me. “and neither will you.”
I sighed as I looked up. “I'm so confused, I don't know what to do.”
“Oh, I know” She said as she started to smile. “and frankly, your giving me quite the headache trying to find you.”
“What happens if I leave” I asked, preparing myself.
“Edward will leave to” She said and she started playing with a piece of hair that was hanging in her eyes. “He'll try to follow you, but eventually turn back, come home, and leave again, I don't know where though”
“oh”
“This really isn't a good choice for either of you, but it's your choice to make, and I respect that.” She said as she stood up. “I'm still gonna miss you” I stood up and reached my arms around her. My Alice. So graceful and beautiful.
“I'll miss you to” I whispered and let go.
“Well I better head back for last period” She said as she turned for the door.
“If I change my mind...” I started
“I'll already know.” She interrupted, smiling at me.
I watched her close the door behind her and stood in the middle of the cozinha all alone. I looked around the room, trying to find something to distract myself, but there was nothing to clean, pictures were straight, and the floor had recently been swept.
I walked into the living room, setting myself down on the sofá in front of the t.v. This wasn't something I usually do, I never watch t.v, but I needed this distraction. I flipped through the channels about three times before deciding there was nothing worth watching. I glanced at the clock on wall, 2:05. I got up off the sofá and took the cordless in my hand, wondering if Renee would be around. I dialed the number and when she picked up I didn't know what to say.
“Hello? Hello??” She sounded happy, or pleasant?.
I said nothing, unable to speak.
“Who is it?” I heard Phil from the background.
“I have no idea, there's no one..” She broke off laughing. “Phil!, stop it!” she said between laughs.
I hung up the phone. Replaying what I just heard. My mom, sounding happy. She was happy with Phil. My coming início would upset that, although I knew she would do anything for me, at the drop of a hat, but I couldn't take this away from her.
Chapter 1 - link
Chapter 2 - link
Chapter 3 - link
Ending of Chapter 3
It wasn't raining as much in the woods, the trees protected me from the rain. I didn't realize how cold it had gotten until I noticed the ganso bumps tickle on my arms. I wrapped my arms around myself, still crying and kept walking until my legs and feet grew tired. I spotted a rock and wiped it off before I sat down. I hugged my knees close to my body.
“I can't say here. Where can I go? Renee is traveling with Phil. Would Charlie even let me leave? He wouldn't understand. Would Renee understand?” not that I would tell her why I really needed to leave.
I sat there for what seemed like hours, just listening to the rain and the birds. My stomach growled, which made me realize it was almost noon. I got up and wiped the assento of my jeans off and started heading towards the house when I heard someone approach me from behind.
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“Bella, wait” I heard from behind me. I turned around at the familiar voice. Edward. Was he trying to make this unbearable for me? He stepped progressivo, para a frente closing the o espaço between us.
“Edward, I already told you...I...” I said struggling to look him in the eye.
“I know, I heard what you said” He pulled at his hair.
I dropped my glance down to my feet, which were soaked through to my socks. I wasn't going to miss that thats for sure.
“Edward..” I sighed, looking up, my fidgeting my hands playing with the strap of my backpack.
“Bella, I need to know...why are you leaving?” He struggled to get the last part out. I could hear the sadness in his voice, I could see it in the way he carried himself. He was crushed. I couldn't tell him the truth, I couldn't tell him I had to leave because I felt like I was putting his family in danger. That I felt like mais of a bother than anything. I didn't belong. Edward wouldn't hear any of it. He would deny everything. I could see how my presence affected the family. I could see the hatred in Rosales eyes, I knew the way Jasper looked at me. I hated making Jasper feel like he barely had a grasp on control every time he was around me. As much as I loved Edward, I couldn't sacrifice the feelings of everyone else in his family just to get what I want. I wasn't going to do that anymore. I thought back to a time when Edward wanted me to choose my own way out. To make the right decision, no matter how many times I told him that me leaving was not an option. I need to make Edward understand that I have now chosen that option. He won't argue with me, It's what he wanted before. Knowing that I was going to play with his feelings a bit I took a deep breath and bit my lip before speaking.
“I changed my mind” I said sternly trying to sound sure of myself. I stared in his eyes, trying to understand his reaction. I could see the pain, I could see he would believe me. “I can't be with you, I need to mover on” I continued. “It's too dangerous, and I think growing up is an option I overlooked” I knew he would have to see it my way, using his words against him.
He didn't say anything, he just stood there watching me. I was never good at acting, but I hoped that he would take me seriously, noticing the urgency in my voice, look past the lie, and see that I needed to leave anyway.
“And your sure of this?” He asked as he brushed his hand through his hair again, looking broken.
“Yeah” I paused “It's something I need to do, I need to be there for Renee and Charlie, I need to grow with them..” I half lied some more.
“Okay” He said dropping his eyes, staring at his hands. “I'm gonna miss you” He said with a half smile, meeting my gaze again.
Why did he have to say that! I knew if I said the same words back to him that I would fall apart.
“Goodbye” I said as I pulled my backpack higher on my back. I turned around and started walking. I took about 5 steps and suddenly felt a chill, I turned around to where Edward was standing, but he was gone. He was gone. I stared at the place where he had stood, finally realizing that I would never see him again. This is what he wanted in the beginning, he never wanted to get close, to fall in love. My coração fell, stop falling. This is what I wanted. Right? Everyone would be seguro again. I'm doing the right thing. Right? I tore my watering eyes away and started towards the house again.
I checked the mail before opening the door. Bills, bills, readers digest subscription, college application. A painful reminder of how Edward wanted me to apply. I placed the mail on the cozinha mesa, tabela and looked around the empty kitchen. Noticing how cool it was I went over and turned up the heat. It didn't normally get this cool this time of year. I checked the time, 12:45. Considering it was still lunch, I decided to make a sandwich. I could start ceia later for Charlie. I was just finishing washing the dishes when there was a knock at the door. Who would be here in the middle of the afternoon? I dried my hands and went to answer the door.
“Can we talk?” Alice said as soon as I had opened the door. Her eyes looking sad.
“Uhh, Sure, come in” I said as I stepped to the side, allowing her to enter.
She walked past me swiftly, bringing the cool air in with her. I closed the door and hugged my arms around myself again.
“You look horrible. She noted, glancing at me
“Thanks..” I mumbled as I looked in the mirror, noticing my hair was all messy from the rain, and my eyes were still puffy. Face, red. I walked past her back into the cozinha to put the rest of the dishes away. Alice just stood there watching me. I grabbed the cloth and washed down the counter, and then the table. I looked at the plant por the sink and felt the need to water it. As I grabbed for it Alice's cool hand touched my arm.
“Stop it, stop distracting yourself.” She said as she pulled me around to face her. I looked into her sad eyes, once again feeling horrible. If I was doing the right thing, why was it hurting everyone I loved.
“He's gonna let you go” She blurted out. “He won't stop you.” Her cool hands reached around both of my small wrists. Her expression showing a mix of feelings, she was mad, and hurt.
“Thats the plan..” I said softly, trying to let her know that this is how it had to be.
“It's gonna kill him, he won't say anything to anyone about it, but it's going to absolutely ruin him” she paused, “he won't be the same without you.”
The tears were starting up again. Edward wasn't going to be the same. I loved him exactly the way he was, and this was going to change him, change everything. I shook Alice off my arms and sat down at the table. My head falling into my hands. I couldn't make up my mind. Do I stay? Do I go? Even if I went for a little while, will that change everything?
“He'll mover on, eventually.” I said, not moving my head from my hands.
“No, he won't” She said as she took the assento across from me. “and neither will you.”
I sighed as I looked up. “I'm so confused, I don't know what to do.”
“Oh, I know” She said as she started to smile. “and frankly, your giving me quite the headache trying to find you.”
“What happens if I leave” I asked, preparing myself.
“Edward will leave to” She said and she started playing with a piece of hair that was hanging in her eyes. “He'll try to follow you, but eventually turn back, come home, and leave again, I don't know where though”
“oh”
“This really isn't a good choice for either of you, but it's your choice to make, and I respect that.” She said as she stood up. “I'm still gonna miss you” I stood up and reached my arms around her. My Alice. So graceful and beautiful.
“I'll miss you to” I whispered and let go.
“Well I better head back for last period” She said as she turned for the door.
“If I change my mind...” I started
“I'll already know.” She interrupted, smiling at me.
I watched her close the door behind her and stood in the middle of the cozinha all alone. I looked around the room, trying to find something to distract myself, but there was nothing to clean, pictures were straight, and the floor had recently been swept.
I walked into the living room, setting myself down on the sofá in front of the t.v. This wasn't something I usually do, I never watch t.v, but I needed this distraction. I flipped through the channels about three times before deciding there was nothing worth watching. I glanced at the clock on wall, 2:05. I got up off the sofá and took the cordless in my hand, wondering if Renee would be around. I dialed the number and when she picked up I didn't know what to say.
“Hello? Hello??” She sounded happy, or pleasant?.
I said nothing, unable to speak.
“Who is it?” I heard Phil from the background.
“I have no idea, there's no one..” She broke off laughing. “Phil!, stop it!” she said between laughs.
I hung up the phone. Replaying what I just heard. My mom, sounding happy. She was happy with Phil. My coming início would upset that, although I knew she would do anything for me, at the drop of a hat, but I couldn't take this away from her.
"It shocked me.I was not sure if she meant to attack.That's the only interpretation of her behavior that my past had to offer.But she was smiling.And the emotions that were emanating from her were like nothing I'd ever felt before.
"'You've kept me waiting a long time,'she said."
I didn't realize Alice had come to stand behind me again.
"And you ducked your head like a good Southern gentleman,and said,'I'm sorry ma'am.'"Alice laughed at the memory.
Jasper smiled down at her."You held out your hand,and I took it without stopping to make sense of what I was doing.For the first time in almost a century,I felt hope."
Jasper took Alice's hand as he spoke.
Alice grinned."I was just relieved.I thought you were never going to show up."
it is just MY opinion...
i think it was very well done thinking of it just as a movie you know it wont ever be exactly like the book ... or with such many detailz
things i loved:
*the humor they use (for example bella: if things end bad like i would become the meal) haha
*alice ! the character is very well portrayed
*the end ( victoria watching)
*the baseball game!
*men cast haha =P
*stephenie meyer appearing wooow!
things that dissapointed me:
* the clearing ! i dont liked the sparkling effect ...
*it was really fast everything
*alice's story was missing ...
things that were wrong: (i didnt noticed until the third time i saw it)
*billy was driving !
*when edward is playing th e piano for bella he didnt sparkle
*victoria appears in the prom in the crowd (edward would read her thoughtz)
but i like it anyway ! it ir TWILIGHT !
i think it was very well done thinking of it just as a movie you know it wont ever be exactly like the book ... or with such many detailz
things i loved:
*the humor they use (for example bella: if things end bad like i would become the meal) haha
*alice ! the character is very well portrayed
*the end ( victoria watching)
*the baseball game!
*men cast haha =P
*stephenie meyer appearing wooow!
things that dissapointed me:
* the clearing ! i dont liked the sparkling effect ...
*it was really fast everything
*alice's story was missing ...
things that were wrong: (i didnt noticed until the third time i saw it)
*billy was driving !
*when edward is playing th e piano for bella he didnt sparkle
*victoria appears in the prom in the crowd (edward would read her thoughtz)
but i like it anyway ! it ir TWILIGHT !
While visiting “The Ellen DeGeneres Show,” for an episode that airs this Friday — the same dia Pattinson’s vampiric portrayal of Edward Cullen springs to life on the big screen, he denied having romantic ties to anyone.
“Now, are you single?” Ellen asked.
“Ah, yeah,” the British actor replied.
And it appears despite women throwing themselves at him regularly, Pattinson may be stuck in singleton mode permanently.
“No one else seems to get into a relationship with me. It’s really strange,” he told Ellen.
“People like screaming at me,” the heartthrob added. “Actually, they like screaming at me in relationships as well. No one wants to commit.”