it hurts to live. life to me is a segundo death, only like being left to bleed on a pavement instead of a quick stab, then to be left in peace. death and life are much the same thing now. only death seems mais peaceful, i already know, as i watch other people living there lives, there is nothing left for me. fun was like a greek word to me now. i didnt know what i ment. i thought about making the most of life before the pain killed me for sure. i couldnt remember HOW to have fun. what was the point of going to the beach? it wasn't going to bring my future back. it wouldnt make me feel any better. what was the point of going to the movies? it wasnt going to fill my sad eyes with excitment. i wasn't going to get better. not ever. i was going to be a girl that lived with no reason to live that had a life only of pain, her coração lost and her body cut into half. the pain was too much to bear. it took over, the pain never left, it flowed in my blood untill the poisen punched holes in my coração over and over untill all the feelings of amor and happiness are washed out with my blood. the funny thing was; well, there wasnt anything that was funny about it; i hated to think of him. i hated to think of the happiness he suddenly brought into my life. because, i thought, because, deep deep in my coração where my thoughts were seguro from causing me any mais unbearable pain, i knew that he was somewhere in the world, oblivious to the damage that he had left behind. i knew that he was carrying on with his life, and that he was proably with someone much mais beautiful then me por now, holding them in his stone arms. someone that he wasn't wasting his life por being with. someone that wouldnt turn into a wrinkled old lady in 60 years. but it wasn't his fault. he didnt know how deep i really was and how he was like a drug to me. he didnt know. or maybe he did. maybe he felt uncomfortable with me loving him so, when he didnt amor me back. only he never had told me this because he was afraid of hurting me. he was the most selfless person ever. the ache for him made me feel sick, my eyes burned and prickled. i stared ahead waiting for my tears to dry, but por one flicker of movment, the hot beads of salt water rolled down my cold cheeks. i didnt blush anymore. my chocolate brown eyes grew dark and empty. my limp hair hung, dead in a ponytail. i walked past my mirror, catching a glimpse of my reflection. i blinked and mais tears fell to the carpet. i turned away, not able to watch and to look at the face of a sad little heartbroken girl. i stared at the floor, my pain burning a hole in the ground with the emptyness of my eyes. i stumbled on my way to the door, even though i was still staring at my feet. i fell to the ground, and broke into desperate, heartbroken sobs that would probably scare charlie. i crossed my legs as i sat up weakly, staring into space, wishing i didnt have stupid human eyes, that i had vampire eyes that could see every dust mote in the air. every pattern in the wood of my bedleg. every brush line on the mural and every leaf on the trees outside, through the forest and across the mountins, the de praia, praia in la push, wishing i could see the world through my window, being able to pick out him out like a needle on a haystack, and bringing him início to me so i could hold him and never let him go. i knew i wouldnt be able to fight him as he would loosen my grip, as he strode off into the world once mais and broke my coração again.
Ok don't get me wrong I amor the Cullens but take a look at what I would do if I was a Cullen
I would hot wire Edwards car and take it for a joy ride
I would go into my life story when ever I'm board
I would never sleep so I would jump all over
I use the saying "oh bite me" alot and I don't normaily get into fights but this is the Cullens we'r talking about
Sometimes I say my thoughts out-loud
I would think about Jakes body
I would be mad that I'm young and no guy would want to encontro, data a girl like me
I'd copy Edward
I'd piss off Edward
^^If I did I'd say Bella did it^^
I might crack up when he trys to hold his anger
I would jump off a big árvore a yell "I belive I can fly"
And most of all I'm Crazy
So tell me if I should be a Cullen
I would hot wire Edwards car and take it for a joy ride
I would go into my life story when ever I'm board
I would never sleep so I would jump all over
I use the saying "oh bite me" alot and I don't normaily get into fights but this is the Cullens we'r talking about
Sometimes I say my thoughts out-loud
I would think about Jakes body
I would be mad that I'm young and no guy would want to encontro, data a girl like me
I'd copy Edward
I'd piss off Edward
^^If I did I'd say Bella did it^^
I might crack up when he trys to hold his anger
I would jump off a big árvore a yell "I belive I can fly"
And most of all I'm Crazy
So tell me if I should be a Cullen
hi i dont know what to call this but heres the first chapter if you have any ideas tell me
"Alice we don't need to dress up it's just high school.again." I said under my breath.
"Oh come on Bella can't you let me have some fun today."
"Fine." I said giving up trying to argue with Alice. Alice had me in dark washed skinny jeans and high heel ankle boots,with a purple long-sleeved layered casual t.
"Just today though."Not wanting her to get the wrong idea that i would let her do this everyday.
"Agreed.Now stay still I'm almost finished.
"Time to go Renesemee,Jacob."I yelled upstairs. Jacob was now moved in with us we all pretty much not breath anymore but we had to get used to it again since we can go to schol again beacause renesemee is 7 now and stoped ageing
"Alice we don't need to dress up it's just high school.again." I said under my breath.
"Oh come on Bella can't you let me have some fun today."
"Fine." I said giving up trying to argue with Alice. Alice had me in dark washed skinny jeans and high heel ankle boots,with a purple long-sleeved layered casual t.
"Just today though."Not wanting her to get the wrong idea that i would let her do this everyday.
"Agreed.Now stay still I'm almost finished.
"Time to go Renesemee,Jacob."I yelled upstairs. Jacob was now moved in with us we all pretty much not breath anymore but we had to get used to it again since we can go to schol again beacause renesemee is 7 now and stoped ageing
This is for people who have been leitura Esme's Story:
I don't want to call it Esme Cullen story the whole time so I have come up with some ideas for names. please comment and tell me which ones you like. Ones i don't end up using for my story, feel free to use for any of yours:
Daybreak
Forever Awakening
Beyond Starlight
Nightfall
Sudden Dusk
Moonlight
Midnight Glimmer
Sunrise
Sunset
Dawn of Life
Precious Enchantment
If you can think of any others, please let me know
I want my story to have a mais interesting name so it draws mais attention than just 'Esme Cullen Story'. I went online to a list of words with 'atmosphere' and I found these words and made different combinations with them.
PLEASE HELP ME!!!
THANK YOU!!!
I don't want to call it Esme Cullen story the whole time so I have come up with some ideas for names. please comment and tell me which ones you like. Ones i don't end up using for my story, feel free to use for any of yours:
Daybreak
Forever Awakening
Beyond Starlight
Nightfall
Sudden Dusk
Moonlight
Midnight Glimmer
Sunrise
Sunset
Dawn of Life
Precious Enchantment
If you can think of any others, please let me know
I want my story to have a mais interesting name so it draws mais attention than just 'Esme Cullen Story'. I went online to a list of words with 'atmosphere' and I found these words and made different combinations with them.
PLEASE HELP ME!!!
THANK YOU!!!
Edward's Pov.
I wake up, finding myself asleep, in ropes, mouth covered. Everyone else is sleeping,
and I can't break myself out of it. Then, Jasper and the man, come in. I pretend to sleep.
"Should we do it now? Or later?"
"The killing of Bella? We will wait until she goes through what these guys experienced,
then, we will do them first. Then her."
No. No. NO!!!!! I must get my self out of this! I must find Bella and fast!!
What am I going to do! I can't get myself out!
Rosalie: Uh...
Jasper: Looks like sumbody's up! Can we do it now master? Please!?
Just so I know what to do with the others?
Master: Alright, but just her.
Rosalie: AH Mrjekjsnubgu!!!
NO!!! NOT ROSALIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wake up, finding myself asleep, in ropes, mouth covered. Everyone else is sleeping,
and I can't break myself out of it. Then, Jasper and the man, come in. I pretend to sleep.
"Should we do it now? Or later?"
"The killing of Bella? We will wait until she goes through what these guys experienced,
then, we will do them first. Then her."
No. No. NO!!!!! I must get my self out of this! I must find Bella and fast!!
What am I going to do! I can't get myself out!
Rosalie: Uh...
Jasper: Looks like sumbody's up! Can we do it now master? Please!?
Just so I know what to do with the others?
Master: Alright, but just her.
Rosalie: AH Mrjekjsnubgu!!!
NO!!! NOT ROSALIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Renesmee Pov.
I was excited when I heard that I got to do what my family does!
I was happy until now. That sign creeped me out. Greatly. Mom and
Dad were in front of the crowd, and I stood in the back seguinte to Emmett
and Rosalie. Uncle Emmett hugged me. He knew that I was dyingly scared.
"It will be okay. Uncle Jasper will be back to normal in no time," he said gently.
"Right. He will be fine," Aunt Rosalie said.
Suddenly, the large door opened, then, mom and dad entered proudly.
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I felt a chill spread through my body. Though, I felt like I need to help Jasper. He needs
help. My help.
As we entered the black castle, it was pitch black. There was a bondfire ahead of us and
it wasn't just a regular fire! IT MOVED! It showed us the way until we reached the main room.
Then there were three doors. Through the middle, we heard yelling and screaming from a
girl.
I was excited when I heard that I got to do what my family does!
I was happy until now. That sign creeped me out. Greatly. Mom and
Dad were in front of the crowd, and I stood in the back seguinte to Emmett
and Rosalie. Uncle Emmett hugged me. He knew that I was dyingly scared.
"It will be okay. Uncle Jasper will be back to normal in no time," he said gently.
"Right. He will be fine," Aunt Rosalie said.
Suddenly, the large door opened, then, mom and dad entered proudly.
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I felt a chill spread through my body. Though, I felt like I need to help Jasper. He needs
help. My help.
As we entered the black castle, it was pitch black. There was a bondfire ahead of us and
it wasn't just a regular fire! IT MOVED! It showed us the way until we reached the main room.
Then there were three doors. Through the middle, we heard yelling and screaming from a
girl.