Edwards pov when he is in italy

i cant live much longer, i nedto get to the voltri like, now!! if i stay hee much longer, ill
just go to the town centre to go into the sunlight. lets face it, im a pitiful excuse for a
Cullen, if i were a proper son to carlisle, i would go back to him now, beg him to take me
back and get on with my life. with doing this: going to the voltri, im being a coward, not
a cullen. i might as well get this over with. with that, i spd off in the shadows to reach
volterra, not wanting to expose myself now, ill do that if all else fails. there!! i can see the
gates to volterra, but, one small problem, how do i get over it?? esy, ill slp the guard some cash.
approaching the gate, the guard asks: "have you come for the festival? if so, sorry, but i cant let
you come, you should of come on the tour bus," he gestured to a cheaply painted bus, no bigger than
carlisle's car. I slipped him a handful of money, about seventy fifty pound notes. "oh, thanks, you
may enter,happy slaying!! the guard added, a plasticy slogan trying to amuse passing travellers.
The enterance to the voltri's antro, den was just here infront of me. pushing the door open with as little
effort needed, i stepped into the tunnels leading to the den. humans have been down here about a week
ago, i could smell it.racing along the thin, winding tunnels, i came to a thick wooden door. i stopped,
pondering over the idea of dieing, well, whatever happens to us when we claimd to of died. taking a deep
breath out of old habit, i silently said something to my love, even if she had moved on to life after death.
"Goodbye, my love, i will be with you soon enough, even if you will just push me away, like i deserve to be."
forcing the door open, i step inside an office. the woman at the escrivaninha, mesa greeted me, and offered me a assento and
reasured me they would see me soon. then i saw alec step out of the room where i should be, and he spoke to me.
"Edward, what are you doing here? have you decided to cadastrar-se us?" alec questioned.
"No, alec, i have come to ask of a favour." I answered and then the receptionist stepped through and said i
could enter. then i thought: i will be with you soon, my love......