My Love,
How are you?
Not the best way to start. How should I start? Should I – start? Do this? I knew the answer, of course. Nevertheless…
I miss you so.
Not good either. Not enough…
You have taken away with you every reason for my existence.
Definitely bad. She didn’t take it away. I did. I removed myself away from the very meaning of my life – or should I say, wretched, despicable, tormented existence?
Torment. Yes, How I knew it well.
Her eyes. Her lips…. As I’ve said, torment – in its purest form.
I remembered how it wasn’t like this before – when I was still with her. HER. Bella, my life, my love. MY (?) I should stop thinking of her this way. She is no longer mine. She could never be mine. She would never be mine.
Pain. Anguish. Agony.
They ripped, tore my insides.
I amor you.
Still and will always.
For all eternity.
That part, I want her to know, to believe. Could she still believe me after all I did to her?
Her eyes filled with tears – a too vivid memory.
I gasped. I choked. Regret washed over me.
I wish to see you., hear your voice., feel your warmth.
Aaah…this too much.
Away from you, it is unbearable.
Should I allow myself just a glimpse of her? Has she moved on?
NO! No, please….
Selfish…Always so selfish.
I tried to see the beauty you always saw in the night sky but the stars refused to shine for me tonight, my love. Is it because I am without you?
All I could see is her face.
All I could hear is her voice.
All I could smell is her scent.
How I long to be with her.
She haunts me now.
I smiled wryly - the roles are now reversed.
I sighed.
I wish you happiness.
However she may find it.
Without me…, in the arms of another…
Do I really wish that?
Yes, I thought fiercely. As long as she’s happy…
Hypocrite.
I fervently hope I cruz your mind once in a while.
I winced.
Idiot! Selfish Idiot!
Does she? Does she still think about me? Does she remember how much I amor her? How much I tried to be right for her? To be mais human and less of a monster for her?
Bella, my love, please be safe.
That’s all I ask of her. seguro – without me.
Pain engulfed me once again.
Is that all I wished for? NO.
I stared defiantly at where they said heaven should be.
I would trade everything; give up everything, for one mais blush, one mais smile, one mais kiss, one mais dia or night…
Even one mais segundo with her.
Yours, for all eternity.
I couldn’t sign my name.
I sighed.
I looked at the letter in my hand.
Every fiber in my being yearned to be with her, I never knew up to what extent, until now.
I balled my fist. Crumpling the letter in the process.
I wouldn’t…I couldn’t send it anyway. I promised I would stay away from her.
But then again, I’m not very good with keeping promises, especially the ones that concerned her.
The phone rang, disrupting my chaotic thoughts.
Thoughts of her.
I stared at it. Contemplating whether I should toss it outside the window, crush it with my fist or hurl it to the wall.
Violence…
I laughed bitterly. Such thoughts were constant for me now. Now that I am without her.
The ringing phone persisted.
Who may this be now? Emmet? Alice? Carlisle? Esme?
A twinge inside my lifeless chest.
My family. I truly am sorry for abandoning them. I sighed.
“Yes?” I asked lifelessly on the phone.
“Edward…She’s gone. I’m sorry. Come back home. We’ll wait for you.” Rosalie said in one breath.
I gripped the phone tightly.
“What are you talking about?” I demanded vehemently.
“Bella jumped off a cliff, Edward. Alice saw her. She’s at Forks now.”
I dropped the call and dialed a number etched in my memory.
How many times have I imagined calling this number? Countless. But never this way. Not this way.
“He’s at the funeral.” The biting voice replied on the other line after I asked for Charlie.
I tossed the phone aside. I have no strength – to crush it, hurl it. I do not care.
Her eyes. Her lips.
Her voice. Her smile. Her laughter.
Flashed before my eyes .Haunting me.
Gone?
“Why? Haven’t I had enough?” I shouted towards heaven.
“Why? Why?” I whispered brokenly.
I fell on my knees. Like the weak man, I always knew I am, I crumpled to the floor.
My love, the very reason why I still continue to exist…Gone…Dead…
I though I knew torment and anguish very well. I thought wrong. It was nothing compared to this.
I did this to her.
I lost her.
NO, it’s never too late, my mind rebelled.
I smiled viciously as I let sanity escape me.
Only the ache to be with her, to cadastrar-se her, wherever she is right now burned fiercely inside me.
“I will be with you, my love. Wait for me. I will find you.” I whispered
With this, determination runs through my veins.
I stood up.
Ran – as fast as before.
No, faster. I ran with all the strength and speed I have.
I gave in to sobs that has been trying to wrench their way out of my throat.
I ran, almost blindly for a vampire.
“Bellaaaaa.”
I now have a purpose. To end my existence. To cadastrar-se my beloved.
How are you?
Not the best way to start. How should I start? Should I – start? Do this? I knew the answer, of course. Nevertheless…
I miss you so.
Not good either. Not enough…
You have taken away with you every reason for my existence.
Definitely bad. She didn’t take it away. I did. I removed myself away from the very meaning of my life – or should I say, wretched, despicable, tormented existence?
Torment. Yes, How I knew it well.
Her eyes. Her lips…. As I’ve said, torment – in its purest form.
I remembered how it wasn’t like this before – when I was still with her. HER. Bella, my life, my love. MY (?) I should stop thinking of her this way. She is no longer mine. She could never be mine. She would never be mine.
Pain. Anguish. Agony.
They ripped, tore my insides.
I amor you.
Still and will always.
For all eternity.
That part, I want her to know, to believe. Could she still believe me after all I did to her?
Her eyes filled with tears – a too vivid memory.
I gasped. I choked. Regret washed over me.
I wish to see you., hear your voice., feel your warmth.
Aaah…this too much.
Away from you, it is unbearable.
Should I allow myself just a glimpse of her? Has she moved on?
NO! No, please….
Selfish…Always so selfish.
I tried to see the beauty you always saw in the night sky but the stars refused to shine for me tonight, my love. Is it because I am without you?
All I could see is her face.
All I could hear is her voice.
All I could smell is her scent.
How I long to be with her.
She haunts me now.
I smiled wryly - the roles are now reversed.
I sighed.
I wish you happiness.
However she may find it.
Without me…, in the arms of another…
Do I really wish that?
Yes, I thought fiercely. As long as she’s happy…
Hypocrite.
I fervently hope I cruz your mind once in a while.
I winced.
Idiot! Selfish Idiot!
Does she? Does she still think about me? Does she remember how much I amor her? How much I tried to be right for her? To be mais human and less of a monster for her?
Bella, my love, please be safe.
That’s all I ask of her. seguro – without me.
Pain engulfed me once again.
Is that all I wished for? NO.
I stared defiantly at where they said heaven should be.
I would trade everything; give up everything, for one mais blush, one mais smile, one mais kiss, one mais dia or night…
Even one mais segundo with her.
Yours, for all eternity.
I couldn’t sign my name.
I sighed.
I looked at the letter in my hand.
Every fiber in my being yearned to be with her, I never knew up to what extent, until now.
I balled my fist. Crumpling the letter in the process.
I wouldn’t…I couldn’t send it anyway. I promised I would stay away from her.
But then again, I’m not very good with keeping promises, especially the ones that concerned her.
The phone rang, disrupting my chaotic thoughts.
Thoughts of her.
I stared at it. Contemplating whether I should toss it outside the window, crush it with my fist or hurl it to the wall.
Violence…
I laughed bitterly. Such thoughts were constant for me now. Now that I am without her.
The ringing phone persisted.
Who may this be now? Emmet? Alice? Carlisle? Esme?
A twinge inside my lifeless chest.
My family. I truly am sorry for abandoning them. I sighed.
“Yes?” I asked lifelessly on the phone.
“Edward…She’s gone. I’m sorry. Come back home. We’ll wait for you.” Rosalie said in one breath.
I gripped the phone tightly.
“What are you talking about?” I demanded vehemently.
“Bella jumped off a cliff, Edward. Alice saw her. She’s at Forks now.”
I dropped the call and dialed a number etched in my memory.
How many times have I imagined calling this number? Countless. But never this way. Not this way.
“He’s at the funeral.” The biting voice replied on the other line after I asked for Charlie.
I tossed the phone aside. I have no strength – to crush it, hurl it. I do not care.
Her eyes. Her lips.
Her voice. Her smile. Her laughter.
Flashed before my eyes .Haunting me.
Gone?
“Why? Haven’t I had enough?” I shouted towards heaven.
“Why? Why?” I whispered brokenly.
I fell on my knees. Like the weak man, I always knew I am, I crumpled to the floor.
My love, the very reason why I still continue to exist…Gone…Dead…
I though I knew torment and anguish very well. I thought wrong. It was nothing compared to this.
I did this to her.
I lost her.
NO, it’s never too late, my mind rebelled.
I smiled viciously as I let sanity escape me.
Only the ache to be with her, to cadastrar-se her, wherever she is right now burned fiercely inside me.
“I will be with you, my love. Wait for me. I will find you.” I whispered
With this, determination runs through my veins.
I stood up.
Ran – as fast as before.
No, faster. I ran with all the strength and speed I have.
I gave in to sobs that has been trying to wrench their way out of my throat.
I ran, almost blindly for a vampire.
“Bellaaaaa.”
I now have a purpose. To end my existence. To cadastrar-se my beloved.
one eager look from you and por coração starts to soar.
i dont know how it could be. that i would amor you more
a taste of time right here in my hands words cant describe
what my eyes can.
side por side.i want all of you forever.no less time will ever do
you say how can you ask me to take your life.oh edward that was long atrás when
i looked into your eyes.
its apart of you and always will be.without you.i am incomplete
so take me por the hand and lead me anywhere.with you my time is yours to share. i amor you
bella
i dont know how it could be. that i would amor you more
a taste of time right here in my hands words cant describe
what my eyes can.
side por side.i want all of you forever.no less time will ever do
you say how can you ask me to take your life.oh edward that was long atrás when
i looked into your eyes.
its apart of you and always will be.without you.i am incomplete
so take me por the hand and lead me anywhere.with you my time is yours to share. i amor you
bella
Okay beacause I am a huge Twilight fã I have joined this club. I fell in amor after the first 3 chapters of Tiwilight and I am still in the process of leitura the books. If you could please at least say in the beginning of your artigo that it is concerning X books. That would help me out soooo much because I only have a limited amount of time I can read because of school and homework. The mentioning of things that I have not read yet is making me want to read the books so much mais and it has caused me to get in trouble at school for leitura when I shouldn't be. Thank you so VERY much.
okay so we all know that edward is the best charcter in twilight. why? because of how loving he is. He treats bella like if she were gold and his biggest treasure.Many of us wish to have a boyfriend or girlfriend like edward. It makes someone really happy to be loved so greatly.
Edward is amazing. That is why he is the best character of twilight because he really shows how much hes in amor and protects bella through alot of troubles. Another reason why we would amor edward would be because he is so hot!! hes the best looking in the movie! He is so GOOD looking...We all think that right? Cuz its so true!! hes awesome!!
okay so i havent read any of the books yet...but im judging from all the previews ive seen of the movie. Dont worry, ima read the book this week...ima go buy it at the store to read it! im so excited...!!!!! >.<
thank you for taking your time to read this (if u did read it...) please comment of wat u think of my article...=þ
Edward is amazing. That is why he is the best character of twilight because he really shows how much hes in amor and protects bella through alot of troubles. Another reason why we would amor edward would be because he is so hot!! hes the best looking in the movie! He is so GOOD looking...We all think that right? Cuz its so true!! hes awesome!!
okay so i havent read any of the books yet...but im judging from all the previews ive seen of the movie. Dont worry, ima read the book this week...ima go buy it at the store to read it! im so excited...!!!!! >.<
thank you for taking your time to read this (if u did read it...) please comment of wat u think of my article...=þ