This is my true confession about how angel Beats! have changed my life! Its a bit lengthy, but please read it and share your experience also!
I have been a crybaby from very start. Even when I grew up, I used to cry over little tiny things. Everyone used to tease me saying "You are such a crybaby" "You are so weak!" or used to scold me, yell at me saying "Don't cry, its not good for anyone if you cry!" "Its so irritating" "Try other ways to express your feelings" But what is another way? No one told me ever! I felt like being misguided. I am really weak at expressing my feelings. It really pissed me off! I felt miserable. I really didn't want to be called "Weak" "Crybaby" I wanted to become strong!
Then finally I decided not to cry a single tear. I tightened my coração and started to andorinha every sadness, insult, guilt and didn't cry a single tear. But it soon became really dangerous. I was not able to cry. I lost my power to express things. I lost my concentration on my destiny, started to loose faith and amor for everything. I lost myself. I was not the same person I used to be.
But then 6 months ago, I encountered angel Beats! First I thought plot is good, so it will be fine and I will not cry. But then, on Iwasawa's disappearance, I cried, only two tears. But it was much mais than two tears. And to my own surprise, I felt really good. I felt like everything is coming out, every feeling that I held so many years. So I decided to give up on angel Beats! that it was going to be painful for me. I was afraid of crying.
But soon I felt like this is the way, the only way to relieve myself from this anxiety and pressure. Then I re-watched angel Beats! I cried out loud, every moment of sadness and anger of my life was present there with me. I cried at my own sorrows as well as those of SSS. It felt good to cry with someone than miserably alone. angel Beats! changed my life in those few days.
Because of angel Beats!, I was able to find myself after these years of struggling. If I hadn't seen angel Beats!, I would not have escaped from this struggle and would have lost myself completely till now. But I will not loose myself now. Even if I am alone or sad, I will cry out my feelings and go on with life. I have understood that I am not weak only because I cry.
Thank you SSS and angel Beats! for saving me!
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