You look through drawers.. Once you find it..
What is it for..
You know damn well what its for.. You slid down the door..
You grip it tight in your right hand and pull up your sleeve..
You feel the cold metal press against your skin..
You press down till you know it's in..
Then?
You slice your wrist..
The pain stays not it going away..
You slice and dice again..
Pain... There it goes.. it's away..
Slice and Dice one mais time.. Then you're fading away..
Your thinking great.. The
Slice and Dice worked..
You finally black out..
But..
You wake in the morning and think to yourself
Oh Shit her we go Again..

There's a place where no one likes to be
So they save that little place for me
They shove me in and lock the door
They call me a dick, an ass, a man whore
They say shut up, they say fuck you
But none of them know what I'm going through
I've lost good friends. I've been a lost friend too
I've said I'll never love, and I've said I amor you
Deep down I know I deserve all the bad
I just miss the life that I once had
I miss my family, I miss my friends
I'm part of a nightmare that never ends
People leave, and people die
But the nightmare continues when I open my eyes
Everything feels like it's falling apart
I've broken my family, my faith, and my heart
Every time I think life can't get worse
I watch another friend ride off in a hearse
I don't remember how to smile, or even have fun
It's true when they say only the good die young

as cores of dark grey and black fill the world in which I live
No other feeling could possibly be worse than this
Where once was a room filled with laughter & Cheer
Now stands loneliness, emptiness and despair.

Memories of you seem to creep around the corners of my mind
Endless haunting imagens of your face that won't decline
An overwhelming of emotion that my body can't contain
Fills my soul with unbearable grief, sorrow and pain

Oh, How I long to hold you in my arms just once mais
And tell you that things will be again, as they were before
But, as reality sinks in, I know that will never be
For the choices that I've made in my life have sealed our destiny

No one could ever fathom how wretchedly my coração aches
And how I greatly regret that you've had to pay for my mistakes
If I could go back in time, and change only one wrong that I've done
I'd go back to the Hour, to the second, on the dia I lost you.

Depression is a state of mind
but remember my dear
it is a crime
to cut the throat of a beloved soul
and suck the life from within the hole
cruz out the lies that left your lips
and drink the blood with thirsty sips
snap her bones into shattered glass
hold your breath until the screaming pass
shout her name from miles away
he doesn't mover he doesn't stay.

Rip the wound with foolish tears
and cover the scar with dreaded fears
taste the pain on your own bandaged tongue
and drip the tears into her precious lungs
shoot the smile from her face
and bring her to a forbidden place
screaming, she runs away
he doesn't mover he doesn't stay.