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I was thinking about the way thing were going on around here. I know I’d been with Alice and the Cullen’s for a long time now. But the way they live isn’t the way I would like to live my life. Having to protect Bella for Edward was hard considering there were lobisomens around. I would like her to be a vampire, it’s hard trying to resist her blood every time she’s here, when she is here everyone acts as if I’m going to kill her so they’re always ready to stop me. I don’t like people thinking of me as the killer, I know I’m new to the whole drinking animal blood thing but I don’t plan to kill anybody. So I decided I would leave and go live my life the way I would like to live it. I wasn’t sure when the right time to tell Alice was. But she would be coming início soon from shopping with Rosalie, I would get us alone and I would tell her. “Jasper I see that you want to speak to me” She said as soon as she walked through the door. “Yes I would like to speak to you”
“Ok what do you want to say?” Everyone in the room was staring at us. “I would rather we spoke about this alone”
“Ok” She held my hand taking me up to our room. “Ok what do you want to say” She asked again shutting the door behind her. “I’m leaving Alice”
“No why?”
“It’s just this life, I’m not particularly enjoying it”
“You don’t amor me?”
“No Alice of course I amor you”
“Then why are you leaving”
“I don’t know how to explain it to you Alice”
“Take me with you if you still amor me”
“No Alice I want to go alone”
“Will I ever see you again?”
“Well I’m sure you’ll see”
“Don’t go I amor you” She said grabbing onto my arm as I walked out the room. “I’m sorry Alice” I walked away. “NO!” She shouted, I turned around and watched her fall to her knees. I wanted to turn around and hold her in my arms. But I couldn’t I had to leave. I ran down the stairs and out the front door so nobody could stop me. I got into my car, kicking it into reverse. I didn’t look back to see their faces, I just drove on not stopping.
I was thinking about the way thing were going on around here. I know I’d been with Alice and the Cullen’s for a long time now. But the way they live isn’t the way I would like to live my life. Having to protect Bella for Edward was hard considering there were lobisomens around. I would like her to be a vampire, it’s hard trying to resist her blood every time she’s here, when she is here everyone acts as if I’m going to kill her so they’re always ready to stop me. I don’t like people thinking of me as the killer, I know I’m new to the whole drinking animal blood thing but I don’t plan to kill anybody. So I decided I would leave and go live my life the way I would like to live it. I wasn’t sure when the right time to tell Alice was. But she would be coming início soon from shopping with Rosalie, I would get us alone and I would tell her. “Jasper I see that you want to speak to me” She said as soon as she walked through the door. “Yes I would like to speak to you”
“Ok what do you want to say?” Everyone in the room was staring at us. “I would rather we spoke about this alone”
“Ok” She held my hand taking me up to our room. “Ok what do you want to say” She asked again shutting the door behind her. “I’m leaving Alice”
“No why?”
“It’s just this life, I’m not particularly enjoying it”
“You don’t amor me?”
“No Alice of course I amor you”
“Then why are you leaving”
“I don’t know how to explain it to you Alice”
“Take me with you if you still amor me”
“No Alice I want to go alone”
“Will I ever see you again?”
“Well I’m sure you’ll see”
“Don’t go I amor you” She said grabbing onto my arm as I walked out the room. “I’m sorry Alice” I walked away. “NO!” She shouted, I turned around and watched her fall to her knees. I wanted to turn around and hold her in my arms. But I couldn’t I had to leave. I ran down the stairs and out the front door so nobody could stop me. I got into my car, kicking it into reverse. I didn’t look back to see their faces, I just drove on not stopping.
Preface
I had done it, all of it.
All of which I never wanted to do.
I had hurt her.
I had risked her life....again....
I had made her suffer.
I had caused her enough pain to last an eternity.
And here I was, getting ready to do give here more pain, getting ready to do what I always wanted and never wanted to do.
I took a deep breath, and the scent of her blood burned my throat like white hot knifes, though I did not have any urge to drink it.
Yes….This just proves it, I am a monster. How could I even think about my thirst when she was suffering because of me?
Because of me…yes, it’s entirely my fault.
I ignored the throbbing in my throat and injected the venom straight into her heart...the coração which will stop beating soon, the coração which was the reason for me to live, the coração which she had given to me to keep seguro just like how I had given her my silent heart, because of my selfishness, it was going to stop beating.....forever.
I had done it, all of it.
All of which I never wanted to do.
I had hurt her.
I had risked her life....again....
I had made her suffer.
I had caused her enough pain to last an eternity.
And here I was, getting ready to do give here more pain, getting ready to do what I always wanted and never wanted to do.
I took a deep breath, and the scent of her blood burned my throat like white hot knifes, though I did not have any urge to drink it.
Yes….This just proves it, I am a monster. How could I even think about my thirst when she was suffering because of me?
Because of me…yes, it’s entirely my fault.
I ignored the throbbing in my throat and injected the venom straight into her heart...the coração which will stop beating soon, the coração which was the reason for me to live, the coração which she had given to me to keep seguro just like how I had given her my silent heart, because of my selfishness, it was going to stop beating.....forever.