Probably 5 compared to most people. I dunno you that well but my mind isn't a pretty place to go into so por what I have seen of you. You are a -10 compared to me.
I mean alot of people are obsessed with horror filmes and things killing other things. That isn't unique or special and probably the state of my mind isn't unique as well but trust me when I say this: You are not that screwed up.