Michael, I don't know for sure what you know about me, if anything at all, or where you are now, but I still hope you've made it to heaven, or will soon, because you really do deserve it. If you do know anything abou me, you probably know that I never used to like you until your untimely death, that is. I'm sure you don't particularly like that about me, but I hope you don't hate me for it. I wish mais than anything that I could take back the last 13 years of my life & forget all about them, because they hold no meaning for me anymore. Everything about my life befre you came into it has no meaning to me whatsoever, & I'll spend the rest of my life trying to prove it.
The dia you died, Michael, everything stopped for me, as hard as I tried, I couldn't get you off my mind. The question, of course, is why? Why did I never feel one thing for you until that day? Why did you have such an effect on me? Why you? Of all the men in the world, why you? I amor you. There's you answer: I amor YOU. You are the one, the one I was put on this earth to be with. I know, of course, there are obstacles in the way of that: you're 37 years older than me, you're not alive anymore, & on topo, início of it all, there's no possible way you'd ever feel the same about me. But I don't expect to be loved back the same, I only want to know that you don't hate me for my past actions, & that you're finally at peace with life & with yourself.
I know there were times in your life that weren't so easy to deal with, but they're all in the past. The past is gone & it can never come back again, sometimes that's a good thing. It really hurts me to see how hurt you were then, even if I never felt it then. Like when Lisa Marie filed for divorce. Seeing her break your coração like that, it made me feel like punching her lights out, because I know how much you loved her. Or when you were sued for child molestation, you were forever scarred por that, I'm sure. I wish I could've been beside you, to be your reminder that everything would be alright in the end.
You know, everyone worries about the way they look, but they know they'll do something to themselves & look beautiful afterwards. But at times, you never thought you'd be attractive no matter what you did. You hated your appearence so much, you even went so far as to call yourself an "ugly lizard"(or something like that, I don't know exactly how you said it). I wish you hadn't said that, you're not even close to unattractive let alone ugly. When I look at you, I see surpassing beauty. You are beautiful, Michael, please believe me! I know I'm not the only one who thinks so, I'll bet most of the people who read this artigo will agree with me. To be totally honest, sometimes when I look at you, your beauty makes me jealous.
If I could sum you up in just 3 words, beautiful would be the first, the segundo would be loving. You see so many celebrities out there promoting causes for whatever, but most of them are only doing it to promote themselves. You did things like tht because it was the right thing to do, & you cared. You cared so much for the charity work you, the people you helped, etc. You have such a good heart, Michael; in fact it's where most of your beauty comes from. Your amor for the planet, children, your family, your fans, etc. That in itself is pretty amazing. You've forever engraved yourself into the hearts of your family, friends, & fans, especially me. You touched me, & now I declare my amor for you. My amor for you is nothing butpure & genuine, for if I'm lying, may I be struck to my death & sent directly to hell.
Unlike most girls my age, I know what true amor is: it's the eternal force that unites 2 people. It must be real or it's just infatuation. They must be willing to look past all obstacles & go to the ends of the earth for each other. I am willing to do that for you, Michael, because I know that if I can be as close to your coração as you are to mine, than it's all worth it. Beautiful, loving, & the final word would be forever. Your love, your memory, you are forever. You made your mark on history, the world will never forget August 29, 1958, November 30, 1982, May 16, 1983, & most of all, June 25, 2009. It's truly as if you're still alive because you've got your fãs on earth who'll work to sustain your memory forever.
You know, I still wonder, you used to think you were unloved, but then you had your kids & knew otherwise. If you never had your kids, would you still have died knowing you were loved? I don't know what your response would be to this, Michael, but I know if every single person in the world today who loves you died, the world would be a whole lot smaller. Even if all those people were against you, you'd still have one girl who'll always be true to you: ME. Fate brought me to you & now I'll never go back, I simply can't. I amor you too much to abandon you, believe me. If you were leitura this, you might think of me as a silly young girl who's either pitifully desperate, or certifiably insane, or even just plain stupid to think such thoughts, but I know you could never break my coração lke that, you're too sweet:)
Michael, I'm your friend, I'm always on your side, I'll always amor you, I'm waiting everyday, & praying every week for your entrance into heaven. Do you think if I was lying about anything I've written so far, that I'd spend an hora in church every week praying for you? Not that I'm making any accusations , I'm just saying. But like you said "If you enter this world knowing you're loved, & you leave this world knowing the same, than everything in between can be dealt with." Now that I've fallen in amor with you, I know now mais than ever that I can get through anything, as long as I have you & God beside me. Michael, I wrote this letter to fully express my feelings for you, so I'll close it in summary: MICHAEL JACKSON, I WILL ALWAYS amor YOU <3