Broken Mirrors
I was walking a long path, the most horrible path you can take, the one with thorns on the ground, blood on the trees, and dark clouds. The path of life. I was sad, alone, depressed. Because I was looking back at all the things I left behind, just so i can finish the path. I didn't know why, i just had to finish it. While I was walking it hit me, I have been walking this path forever, I want to reflect on everything, I don't want to take this path anymore. I sobbed and cried, and I didnt know where I was going. I crashed into something, and hard, cold, glass shattered on me. I could she blood. And all the peices of glass had a face on it, the faces of all the people i had to keave behind to keep going. The cuts hurt, and I realized I was stabbed through the chest. I stared at the sky, and a voice said to me, "After all this trouble, you have finished the path. Enjoy your freedom." I breathed and smiled, closed my eyes, and fell asleep, never to wake up again.
-Elizabeth Dillard (AKA Rock_n_Roll671)
I was walking a long path, the most horrible path you can take, the one with thorns on the ground, blood on the trees, and dark clouds. The path of life. I was sad, alone, depressed. Because I was looking back at all the things I left behind, just so i can finish the path. I didn't know why, i just had to finish it. While I was walking it hit me, I have been walking this path forever, I want to reflect on everything, I don't want to take this path anymore. I sobbed and cried, and I didnt know where I was going. I crashed into something, and hard, cold, glass shattered on me. I could she blood. And all the peices of glass had a face on it, the faces of all the people i had to keave behind to keep going. The cuts hurt, and I realized I was stabbed through the chest. I stared at the sky, and a voice said to me, "After all this trouble, you have finished the path. Enjoy your freedom." I breathed and smiled, closed my eyes, and fell asleep, never to wake up again.
-Elizabeth Dillard (AKA Rock_n_Roll671)
I feel like being both, but I feel like it's wrong to be both. everything with me is either one or the other.
On one hand,I feel like pushing people aside.Mostly because they annoy me,but also because I feel better when I'm alone. One the other hand,I feel like talking to everyone with joyfulness.
I feel like the whole world is frowning upon me.
But yet I feel like smiling and that I can do anything without being ashamed. Every time I do this though,it turns to be something to be ashamed about and just wanting to keep my happiness inside and to never show it again.
Feeling like crawling inside a hole.
Feeling sorrow,guilt,embarrassment,happiness,unstoppable,trapped,and furious all at the same time. It's driving me crazy!
Feeling like no one can save me from the depths of my disgrace.
All of my as cores have turned gray since the first dia I felt this way.
I know there's people who amor me and couldn't live without me,but that doesn't change the fact that I want to disappear. Because all I ever do is make mistakes.
Making the wrong mover at the wrong time is what I do. For there isn't room for people like me.
I don't want to feel any emotion. Not even amor for I fear there is still a gaping hole inside of me that I can't seem to fill.
Feeling detached from everything is the only way I can put how I really feel. Everything just seems so far out of reach. I want to be one of those people who feel complete but it seems impossible.
I am so weak because the only thing keeping me alive is my fear of pain.