We sat there in silence,i was looking at my stomack thinking.It hurts him for me to be in pain,any sort of pain.Mentaly and phyisicaly,and it hurt even mais when he knew the pain i was feeling was because of him.That if i never met him i wouldnt have to be going through it,and him knowing that he could have done something to stop it but this time he cant stop whats coming.And he hated that if he didnt do this to me i wouldnt have to suffer.
"Dont blame yourself edward just dont"i whispered to him.
"How can i not blame myself,bella?.I did this to you,and you have to suffer for my mistake i am going to be causeing you pain that you deserve.You didnt ask for this,i have taken everything away from you...everything"he said like he was in pain and whispering certen parts.
"You havent taken things away from me,maybe postponed then but not taken.I can go to collage when i blood thirsty part of being a new born passes.I am having a child so youre not takeing that away,i do have a future because i have a family to be with in the future and to watch Renesmee grow up"i said to him seeing him smile at parts.
"But you will never be able to have another.......um.........man in your life as in a husband"he said not being able to say it right.
"I know but i dont want another man in my life i already have all of them in my life"i said knowing that he would understand that i was saying this about him showing him i have not given up on us,i saw him smile.
We sat there for another while talking about what being a vampire will be like for me and how long it will take me to get over wanting to kill everything that has a heartbeat.
"Im sorry"he whispered.
"Dont be sorry"i said back to him.
"How could i not be sorry?,i have taken everything away from you.I have taken youre life away,you will not be able to grow old or go to collage with everyone else.And i have taken your chance to be..um..with another man because you will want to kill them"he shouted but then turned into a whisper towards the end.
"You havent taken anything away from me,you have given me this house you have given me Renesmee and i can go to collage when i get over wanting to drink everyones blood.And i dont want another man they all are idots,i have all the men in my life that i need and all that Renesmee will need so you can just stop saying sorry because there is nothing to be sorry about!"i shouted at him he looked shocked but happy aswell.
We sat there in silence thinking about what had just happened,then i started thinking about the house and how i had a swimming pool outside my cama room then i heard Renesmee:
"I want to go in it"i smiled and so did edward,i am able to hear her but it is like she has no voice.I cant remember it like i can remember edwards voice his is like velvet and sexy the voice that can make your knees go soft,there is not sound to it you just hear it but she will have a voice she will have a lovely voice.
"Well are you going to go swimming?"edward asked me
"I dont have a swimming suit"i said to him happy that i dont have one.But then the house phone rang,edward smiled and answered the phone.
"Hello Alice.....yes.....ok.......i thought you might say that.....alright thank you"he said then hung up.
"Alice said there is a swim suit in the bottom right draw on the left mural in youre closet"he said with a smug smile.
"Evil little pixie"i hissed and edward laughed out loud.
"What are you laughing at you have to get in too"i said to him while getting up.
"I dont mind it will be fun"he said while lifting me into his arms like you would hold a bride.
"Do you really have to do this?"i asked him.
"Yes i do dont want you getting hurt on the stairs do we"he said to me while running into my room then into my closet.
"You mind getting it for me i cant bend down"i said to him as he set me on my feet.
"Not a problem"he said then gave me the swimming suit.
"Thanks"i said to him as he walked out the closet.
"You need any help?"he asked my mouth fell open did he just dia that.
"No i can do it myself "i said to him and he left smiling.
I got changed and walked out the sliding double doors and over to the steps.I stood on the steps with the water covering my feet,i noticed that edward wasnt in yet.Then suddenly edward was standing beside me.
"Gosh scare me much"i said while trying to get my breathing back to normal.
"Sorry"he said smiling a dazzeling smile.
Then i noticed he was only wearing swimming shorts,he was beautiful from head to toe every inch of him was perfection.I could see the muscels in his arms and the ones on his stomack,he even had a six pack if that is possible for a vampire.He looked so strong and ...sexy,his skin looked velvet and smooth but strong and white.Then i looked up at his face,his perfect features all straight and alined.Then i looked into his eyes,and i got lost his golden eyes would make anyone get lost,they were a liquid gold he wasnt hungry.Then a little bit of light shone throught the clouds and onto edward,his skin started shining and he looked even mais beautiful if that is possible and it knocked the breth out of me.I was feeling alot of emotinons shy,love,lust and i was embarrased because he could feel them too.He started smiling at me like i was funny that made me turn bright red.
"I look like a hippo"i said to him he laughed.
"No you dont you dont know how many women wish they looked like you beinging pregnant i mean because some women cant have children,you look beautiful"he said and i knew when he said some women cant have children he ment Esme,Rosalie and Alice.Then i heard his thoughts.
"And she looks sexy"i gasped.
"Edward Cullen such inaproprite thoughts about a pregnant women"i said to him pretending to be shocked he smiled and said:
"You cant blame me...anyway im the one that got you pregnant"sounding smug then he pomba in the pool and started swimming.My mouth was hanging open im shocked did he really just say that?
I shoke my head then got in the pool,i didnt swim i just floated on my back with my ears under the water.It was nice just floating it was peacrful,calm and relaxing,then edward came up from the water right beside me.I gasped and turned around to i was in a standing postition and kicking my legs to i could stay afloat.
"Its nice here very relaxing"i said to him
"I think that is why they put this here"he said smiling.
"Arent you going to swim?"he asked.
"No i think i am just going to float since my stomack is like a floating ball it helps"i said laughing a bit he laughed too.
"1 minute"he said then went under the water.
But he didnt swim away,he was under the water in front of me.Then i realized when he turned me to the side he was looking at my stomack then he came back up.
"I see what you mean your quite big"he said while running his fingures through his hair.
"Oh thanks thats real nice"i said being sarcastic.
"Thats not what i ment,i mean she is big and you still have two months to go"he said to me.
"I know it looks like i am 9 months,i dont know if i can get any bigger"i said while putting my hands on my stomack.
"I'm going to get out now i going to have a shower"i said while going to the steps i got out and walked to the double doors.
"You dont have to get out you can stay in if you want"i said to him,he looked like he was in a different world his mind was else where.
"Thanks"he said snapping back to reality.
I walked into my ensuite and turned the chuveiro on then got undressed and got in it.It was lovely one of the best showers ever i spent a while in there so edward is probebly finished swimming por now.I got out and rapped a towel around me and walked into my bedroom,edward was lening against the double doors that led into the pool.
"Sorry the water in the other bathrooms isnt working mind if i use your shower?"he asked,i was shocked edward was in my room standing infront of me and i only had a towel rapped around me.
"Ya sure go ahead"i said he smiled.
"Thanks"he said then walked pass me and into my bathroom.
I walked into my closet and got dressed,i put on my pajamas a pair of shorts and a big t-shirt.Then i went down stairs and into the cozinha and started making myself some dinner.I was half way done when edward came in and walked over to me.
"I could have done that for you"he said looking at me cooking my dinner.
"Its okay im almost done anyway"i said back to him.
"I'll make it for you tomorrow"he promised and went into the front room,after a minuto i heard the t.v. being turned on.When i was finished cooking my jantar i went into the front room and sat on the sofa and started eating.Then i noticed that edward was staring at me:
"I know this doesnt look nice to you but it does to me,and stop staring at me its rude"i said to him and he laughed and started watcing tv and i carried on eating.
When i was finiashed i cleaned my plate and went and layed on the sofa,i felt really tired.I started watching the film Edward was watching but i couldnt keep my eyes open and i fell asleep after a couple of minutes.I dont know how long after i fell asleep i could feel i was being lifted up from the sofa and being carried.Edward was bringing me to my bedroom,he layed me into my cama and pulled the covers over me.
"Thank you"i whispered half asleep.
"My pleasure"i heard him say then i fell asleep again.
I soon fell asleep and started dreaming,it was me Edward and a little baby a girl im guessing it was Renesmee.Me and edward were sitting around the baby who was laying down on a very nice looking blanket.Me and Edward were tickleing her and she was giggling,we looked like a real family.Then Edward looked at me,then i noticed i was a vampire then edward and i kissed a passionate and loving kiss.We then looked at each other with such amor it was amazing,i just hope that one dia maybe this dream will become a reality.
Sorry it took so long my laptop is dying and it turns off so i have to start what i was composição literária all over again.But its here now so please tell me what you think.