Till and I sat at our usual window mesa, tabela in silence. Half way through jantar Till finally broke the long silence.
"Bella." He sighed a put down his fork on his plate.
Good. I needed to talk to him too. This relationship wasn't the same anymore.
"There is something I need to talk to you about." He went on.
"So do I." I told him and whiped my mouth with my napkin. My phone buzzed telling me I had a text message.
-I got your number from your friend Jessia. I hope you don't mind. Before school tomorrow, if you would like, we would all really enjoy it if you had breakfast with us at our house. My address is below. I hope to see you tomorrow.
I hit end on my amora, blackberry and looked back up at Till. "You go first."
He sighed and rubbed his temples. "Okay. This whole use thing...." He sighed and waited.
I could feel my breathing speed up. Wait this is what I wanted. I wanted us to be just friends.
"I think that we should see other people."
And that was it.
It felt like I was trying to breath without lungs and my coração was thudding trying to keep pace with my gasps.
"What?" I asked breathlessly.
"I amor you. But not as much as I used to."
It felt like I was falling adn anything I tried to hold onto crumbled in my hands like dirt.
I stood up unaware of the tears that were staining my cheeks untill they fell into my jacket.
I wanted to run away. I wanted to get out of here but I didn't want to go home. I needed someone to talk to and to hold me.
I could go to Jessica's but I knew she was the reason for Till's sudden decision. Even though I knew she wouldn't go for him I still don't think I could stand to look at her right now.
I didn't want to sulk to Charlie because he wouldn't be much help.
I spuinted through my overwelming tears as I drove down the street.
I pulled my phone out of my pocket and glaced back at a recent text message.
I was início alone tonight. The others wouldn't be back untill tomorrow morning. Alice had insited I stay not bothering to mention why. But Alice was wise, so I didn't argue.
I sat on the front steps of my new house looking up through the break in the trees. I tried to see the stars but the thick clouds were blocking the view. I saw head lights sweep through the tree's and saw an unfimilar old truck stop infront of me.
I stood, walking to the girl that step out of the truck. My coração lept when I saw it was Bella, but it sunk when I saw the tears streaming her face. I grabbed her in a hug not needed an explanation. She gripped onto the back of my camisa as she sobbed into my chest.
I led us to the steps where I held her close and waited for her untill she was ready to talk.
I smoothed down her brown wavy hair and put my forhead to the crown of her head.
Her sobs eventually stopped leaving her gasping when she would breath.
So this is what it was like to hold your soul mate in your arms.
Alice had seen her and I had seen her in Alice's thoughts. We were normal humans...with super powers. Ugh. Who am I kidding. Normal?
"Would you like to go inside?" I asked her in a whipser.
She nodded weakly and I scopped her up in my arms. She locked her fingers around me and laid her head on my neck.
I carried her up the stairs and laid her on my bed. She cried for at least half an hora and was bound to be tired.
I pulled off her boots for her and her jacket, folding the cover over her. I laid beside her and she wiggled closer to me.
I wrapped one arm around her waist holding her to me.
"Do you want to talk about it?" I whispered in her ear.
She sighed and spoke quietly. "He did the exact thing I was going to do."
Her voice crack when she spoke. I ran my hand up and down her side calming her, waiting for her to continue.
"He told me we needed to see other people. That's what I wanted, but I don't understand how it could hurt so much." A tear ran across the bridge of her nose and I whiped it away with the back of my finger.
"I'm sorry he hurt you." I told her.
"It's not your fault. Plus this is what I wanted. I have to remember that." Sighed pulling her self closer to me.
"You can sleep." I told her.
She sighed heavly her arm laying across my chest. I listened and waited for her breathing to slow and it finally steadied.
I laid my cheek against her head falling asleep.
I parked my truck and opened my door.
He had gotten up from his steps and was already standing infront of me. He looked at me and smiled slightly before his face looked pained. Tears were still rolling down my cheeks and my arms were wrapped around my chest.
Without warning he pulled me to his chest and wrapped his arms around me.
I sobbed into his chest and clinged to the back of his shirt. This was the embrace I had longed for. From this coração break and from Till, which he never seemed to have.
He pulled me over to the steps and sat, still holding me in his arms. His hands smoothed down my hair and he put his head to mine letting me cry myself out.
I wasn't sure how long I had been crying and now that I had stopped when I would breathe in my lungs would gasp for air.
"Do you want to go inside?" He whispered in my hair.
I wasn't sure I could talk just yet so I nodded, letting him pick me up in his arms. I held onto him and leaned my head against his neck.
He laid me down on a cama and pulled off my boots and jacket. Normally I would have done it myself but I was to tired.
He covered me with a blanket and laid beside me.
I pulled myself closer to him craving his ebrace again. He put one arm around my hip like he was keeping me there.
"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked.
I didn't want to, but I knew I needed to. I sighed and opened my eyes.
"He did the exact think I was going to do." My voice cracked so I waited before I went on. Edward's hand traced up and down my hip and side. I wondered if he knew how tempting it was.
"He told me that we needed to see other people. That's what I wanted, but I don't understand how it could hurt so much." A tear excaped my eye and he whiped it away with his finger.
"I'm sorry he hurt you."
"It wasn't your fault." I told him. "Plus this is what I wanted. I have to remember that." I sighed.
"You can sleep." He told me.
I didn't care that I was suposed to be home. I had told Charlie I would be out late, and not to wait up, but I wouldn't be there when he woke up. I would have to think of an excuse tomorrow. I sighed and but my arm over Edward's chest gald to have him near and drifted away.