Dear Diary
alright well i had a dream the other night.
i'm sitting in my room it's 12:00 and i'm still up thinking about the wedding. "hey bells!"
i jump when i hear jakes voice from the other end of my room.
"o oi jake wat r u doin here?"
"o nuthin. i was just really bored nd i just thought i'd come see you considering that tonight is your last night as bella."
"well you know edward might not change me right after the wedding i mean maybe later. who knows i might even come back from the honeymoon still human."he flinched at the word honeymoon.
"haha maybe."
"well wat's the gossip on the pack?" i asked
"nuthin' really it's been pretty boring ever since you stopped causing trouble with me." he smiled my smile.
"well those were the days huh?"
"yup. oi you know what would be fun to do one of your last single nights?"
"what?" i asked
"go cliff diving one last time.
"ya ya we should go cliff diving!" i don't know why i said that and that's when the dream took a turn for the worst.
"you ready?" jake asked. out of no where we wereon the cliff that i remembered drowning under almost 2 years ago.
"um i don't know anymore jake. i never thought about jumping before i jumped and i already got to thinking."
"THEN STOP THINKING!" jacob said as he threw me off the cliff.
i felt just like i did the last time i dove. i felt excited and powerful. but when i opened my eyes i realized that my jacob jusst threw me off a cliff. a cliff who's defecet was a group of big sharp jagad rocks and that's what i was headed for. i was plumeting to my death full of pain and all i thought about was 'why would jake do this to me?'. when i was about half an inch away from those sharp jagad rocks that would for surely kill me..... i woke up.
'why would my jacob do that to me?' i asked myself when i woke up crying. sobbing actually.
alright well i had a dream the other night.
i'm sitting in my room it's 12:00 and i'm still up thinking about the wedding. "hey bells!"
i jump when i hear jakes voice from the other end of my room.
"o oi jake wat r u doin here?"
"o nuthin. i was just really bored nd i just thought i'd come see you considering that tonight is your last night as bella."
"well you know edward might not change me right after the wedding i mean maybe later. who knows i might even come back from the honeymoon still human."he flinched at the word honeymoon.
"haha maybe."
"well wat's the gossip on the pack?" i asked
"nuthin' really it's been pretty boring ever since you stopped causing trouble with me." he smiled my smile.
"well those were the days huh?"
"yup. oi you know what would be fun to do one of your last single nights?"
"what?" i asked
"go cliff diving one last time.
"ya ya we should go cliff diving!" i don't know why i said that and that's when the dream took a turn for the worst.
"you ready?" jake asked. out of no where we wereon the cliff that i remembered drowning under almost 2 years ago.
"um i don't know anymore jake. i never thought about jumping before i jumped and i already got to thinking."
"THEN STOP THINKING!" jacob said as he threw me off the cliff.
i felt just like i did the last time i dove. i felt excited and powerful. but when i opened my eyes i realized that my jacob jusst threw me off a cliff. a cliff who's defecet was a group of big sharp jagad rocks and that's what i was headed for. i was plumeting to my death full of pain and all i thought about was 'why would jake do this to me?'. when i was about half an inch away from those sharp jagad rocks that would for surely kill me..... i woke up.
'why would my jacob do that to me?' i asked myself when i woke up crying. sobbing actually.
i have been with Edward for 2 years and i don't feel like our relationship is going anywhere, all we do now is have sex and that's mainly it. we were better of friends than boyfriend and gorlfriend i mean before we got together we used to talk, hang out and everything. i miss it.
but resantly Edwrad has been distint i mean he comes knocking for me at 1 0 clock in the morning asking me do i want to go out. i can tell if he does that one mais time Charlie is going to hit him, so for his benefit he better not do that again.
why do people change?
it's really bugging me. i see him all the time flirting with other girls, but if he caught me flirting with an another guy he would go mad and get all jealous.
why does he care? i mean if he can flirt with other girl's i'm sure i can flirt with other guys.
he is really starting to get on my nerves.
Do i amor him?
Should i dump him?
i guess i'll find out soon enough. This is his last chance.
Bella's pov
Charlie had been prety bad for weeks but i just put it down to it being the winter man flu, until carlisle told me...
"Bella dont freak out but Charlie ain't good." Edward told me before i spoke to Carlisle, probible to worn me to keep my emotions locked up since i was only a ano old, my power still cept me bizzy.
Renesmee came walking not skipping
towords me witch was diffrent for her, so something must have been up with Charlie.
"Mum just do as dad says... you need your strength to keep calm for Charlies sake no one elses."
"can somebody just tell me what is going on already, you've been telling me to keep calm for Charlies sake but i'm starting to freak out because i don't have a clue what is wrong with him."
"Mum breath, calm down." Renesmee tried to calm me but the longer it toke for sombody to tell me what was wrong with my dad, I was getting wears.
Charlie had been prety bad for weeks but i just put it down to it being the winter man flu, until carlisle told me...
"Bella dont freak out but Charlie ain't good." Edward told me before i spoke to Carlisle, probible to worn me to keep my emotions locked up since i was only a ano old, my power still cept me bizzy.
Renesmee came walking not skipping
towords me witch was diffrent for her, so something must have been up with Charlie.
"Mum just do as dad says... you need your strength to keep calm for Charlies sake no one elses."
"can somebody just tell me what is going on already, you've been telling me to keep calm for Charlies sake but i'm starting to freak out because i don't have a clue what is wrong with him."
"Mum breath, calm down." Renesmee tried to calm me but the longer it toke for sombody to tell me what was wrong with my dad, I was getting wears.