October is always a haunting mês since it ends with Halloween; but ours was much worse than some haunted mansion. It first started off with exams the first week since it was the end of the first quarter; but after that it was a downward spiral. It started with an appetizer of realms destroyed, then a side of loneliness, then an entrée of restoring realms followed por a sobremesa of a battle against our old enemies and our best friend Flo who was turned. They say October is the most disturbing and ominous month, boy did they get that one right. Honestly I wished October never happened; but yet it did and I think it was showing us the worst has yet to come and it did in June. If I couldn't have done anything to stop the worst I would have but I couldn't and it bugs me to think about it. I feel like October was my fault since I was the only one not taken besides Riven and it seems like I caused; but the all told me I can’t blame myself for it and I still think it is not matter how much they comfort me. However when Flora told me it wasn't my fault on Dia das bruxas once we were all together again, and I believed her because she was so nice and never did anything wrong unless she was under a spell; but that wasn't her control it was the dark magic that cursed her. If I could done something mais in October and June I would have; but I really believe this is all my fault and could have done something more; but I couldn't or didn't if I was capable and now nothing seems to work even when I replay the events and tell me it wasn't my fault at all. Now all I do is cry myself to sleep and think this is my fault when it really isn't at least I think so.
