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karenmiller1972 said:
I think in the beginning, Harry reminded him to much of James. I believe it was too much of a challenge to separate his memories of James from the way Harry looked, especially at and in Hogwarts, the site of all his most horrible memories of James and the Mauraders, and Lily's defection. Quite frankly, I've always believed that it was at the moment when Albus told him his plan that Harry must die at the 'fated' moment, that Harry became real as a person to him. That was when Harry was separated most definitely from James' image and placed in the same category that Snape held, that as 'pawn' in the game being played between Voldemort and Albus. It truly made Harry and Severus equals in the same field. And maybe brought Severus to a new understanding of all Harry's (and Hermione and Ron) past misdeeds as Harry struggled against other's control of his life. Something I'm sure that Severus felt but suppressed due to his overwhelming feelings of guilt and struggle for atonement. Can you imagine the quagmire of emotion that filled Severus upon casting Avada Kadavra on Albus? Yes, it was at Albus' request. But, have you not ever felt betrayal at a parent figure or some other important person for not telling you a truth they knew, from hiding it from you? You have to mean Avada Kadavra when you cast it. Yes, he was doing it upon Albus' request, yes, it was a mercy to him, yes, it was incorporated in Albus' plan. But, here was the man that had quided him in all his actions to protect this child of Lily's, even though this child constantly reminded him of James, but he did his job because this was Lily's child, and to suddenly find that Albus planned for Harry to die all along, without sharing that with him. I think por that time, it was the absolute for Severus. He was probably glad to die before Harry. Can you imagine after all those years, to be told Harry HAD to die, and that he must stand por when it happens, after having to stand por earlier when Charity B. was killed in front of him? I think it was at the moment that Albus told him Harry must die, that Severus lost all hope. So, long answer short, I don't think Severus Snape always cared about Harry. I don't think he 'cared' about Harry at all. I think Harry was just James' child, that was born por Lily, till that fateful moment Albus told him about Harry's fate. Then Harry became a real person, became Lily's son, in Severus' eyes. Not that Severus' would have 'cared' for Harry at that point, but empathized with him, that I could see.
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