Selena Gomez Says Her ‘First Love’ Was ‘Weird’ But ‘Incredible’ 

Selena Gomez Says Her ‘First Love’ Was ‘Weird’ But ‘Incredible’

While she doesn\'t mention his name, this has to be about Justin Bieber.

Selena Gomez may have some “bumps,” “scars” and “bruises,” but guess what? She loves them all.

The pop star not only bares some skin for the cover of

, she also gets candid in an interview with “Spring Breakers” co-star James Franco for the issue. Gomez gets personal about past and present relationships.

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“I think the next time [I have a boyfriend] will be much different … which will definitely not be any time soon,” the singer/actress said.

Hold up, so does that not mean she and Zedd aren’t a thing? Have Zeddlena gotten together strictly for their “I Want You to Know” collaboration? We need answers.

While she doesn’t discuss her current relationship status any further, Selena does talk about her “first love,” which I think we can all assume is Justin Bieber, though she doesn’t mention him by name.

“I was 18 years old, and it was my first love. The older I get, I’m guarding certain things more,” she revealed. “After being put through the scrutiny, I understand what it is. When you’re young and you’re being told so many different things … it almost felt like all we had was each other, like the world was against us, in a way.

She continued, “It was really weird, but it was incredible. I would never take it back in a million years. You live and you learn, you know?”

Being in the public eye, especially while in a relationship, has clearly taken its toll on the “Heart Wants What It Wants” singer, who claims she doesn’t read “anything about me anymore at all.” She told Franco that she suffered “anxiety” and was “a little depressed.”

“It just causes a lot of anxiety. There were a few months where I was a little depressed, where I wouldn’t leave as much,” Gomez added of her high-profile image. “I think I drove myself crazy for a little bit. It was just easier to say, ‘Hey, do you mind running to the grocery store and picking some stuff up? I don’t want to get photographed.’ … My response was to stay in, which sucked. That’s what I was trying to fix this past year, I’m finally getting a little bit more comfortable. It’s a process.”

It looks like everything is falling into place for Selena, who said that this is “the best I’ve ever felt in my life.”

“I think this year is going to be incredible. I’m super stoked that I’ve got some bumps on me, some scars, some bruises. I actually really love that,” she admitted. “And I don’t mean that in a morbid way. It was great to experience really beautiful things, and then, you know, have the growing pains, in every possible manner, in every relationship. It was family, it was business, it was buying my first home, moving out of my parents’ house.

“There was so much going on. You can’t help but have some troubles here and there. I don’t think it’s a smooth process for anyone, and it definitely wasn’t for me.”

Christina Garibaldi has been an on-camera reporter for MTV News since 2011. When not interviewing or writing about her favorite stars, she keeps herself busy with baby animal videos and boy bands.