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wantadog said …
See Riku made a mistake asking me to watch amor Stage with her cuz now we get weird statements like "So Rape is ok so long as you put them through hell?" Posted faz 11 meses
Riku114 said …
Personally, part of the reason the reason I am working mostly on my trauma and PTSD and recovering from it over all the other stuff I have is because Im like 90% sure pretty much every other issue of mine has strong roots in said trauma.

If I try to knock those out, theyll just come back sooner or later if the thing they are rooted in isnt fixed first. Do such a thing is like trying to remove weeds por clipping them in half. Posted faz 11 meses
Riku114 said …
Akashi - KNB
Byakuya - Bleach
canhão - Umineko no Koro Ni
Daiki Aomine - KNB
Eggsy - Kingsman
Ferid Bathory - Owari no Seraph
Guren Ichinose - Owari no Seraph
Hibari Kyoya - KHR
Izumi Sena - amor Stage
James - Pokemon
Kano Shuuya - Kagerou Days
Lussuria - KHR
Misogi Kumagawa - Medaka Box / Muramasa - Bleach
Nagito Komaeda - Danganronpa
Ogami - Danganronpa
Peko Pekoyama - Danganronpa
Quill Peter - Marvel
Raikou - Nabari No Ou Posted faz 11 meses
Riku114 commented…
Saix - Kingdom Hearts Tsurara - Nurarihyon Ukyo - Amnesia Viral - Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagaan Wallace - Pokemon Xanxus - KHR Yuri - DDLC Zack Foster - anjos of Death faz 11 meses
Riku114 said …
I'm going through my youtube "Watch Later" which is pretty much a list of vídeos I saved cos I likeed them and felt Id like to see them again in the future, so if I post a lot of vídeos on this club, thats why Posted faz 11 meses
BlindBandit92 commented…
Ya I do that a bit too much with other sites tbh. faz 11 meses
cool
GDragon612 said …
eyo guys I am back nowe tehehehe
so whats up in da house =D Posted faz 11 meses
Riku114 commented…
oi sup XD Nothing much faz 11 meses
TheLefteris24 commented…
Welcome back, Kitkat. Nothing much for me either. Just trying to enjoy some of Summer's freedom. How about you? faz 11 meses
GDragon612 commented…
omo thank ya riku and leftie I am doing F***ing great hehe,kat is relaxed now and getting brown skin like a chocolate *eats myself* =p faz 11 meses
Riku114 said …
Okay so rant time. Posted faz 11 meses
Riku114 commented…
Part of the reason DCI is amazing - at least with the world class corps - are that they BLAST your face off while sounding great. Its one of the things that come with the name of Drum Corps and its loved. faz 11 meses
Riku114 commented…
LAST year, a huge trend was a shit ton of amplification with microphones everywhere and shit and personally, it was quite annoying since it didnt sound nearly the same or as good. Yeah, amplification for the soloist and shit is good and normal, but they went around pretty much amplifying the entire band and it was bleh. It actually became a fonte of debate among people who like DCI faz 11 meses
Riku114 commented…
Havent looked at any of the non-west coast shows yet tho. Saving that for Finals faz 11 meses
wantadog said …
There is no pair of games mais addicting than Sonic Forces and Huniepop Posted faz 11 meses
Riku114 said …
I am stubborn as hell, both for and against my own good XD Posted faz 11 meses
wantadog commented…
It's super annoyi-I mean charming XD faz 11 meses
wantadog commented…
jk faz 11 meses
wantadog commented…
mooooostly XD faz 11 meses
Riku114 said …
d e p e r s o n a l i z a t i o n

i s

w e i r d

a s

f u c k Posted faz 12 meses
Riku114 commented…
Actually I only had it for like.... two minutos but being slowly pushed out of your body and not being able to connect your face with your identity in the mirror for like.... that small period is weird as fuccccck faz 12 meses
wantadog commented…
I leave you alone for three hours...Riku Riku Riku. Imma have to keep a closer eye on you XD faz 11 meses
Riku114 commented…
Shut up :vvv faz 11 meses
Riku114 said …
UPDATE. I still kinda fear and anxiety around women that look feminine and social. Posted faz 12 meses
wantadog said …
I have a really nice cama Posted faz 12 meses
Riku114 commented…
You are in Florida faz 12 meses
wantadog commented…
So is my bed. Thus...I have a really nice cama that I get to lay on faz 12 meses
wantadog commented…
Why? What you think I meant? faz 12 meses
Riku114 said …
I want to lay down on a reaaalllly nice cama Posted faz 12 meses
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ #Relatable !!!! faz 12 meses
wantadog said …
Riku now officially thinks I know nothing about how rape works Posted faz 12 meses
Riku114 commented…
Naaah XD I was just playing with your game faz 12 meses
wantadog commented…
Rape isn't a game, Riku. Seriously show some restraint.... faz 12 meses
wantadog commented…
They certainly wont XDDDD faz 12 meses
Riku114 commented…
:v faz 12 meses
Riku114 said …
Seriously though. Its been a while since I spent 50% of the time Im awake being mildly depressed or down / low mood for no reason and if you remove the time Im distracted, its probably a good 80% of the time.

Sometimes it goes from mildly to kinda badly at night if Im not on my A game at countering it but... eh.

Also my scale of "mild to severe" depression might be skewed cos Im referencing it off past experiences and mannnn was a bad before.

It just really sucks bunda Posted faz 12 meses
Riku114 commented…
I'll be fine because its something I've had for a long while and compared to other things Ive lived through, this is literally like going back to the first dungeon in a RPG game after you completed the game faz 12 meses
Riku114 commented…
Its not really concerning, but it just sucks ass. I should try to find some time to talk to some other people from my school and maybe hang out but thats a huuuuge step for me. faz 12 meses
Riku114 commented…
Yeee. I dunno if it is REALLY a good thing, but at the very least in the like... week or so that Ive been on summer break, Ive probably a massed mais hours of genuine good mood / happiness than I did all of last years summer :v yeesh last ano summer was bad :v But Ill take that as a positive note XD faz 12 meses
wantadog said …
Oh my goooood. That was such a friggin long dia at work.... Posted faz 12 meses
Riku114 said …
THIS ícone HELPS MY MOOD SOME HOW Posted faz 12 meses
Riku114 commented…
Seriously amor Stage has been great for keeping my mood up at night. Might watch it myself again after I finish it and might just keep rewatching it at night until summer is over. Either that or swithc over to Romeo X juliet faz 12 meses
Riku114 said …
amor Stage is both WAY mais gay than I remember and wayyyy cuter than I remember Posted faz 12 meses
Riku114 said …
Honestly my dad going back to actually laying a hand on my mom is really all it takes. Im like... pretty sure I might just call social services on my dad so I can perhaps go to UC Davis feeling like Im not leaving my mom alone to be beat Posted faz 12 meses
Riku114 commented…
Because apparently hes perfectly fine hitting my mom when my back is turned and not watching him with the constant unspoken threat that Ill kick his bunda when he tries to faz 12 meses
Riku114 commented…
And I have been disowned por him for saying he deserves the deepest layer of hell, which honestly to that I say "Good riddance" faz 12 meses
Riku114 commented…
^ faz 12 meses
Riku114 said …
Had to beat my dad for hitting my mom. Would have put him in a chokehold until he fainted if my mom let me. Posted faz 12 meses
wantadog said …
Lefteris knows how much I want cannibalism in Danganronpa so if I don't get any from V3, I'm blaming him Posted faz 12 meses
TheLefteris24 commented…
Gotta let it go, my Man XD !!!! faz 12 meses
JetBlack_ said …
Let’s watch Riku sleeping

https://imgur.com/a/DY4lSo8 Posted faz 12 meses
TheLefteris24 commented…
That kinda Creepy though... faz 12 meses
JetBlack_ commented…
Be quiet xD faz 12 meses
Riku114 commented…
I amor watching Riku sleep faz 12 meses
wantadog said …
I'm so fucking angry....

The one time Riku actually wants to stay up and hang out and I fell asleep in my chair.

ugh....I'm just so pissed off right now.

and she's asleep so all I can do is vent in aleatório places. UGH Posted faz 12 meses
wantadog commented…
fuck my life faz 12 meses
wantadog commented…
fuck my job for making me tired faz 12 meses
JetBlack_ commented…
Drink soda or coffee xD faz 12 meses
Riku114 said …
I'm honestly not used to the feeling of people liking me and wanting me just for being myself and doing nothing. Its not something my mind can embrulho, envoltório itself around properly. Posted faz 12 meses
TheLefteris24 commented…
Gotta get used to it because we wouldn't have it any differently XD !!!! faz 12 meses
Riku114 said …
Seriously tho, pretending your intrusive thoughts are some really annoying blabby outspoken person make it a lot easier XD Posted faz 12 meses
Riku114 commented…
Suggestions: 12-year old X-Box kid, annoying backseat driver, super uptight religious lady, Know it all Greg, Casper the Wanna-Be Horror Ghost faz 12 meses
Riku114 said …
Personally, I dont really like seeing little kids too often since it usually puts into perspective the shit I was going through.

I amor kids and all, but I always have that "Oh shit." moment when I realize how young I really was. Posted faz 12 meses
Riku114 said …
Hot diggity, I had to get new headphones cos my old ones were pretty shitty and I had to like... mess with it to hear música right

And shit the ones I got my boyfriend a while back for a gift were AMAZING.

I got him better headphones than I currently had :v I mean I only buy heaphones once a ano and usually go for whats cheap / on sale rather than anything else

But dang. Posted faz 12 meses
Riku114 said …
I'm honestly quite concerned my mom wont maintain the attention and training Ive done with Lucy and Avery over the ano Ill be gone at UC Davis without an ability to have a pet :/ Posted faz 12 meses
JetBlack_ commented…
Don't you know anyone who can temporarily adopt your birds who is expert with training? faz 12 meses
Riku114 commented…
Nah I wouldnt trust that honestly. And no not particularly cos Im the bird person in the like... entire school XD faz 12 meses
Riku114 commented…
Best person I know is my older sister who is in Utah but getting them there is.... eh. faz 12 meses
wantadog said …
Man I know I have to write her bio but T-T

Poor Koko....I feel bad for her having such a fucked up premise Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
:v I dont thinks shes half as bad as like 30% if not mais of mine XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I kinda wanna play the School Days Visual Novel XD Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Same. I might not be a big fã of the Series in general but it is certainly intriguing !!!! over a year ago
wantadog said …
Fanfic: Anal bead Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
*Colorful anal bead over a year ago
wantadog commented…
*Colorful singular anal bead over a year ago
wantadog said …
Welp. Riku accidentally added $50 onto her Steam when she meant to wait for my response.

So I guess I don't have to be indecisive on the big commitment Danganronpa games with Riku is XD

Cuz I am now $48.58 cheaper. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
You are welcome for me accidentally clicking "Purchase" while I was setting it up as a possibility. Now we both have Danganronpa V3 and didnt have any indecisiveness XD over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Welp. I literally accidentally added $50 onto my Steam when I meant to just consider, check my account, then buy it

So I guess I dont have to be indecisive about buying Danganronpa V3

Cos if I have $54 on my Steam, I might as well. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Hopefully my PC can handle it over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
If not itll be put off till I proabbly get a new computer part way through or before college XD over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
ACCIDENTS CAN BE SO WONDERFUL AT TIMES !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Apparently spending 3 hours cleaning bird shit makes you smell really bad Posted over a year ago
wantadog commented…
Or it makes the birds smell nice over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Me: Im having stomach issues

Psychiatrist: Its probably the medicine - eat yogurt daily

Me: Kay *does it for a week and then stops*

*four months later*

Me: Yeah I kinda got used to stomach issues. They dont really stop so *shrug*

Mom: Its probably the medicine

Me: Yeah I was told to eat yogurt

Boyfriend: Then eat yogurt

Me: Ugh but thats so much work. Fineeeee

*literally hasnt had stomach issues since I started eating yogurt again* Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Yes, I am the type that would be too lazy to ask for and eat yogurt daily even if it means Ill be having daily stomach and digestional issues everyday over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Im honestly the type that takes a huge push to ask for what I need tho. Like I should probably ask for some kind of orthopedics cos my feet are getting flat af and it has been hurting mais and mais XD over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Yogurt can be really nice XD It has certainly done wonders for me !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
It helps por lining the stomach XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Part of the reason and manner I managed to repair my mental health and stay mostly in a good mood is cause I got really good at deciphering which thoughts were necessary and which werent and avoided letting the unnecessary negative ones linger

But honestly when they last a whole day, morning to night, it gets kinda hard to keep the energy to constantly decipher which it is and sort it and mentally focus on not letting it get to you.

Yesterday was rough Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I could use some genuine affection though.

I will let that statement stay on the mural since its true. Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Never hesitate to seek it out. There are those who are genuinely willing to give it to you !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I honeslty do not handle the social isolation (or rather demand for me to actually go and put effort into talking to people), lack of a set schedule and goal, weather, and amount of time at início I get in summer

It just really makes summer really bad for my mental health and shit. Especially with college being added among all that for my brain to try to make me anxious or depressive over.

It was starting yesterday and it put SO much effort to it today Posted over a year ago
wantadog said …
Man I just amor the game Sonic Forces so much. It gives me such a feeling of bliss. I even loved it so much, I wanted to invite Riku to watch.

She said no. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
XD over a year ago
wantadog commented…
Look at her. I'm deeply saddened and she smiles. over a year ago
wantadog commented…
A cruel mistress she is over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Also I dunno if I sound like it, but I dont hate YandereDev or anything. Its just a bit of a shattered image I had before. I still do appreciate his work towards things and his ability to chase his dream and all, plus I understand where he is coming from. I just disagree with his personality and his actions.

Personally, Im still going to follow its development, but yeah. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Ugh. Its literally been two days into being out of school - a literal weekend worth

And my brain is already excited to start Summer Mental Hell-th Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Dissociation feels like that really disorientating feel when you were REALLY deeply asleep or engrossed into your dream and wake up completely confused as to where you are, who everyone is, and whats going on for a good few seconds

Cept it isnt a few segundos and you werent asleep Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
And Im saying this not cos of dissociation but cos I was napping in the car and kept going back to sleep when I woke up and I was and still am extremely disorientated to the point my balance is kinda off, my words are slurred and sentences make noooo sense. XD Super extremely disorientated and the length of this post-sleep disorientation is almost getting concerning over a year ago
Riku114 said …
"Why didnt you just leave? Why didnt you tell someone?"

I was kinda watching a Doki Doki Natsuki fã game episode randomly and those perguntas came up and honestly, when it comes to child abuse - or abuse overall, there is a lot that goes into it. Especially if it has been long term. At that point, you dont say anything and dont leave because its the normal and everyone you live around seems to feed into that 'normal'. Sometimes they let you know doing so would make things worse. etc. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Personally, even now I bite my tongue on it because personally, telling anyone who can actually do anything about it and maybe getting a bit of help to fix my family situation, is really not worth the side effects and probable disowning of everyone in my family except my oldest sister. Id rather keep those bridge open than loose financial support from my parents while Im at college for years and possibly loose my middle sister as family over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
There is A LOT that goes into it, and personally, my experience with people who do hear about the situation, they really have a hard time grasping how hard / bad of an idea actually telling people who can fix it or leaving is, can be, or can seem to the person being abused over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
"If someone were REALLY that bad, at that point you would just leave?!" Honestly... no, not if that was the every day. There are a lot of people that are that bad or worse than how Natsuki's dad was portrayed and they are never actually told about. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Im trumpet sexual Posted over a year ago
JetBlack_ commented…
link over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, I dont even know what my brain was or where I was in the past years.

Like... Seriously, especially in 9th grade, I was literally like... crazy. I really should have had a therapist then. But to be fair, 9th and 11th grade werent that far apart in how badly I should have had a therapist. XD Just I had one in 11th grade. Who knows how bad 11th grade could have been without one Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
My face is so badly burnt Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Gotta be careful in such a Climate. Do not stand in the Sun for long. Especially if there's isn't any sort of protection to be applied !!!! over a year ago
JetBlack_ commented…
Aw feel better 💐 over a year ago
BlindBandit92 commented…
^ over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
XD The graduation cooked our faces over a year ago
wantadog said …
God what the fuck is wrong with me....I don't want to worry anyone, but I had a completely 100% legit urge to mail my income tax money seguinte ano to Riku so she can buy a computer....

My grasp on how important it is to not waste money combined with my desire to give things to people is really scary sometimes. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
^ over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I am officially graduated and officially on summer vacation!

BUT EVEN BETTER

STEAM SUMMER SALE WOO

PEOPLE GET AMNESIA WHILE ITS $3

cadastrar-se MY CULT Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
ONCE AGAIN, CONGRATULATIONS, RIKU !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly though, I dont really like eating with my whole family or doing family events without my boyfriend simply because I just feel out of place, awkward, and like a sore thumb. It usually just feels like Im intruding or just dont simply mesh with the people there and the conversations they talk about so I honestly kinda avoid eating with them.

Thus why I kinda DONT want a graduation dinner. Its just... eh. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
If I could have one with just one of my sisters, then one with the other, cool. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
But just everyone together its just... eh. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Tomorrow I graduate for real. Wooooo.

Finally done with high school XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Honestly tho kinda feels weird to be joining the fanpop College Kids Club cos Ive always been the like... little maknae of the people XD over a year ago
JetBlack_ commented…
link over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Also, I welcome you to the Club XD !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
So i have my sims on Free Will and try not to intervene much out of guiding them to fufill wishes and I ended up on a encontro, data with one of my RP characters since he asked me out

>character is known for being mentally unstable and psychotic / psychopathic
>arrives to a completely empty lot
>empty lot is por cruz roads
>tries to watch a movie but instead goes to tour the theatre
>dumpster dives with date
>gets nauseous and vomits
>chases deer
>apparently the encontro, data ended at some point Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Meanwhile Wanta's encontro, data with an RP character consisted of her complaining, them lookign at a painting, then splitting up over a year ago
wantadog commented…
XD over a year ago
wantadog said …
Riku: "Dammit Wanta! I was expecting you to say something serious!"

Wanta: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1WCFbdOOmOY Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Once you've gotten to the point of hating yourself and wanting to die and trying stuff recommended for BFRB, papagaio feather pulling, self mutilation, and drug addiction to stop plucking, you gain a large resistance to the disheartening feels of a relapse since its hard to hold yourself accountable or to have your hopes dropped when you kinda never had them high in the first place Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
It really wont go away until things are fully handled, and thats in the best situation. I am just kind of still trying a bit out of formality and stubbornness over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
But really, try to not do something most people dont do for like.... 9-10 years straight with little success despite massive effort, research, attempts, trials, methods, etc. At a certain point, it just becomes the usual annoying friend you got paired up with over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Literally looked into a long scientific lab denunciar on papagaio feather plucking and trichotillomania in hopes itd bring up some interesting information. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly my parents are so disgustingly judgmental and in denial over it.

Like pretty much assuming my sister is aspirationless, goalless, and doesnt want to do anything / CANT do anything because she cant / wont answer their perguntas right away.

I tried explaining my older sister's reasoning, backing, and shit cos they were trash talking her in front of me and my oldest sister is the one Ill defend to the death

And just right over their head and ignored Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Talking to them about anything that doesnt fit their initial view of hwo things are is like arguing with a three ano old plugging their ears going "LALALALALALA I CANT HEAR YOU" cos they dont listen at all over a year ago
wantadog said …
Rikus favorito character from G-Senjou no Maou would likely be Tokita Yuki or just Maou. Blind's would prolly be Shiratori Mizuha. Lefteris I would say....eh....Haru or Ei-chan.

Clearly for me Haru is the best. My favorito por a wide margin.

God I loved that game. I might play another 50 hours of it just cuz I amor the characters so much...or I might hold out for Riku to get the game and I might watch her read it XD Posted over a year ago
wantadog commented…
Additional thought: Miwa Tsubaki's excessively positive attitude might also make her a favorito of Lefteris' over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ It seems that my affection for the Cheerful Types has been made apparent huh? XD over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Putting that aside, they look pretty interesting. I'm especially intrigued por Haru from I have seen so far. I can say the same though for the Girls you mentioned for the others XD I'll have to play the Game and see !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Also, you dont realize how much tension plucking removes until you start doing it or a substitute for it (shaving) and feel the odd, subtle, but strong euphoria and whole body relaxation

Its honestly like a drug. Kind of why I have yet to be able to ever stop completely over the past nine or so years.

Quite literally I've looked up ways to stop Trich and other BFRBs, self harm and cutting, and drug addiction and little of it has actually helped Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Oh and no worries XD Im not annoyed or frustrated or anything like that. I just was making a joke below and felt like rambling a bit less jokingly about it. Personally my approach to it is to keep a subtle attempt but until I get my main stressors fixed, I doubt Ill actually be able to lessen the plucking to the degree I want. Its too deeply entangled in PTSD, GAD, OCD, dissociation, and all to be able ot be removed first. If anything, its probably the last thing Ill be able to handle. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Just because any one of the others can easily bring it back in five segundos or less over a year ago
Riku114 said …
No but the post below XD

I was going to take a shit before cama and I was like "Geesh my legs are hairy. You know I could let off some tension por shaking small really hairy patches on my leg instead of pluckign which is 99.99% healthier"

Then look shaved a little too much

So then I just said fuck it and shaved a chunk to make it even

Then said fuck it and shaved the whole left bezerro to make it look right

Then realized I had to do the same to my right bezerro Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Quite honestly tho, this is the only reason my legs get shaved 75% of the time. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Help. I accidentally shaved my left leg Posted over a year ago
wantadog said …
I think Riku fits into a new category I'm dubbing "Utsudere" Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
whats that XD over a year ago
wantadog commented…
Utsu means strike or hit XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
O-oh... god...

I was bored and now Im finding major shit on YandereDev's character and personality..

...

I mean I still like his goals and his personality he can show on the channel but...

uh.... why do all the youtubers I have turn out to have majorly assholish genuine characters..?

I wonder how Markiplier is doing. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Thats sad. I used to like him but hes a bit.... of a... er... over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Ugh. XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Still gonna follow the progress but Imma just kinda ignore his whining over a year ago
wantadog said …
Shh. Riku doesnt know I gave up on forcing myself to eat during my lunch breaks. If she finds out, she’ll hassle me Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
*Tells Riku* !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
:v over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I am REALLY good with anxious animais apparently.

Theres this dog I was helping watch for a few hours for reason I cant elaborate for and apparently hes super scared of and barks / tries to bite 98% of strangers excluding my older sister and apparently me.

In fact, he kissed my face within like... 15 segundos of knowing me cos I gave him like.... 5 segundos to sniff my hand, 5 segundos of head scratch, then like went right up to his face XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Im really good with most animais tbh. Cos I have never encountered a situation where someones like "Oh he usually doesnt like strangers" and NOT had the animal amor me or at least like me immediately over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
animais have their way of sensing Kindness and Love. It is only natural !!!! over a year ago
wantadog commented…
I referred to it as “they could sense she was genuine” over a year ago
wantadog said …
Was randomly humming when I realized I just somehow seamlessly transitioned from Bleach to Taylor rápido, swift and then into Pokemon bike música Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I am taking applications for people to be my dad for Fathers Day. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
jk jk dark humor XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Honestly Fathers dia is pretty meaningless to me. Never really meant anythign since my dad is much mais likely to throw a tantrum, get upset, and start doing annoying shit if we were to mention it than anything else. Since he has this thing about celebrating holidays that pisses him off. over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ Uhhh... Sure... *Brings the whip* When do you want to get started, Wantaboy? over a year ago
Riku114 said …
You see, I know Im an extrovert - a highly selective one at that - because my definition of "me time" isnt leitura a book, watching TV, or doing something on my own

It usually refers to time being por the computer or doing casual calm stuff like walks or watching TV with people I find relaxing, simple, and can be comfortable around and just lounge doing nothing

RARELY do I ever think of actually spending "me time" alone Posted over a year ago
wantadog commented…
If only there was a way you could combine watching TV AND being por the computer.... over a year ago
Riku114 said …
google : How to get social things done at the same time as sleeping? Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Oh shit thats high level dissociation over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I dont think I could let myself do that :v over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Me: Im so tired

Me: I should probably sleep

"Then you should. You sound tired"

Me: Nah. I havent been awake long enough. ... I mean had free time enough

"Is there anything you are craving to do rn then?"

Me: Sleep.

Me: ... but I wont Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
#Relatable !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
*curls up in a ball of tired*

tomorrow is possibly / probably mais tiring and annoying Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
#Same !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Also, after the band banquet, I am glad to leave behind a legacy in the band and school. I raised so many children and so many of them are major band leaders, people taking part in activities, and major people in the school.

It makes me glad. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Honestly, no one wants me to leave :v over a year ago
wantadog commented…
I know the feeling. You going to Davis sucks bunda cuz you won't be online NEARLY as much. over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
It is only understandable after this long. A person like you would certainly be missed !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly I just kind of want to talk about something. A lot of my band knows me as the Rookie Collector / Dad / Satan and all that stuff, and its very fitting and everything. I put A LOT of work into gaining those titles

But really, there was one person - Jacob Gordon - who literally probably put my character on the path to the nice place it is now mais than most others. He was the person that took ME in as a rookie and honestly was the person that made me want to stay in band Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I used to be really angsty, really depressed, and really didn't want to involve myself with people and for the most part, felt like a bit worthless and excluded in the band and all. I pretty much kinda expected that to continue and really just kinda went passively through my trumpet playing and my socializing and he kinda just busted himself in my life because he noticed me and my friend at the time playing Pokemon, that to the point that, despite my poor playing ability, he said hed want me and my friend to be his left and right hand when he becomes section leader. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Honestly, it took a while for it to fully set in, but it really changed my whole view of band and probably people as a whole. I actually felt welcome and like there was someone there who I could kinda look to for how to act in the band and everything. I was really excited to be his right hand even tho I didnt feel it was anywhere in view, but he ended up suddenly saying he wouldnt be attending the school seguinte year. Never told me why. Just said he was switching to the neighbor school over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Well said. He certainly sounds like a great person !!!! over a year ago
wantadog said …
Riku is a very oddly fellow. Posted over a year ago
JetBlack_ commented…
Riku is a very oddly tired fellow. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
^ over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^^ !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Like if you too have an irrational fear of spiders Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
YEP !!!! over a year ago
SilentForce commented…
I don't over a year ago
wantadog commented…
My fear is entirely rational over a year ago
Riku114 said …
dia 834: Riku still doesnt understand the concept of being just straight or just gay. Posted over a year ago
wantadog commented…
34? over a year ago
wantadog commented…
Rule 34? over a year ago
wantadog commented…
I see your game over a year ago
wantadog said …
I just beat Riku at math Posted over a year ago
wantadog commented…
Come and get me UC Davis over a year ago
wantadog commented…
What is your life indeed. I know it can hurt to always be segundo best, but you have to understand that some of us just have a natural talent for the precise sciences. over a year ago
wantadog commented…
If you work hard at it, you could even be 3/8 the math wiz I am. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I've been asked this before, but my memory loss / memory failures pretty much stretch back... two or three tops. Its after that point that my memory gets really foggy if really existent at all.

I have a really strong procedural and declarative memory which makes it so I can excel in school, but episodic / autobiographical memory is literal shit.

The furthest back I can clearly remember can be as short as like... a few days to a week. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
The furthest back I can decently remember is probably a couple weeks. And the furthest back I can honestly expect myself to reliably remember is a couple months or so if you arent asking for specifics over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Like IRL friends like teasing me over back tracking aleatório yet notable details of the days and seeing me buffer XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Most of my memories kinda become a blur really quickly tho. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
"You gotta have that amnesiac goldfish memory looked at" ~Wanta @ Riku 2018

:v :v :v Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Seriously, you dont realize how bad my memory is until you talk to me a lot for like... a ano straight over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Cos then you get me being like "nope. No memory of that" to something huge XD over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
It is certainly quite the agreeable Quote XD !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I dunno, some how at some point, I came to really like Yuri's psychoness at least as an aesthetic and ended up solidifying her as a favorite?

I think this is the power of me actually giving titles to characters.

Once I give them a special title, its like adding a multiplier to how much I amor them for no other reason than the fact I decided to make it official and rank them special XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Its quite interesting though. Psychoness tend to make me like them mais no geral, global or as a relatable character, but oddly it adds to her waifuness. Which I know isnt odd overall, but for me I tend to not find much in insane girls as waifus. For the most part I like the firm and self confident or the really cute and soft ones over a year ago
wantadog said …
This is why I don't write side stories. Like...friggin living up to the bar Riku set is so stressful... Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
If I could get personal o espaço that would be niceee.. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Or silence / noise quiet enough I can block it out wtih música over a year ago
wantadog commented…
I am definitely going to buy you some noise cancelling earmuffs or something. over a year ago
wantadog said …
*makes an image editar of a character Riku used to be obsessed with*

Riku: "who dat?"

Me: *walks to corner of depression* Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
oi I WAS PRETTY SURE BUT MAKING SURE over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
PLUS IM TIRED AS SHIT WITH A HEADACHE SO STFU XD over a year ago
wantadog commented…
You all saw over a year ago
Riku114 said …
If Yuri is Libitina, shell probably be mais of a favorito of mine XD Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
I can see why XD !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I have a bad headache and am sore... Posted over a year ago
JetBlack_ commented…
link over a year ago
Riku114 said …
A Q U A

G O T

N O R T E D Posted over a year ago
JetBlack_ said …
I’m just going to hide here 😅because my last post on aleatório supposed to be funny but now I’m just scared xD Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
link over a year ago
Riku114 said …
So me and Wanta started playing Sims, him watching me and we are working on making the RP characters on there.

So far the two interactions between the three we made (two being as pets XD) is very accurate to how theyd probably be in the RP Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Sims could provide a good ground for the RP indeed XD over a year ago
wantadog said …
I could make a reality show off the drama I had to deal with today Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Its so interesting change of events that Aqua is now dark and shit dude. She got Norted Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Seriously.... That was a hugeee bomb drop and the creators are like "lol you guys reacted just as much to this as Frozen - Uma Aventura Congelante for real???" over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Cos Aqua is so.... so much of the face of #TeamLight over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
No one really thought shed go dark over a year ago
Riku114 said …
"Imbeciles... You would knowingly shackle your coração to a chain of memories born of lies? You would be one who has a heart, yet cast aside your heart's freedom?! You turn from the truth because your coração is weak.... you will never defeat me!"

Literally have been listening to those 34 segundos on repeat as my "music" for the past three days. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, there was a point when Organization XIII from Kingdom Hearts felt like a really large extended metaphor for the extreme emptiness and apathy I had so there was actually a point when I mentally had the entire concept of Organization XIII on my relatable list XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
That being said, I was told por they who shall not be named that you couldnt identify with an entire game XD Which I wasnt cos I never really got to that point, but it was really close to me back then and did help make sense of my mind at the time over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I have a much higher preference and care for characters seen in KH 358/2 days tbh. Mostly because it was my first game that made me fall in amor with Kingdom Hearts. So where as the Organization XIII might be something that popped in after KH2 and a bit in it, but to me SORA popped into the story after over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Organization XIII are the OGs for me and the characters I personally care the most about. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Dude so hyped for the seguinte ícone round. Just made probably the most complex ícone that took the most time for me to make in a long while if over all. 11 layers on pixlr to make it and I personally think I captured what I meant to display pretty well. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Also Wanta will always be better at text than me over a year ago
wantadog commented…
Isn't today just lovely tho? over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Also, you're welcome XD !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly though. My older-middle sister seems to have gone from spoiled to "princess" "Im entitled to ____".

Like Im not kidding, she claimed to have a right to have a reserved restaurant graduation celebration in Beverly Hills with all her friends being paid for my my parents with none of the money coming from her own pocket or her friends pocket

Plus she was SUPER upset me and my oldest sister were pointing out how expensive that is Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Then proceeded to trash talk me and twist my words and lie to make me evil in the eyes of my mom who wasnt here and when I couldnt argue cause she can cry faster and louder over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Shes all like "Dad says its fine" but like... my dad will say anything is fine when it comes to money since he refuses to let us know anything on our financial situation and would never admit hes failing or is limited at the only thing hes worth for in this family over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Honestly I just needed to get that out of my system when I wasn't in a bad mental state over a year ago
Riku114 said …
anjos of Death the animê starts July 6, 2018 apparently so #Hype for that too Posted over a year ago
wantadog commented…
But Riku doesnt watch animê anymore over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I also should really cut back in how much I jokingly say "Imma stab someone" Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
#Yangire !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Well apparently I tested on my Math Placement test with 7 points higher than the minimum for the hardest class I could take and 3 higher than the minimum Trig sub score XD

I mean Imma go for the segundo hardest since Math 21M says "Should only be considered if you got a 5 on the AP Calculus BC exam" and I got a 3 on that one XD So Imma be seguro and not kill myself the first ano Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
That's certainly good to know XD !!!! over a year ago
wantadog said …
Messenger on fanpop is the only website that lags for me. #MySacrifice Posted over a year ago
wantadog commented…
I meant facebook over a year ago
wantadog commented…
But now that I think of it, Fanpop's messenger thing is also super shitty and always lags my stuff out when I'm on it over a year ago
wantadog commented…
So it still works over a year ago
wantadog commented…
But mostly its Facebooks messenger that fucks up my computer. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I am honestly so damn sick of everyone being home. When I go off to UC Davis, I am going to like... intentionally avoid coming início as much as I can and when I have to, avoid coming início when others are. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I honestly fucking hate it. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
^^^ over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
In the end, início is where you feel loved, appreciated and safe. Follow your desire for these aspects. Do no let anyone drag you down !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Tfw you were excited to go to starbucks with everyone after you got picked up from a hang out since both of your sisters are home, but apparently everyone went JUST before they came to pick you up cos they didnt think about inviting you.

Even better when that lowkey brings back shitty memories of literally everyone in the family forgetting you fucking exist.

But whatever. I don't particularly want to talk about it since it really isnt that big of a deal and nothing will change it. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Im fine, but Imma just drown out the emotions and bad memories and thoughts and all with Kingdom Hearts, video games, and conversations. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Honestly I was just a bit foolish to let my guard down. It really isnt a big deal and it isnt anything new. over a year ago
BlindBandit92 commented…
Unfortunately people are shitty. I am sorry that happened. I would try my best never to do that to anyone. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
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Riku114 commented…
#QualityPostsOnRiku'sWall over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Who would think that Final fantasia and disney would mix so well? Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Im dying of sad now that I had the idea of cuddles put in my head and I dont have something to cuddle and Smokey - my cuddle bird - is asleep Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
How about your pillow? over a year ago
JetBlack_ commented…
I’m sure Smokey is dreaming of your hugs over a year ago
Riku114 said …
"If you dont cuddle me right now I will die of sad" is pretty much a genuinely good descrição of me.

I need my hugs and pets, but only like... specific people.

Cos I hate hugs and pets from most people. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I am extremely huggy to people I really like and trust. over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Relatable !!!! over a year ago
JetBlack_ commented…
link over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I WANT TO HUG LOKI over a year ago