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Riku114 said …
Me: Okay its 11 AM what are we supposed to be going? *checks calendar*

Me: .... the calendar is blank until 6 PM

Me #2: Ya know we planned to like... ya know, have an easy dia on the weekend?

Me: .... OKAY THEN. LETS GET DOWN TO RELAXING AND HAVING FUN. WHAT ARE WE SUPPOSED TO PLAY OR DO

Me #2: Can you like... not be so extreme and just relax when relaxing Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Deep breaths, relax muscles, lower shoulders, and just do whatever~ over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Also I officially #100%ed Hijikata and Saito and I totally have... 26.1 hours on the game XD Im officially 1/6th way done with the game Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Im going back to get Hijikatas bad routes before starting another and I just remembered again how much he needs to stfu and stop being me Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I really miss my flock tbh. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Its been way too long since I got to hold a feathery friend. I hope we get to hold the chickens in the chicken lab for my animal science lab seguinte week over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Cos Imma die if I cant hold a feathery friend for one mais week over a year ago
Riku114 said …
University: Here you have a $755 Refund Check to pick up

Me: .... i do? What for? I mean Il ltake it but idk why

Me: *going through financial papers and stuff* OH YOU GUYS DIDNT PAY ME MY WHOLE GRANT EARLIER SO THIS IS MONEY I HAD BUT DIDNT KNOW OHHH THATS NICE

Me: Well at least that makes sense. Alright time to account it into my budge-

University: *literally one hora after I picked up that one* You have a refund check to pick up

Me: ???? WHAT FOR??? Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Im getting so much money from the universidade I dont understand why Im getting it. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Maybe this one is the small student loan or something? Or maybe its the downpayment on dorm paid back or...??? over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Tbh I was $400-500 above my budget I was given and thus adding an unexpected $755 made me around $1200 saved and who knows how much the seguinte one is .-. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Also everyone says Hijikata is originally cold, mean, and an asshole of sorts but like... I never really saw that and I dont know if thats everyone having differnet opinions or a commentary on me since I relate to him XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Too many good Hijikata Icons. I was gonna go for Dia das bruxas but got distracted. Maybe Ill give him a witch hat Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Me: Imma google how to relax

Roommate: You go do that. *goes off to the bathroom*

*two minutos later*

Roommate: did you figure out how to relax?

Me: No

Roommate: .... get off the UC Davis hatchery page, yo uare supposed to be relaxin- no close the email too

Me: .... ..... *legit didnt realize she was not relaxing and now feels dumb* Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I officially accepted that I have a genuine friend irl and thus also decided to give her the irl best friend at the same time and thats honestly kinda weird for me.

...

... i dont know if i like this XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I feel a lot of you underestimate how horrifically bad I am at actually establishing meaningful connections with people IRL and then actually recognizing and accepting it rather than denying it and negating the 'meaningful' part because I refuse to let it count cos of my discomfort into getting invested into friendships over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
But TBH shes one of the only two not-boyfriend, not-therapist, not-oldest-sister people I know IRL that I am even remotely comfortable being my purely natural self and we still are in contact even after having not seen each other in two months and tbh shes pretty cool over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
#GayPTSDBuddies over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Im annoyed por the amount of M&Ms in my trail mix Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I know Im weird over a year ago
Riku114 said …
WELP. I apparently also do dissociative fugue XD The one dissociation thing I claimed to NOT have I apparently have for ffs XD

My new therapist was like "You do A LOT for being dissociated so it sounds a lot like a fugue if you ask me". Apparently you dont have to have that whole complete memory wipe / shock when you come back from a fugue and apparently my selective amnesia and constant casual autopilot-dissociation is likely a mild but still active dissociative fugue ffs XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
But fuck man I got therapy homework to "relax" rip me over a year ago
Rihanna312 said …
https://www.facebook.com/pubity/videos/767156683615418/ Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
XD Thats hilarious over a year ago
JetBlack__ said …
Wait...who is Nomy? Posted over a year ago
JetBlack__ commented…
Guys, check out my new pergunta on the aleatório club xD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
8theGreat XD over a year ago
JetBlack__ commented…
I see xD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Nomy: "Doing my job stuff so I might be slow to respond so sorry XD"

Me: "Its cool XD I was just mostly rambling here. And looking at birds"

Nomy: "When are you not looking at birds"

Me: "good point" Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ A good point indeed lmao !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Lowkey having way too much fun with the thing me and Nomy are casually working on as a side thing together tbh. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
YES MY 7-10 PM CHEM LAB GOT CANCELED COS THE UC SYSTEM IS EXPERIENCING A STRIKE. HALLELUJAH. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
So I managed to match with a therapist that does have experience with trauma and dissociation so that should be interesting. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
So anyways, we did the away game and what not well and stayed up from 10 PM until 3 AM until I had to let my boyfriend go which lowkey really made me kinda sad to see him go since it was honest to god the first time none of my mental health crap was constantly pressuring me (Constantly but not majorly; present but not crushing) and I didnt really wnat him to go.

Woke up the seguinte day, had the banquet and senior speeches and what not Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Then we got on the bus to head back to our universidade but only got like.... 20 miles out before one of the busses started majorly leaking oil and eventually catching on fogo in the form of an engine fire. That ended up making us stranded por a beach. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Then we all agreed (quite enthusiastically as if we hadn't just been told we were stranded for two hours) to "rally at the beach" which pretty much means to play música and have a band version of a party on the beach. Pretty much did that for three hours straight. Apparently a couple whose son killed himself a week atrás forced themselves out of the house to check out hte de praia, praia and smiled for the first time since because of us, our energy, and overwhelming positivity over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I might upload some vídeos onto youtube XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
IM BACK HOLY SHIT XD

Our bus broke down and we didnt get a bus until midnight and then had a 5 hora drive back XD Plus I had a cold but tbh it was a lot of fun and I needed it XD After I get comida and laundry done I might ramble mais on it if people are interested but it was quite a fun adventure with the band XD

Oh yeah I was at an away game that had us in a hotel over the weekend btw. Posted over a year ago
JetBlack__ commented…
that was unexpected news but oi glad you had fun xD yes mais please.. over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
yyyyyyyyyyoooooo finally back!!!, but i am happy too you had alot of fun<3 over a year ago
JetBlack__ said …
Riku why u no have time xD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Cuz Im a bando XD over a year ago
JetBlack__ commented…
:D over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
hahahaha XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Fyi Goodbyes are still 200x harder than just cold turkey or any actual parting Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
^This is in relation to the fact I got to see my boyfriend two nights atrás and had to part as well tho on the same dia XD It was harder than I thought it would be over a year ago
Riku114 said …
My relatable character list is really hard to rank at this point XD Also I moved a few to an "EX-Relatable" list since I was feeling some really didnt match up to the standard the list held Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I also now added Tiers so I could place them mais generally into Three Ranked boxes rather than trying to compare two really close ones. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
The Tiers arent really ranked inside the tier but First is higher than segundo which is higher than third over a year ago
Riku114 said …
HIJIKATA GOTTA STOP DOING THINGS AND SAYING THINGS SIMILAR TO WHAT IVE DONE AND SAID FUCK OFF Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
ALSO CHIZURU STOP DESCRIBING HIM AS SOME PEOPLE WOULD DESCRIBE ME. YOU TOO CAN FUCK OFF XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I might just go eat my massa, massas alimentícias bar and glare. XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Hilariously hes also nicknamed "Demon Commander" por his friends and subordinates which is very well paralleled por the fact everyone in my old band called me "Satan" XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly I'm not too good at showing affection out of the provider method. Providing gifts, money, aid, help, and all that stuff. It doesnt really work well for people that dont want it or people that dont understand that type of affection, but its just the most natural and comfortable one for me.

Im also pretty good at the method of spending quality time, but I also feel that flies over people's head a lot since I have limited time so my 'quality time' often isnt long Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Im usually busy so cutting out like... half an hora or an hora to just you really says something over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honest to god my boyfriend is the mais sweet thing ever. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
*most sweet over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Im the luckiest to have him in my life over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Ah yes. The 4 AM call time for a football game in Marching Band. Sounds about right. XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Lowkey feel a little bad cause people are comparing their schedules to mine and feeling lazy but that REALLY isnt fair. I keep myself busy sometimes as a bad coping mechanism XD Being busy is usually easier for me than being free Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Oh huh. Thats the first time I said that since I turned 18.

I guess Im finally / officially 'legal' now XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
FUCK IM NO LONGER #TEAMTEENAGER ON fanpop XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Well.... "Teen"ager comes from the "teen" part so Im still a teen until Im like.... 20 XD So I still kinda am? over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Its weird tho XD Being on here since I was like 11 almost 12 makes it odd being moved a biiiiit into the older group. TBH not THAT old since there are a lot of older people still on here but yikes XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Im 18 and take 6-7 pills every morning. What am I 60? Posted over a year ago
JetBlack__ commented…
You are 11 ano old cat xD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Hijikata is too relatable tbh XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Welp that Chem midterm had to be on of the easiest tests Ive taken in a while Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Also I was debating between the conflict in my own values and ideals the fact that one of my closest college friends currently does drugs (which I am firm against myself; but I have had online friends that abused it so now that I think about it I should have no problem with it XD) but from what Ive heard and seen so far, shes rather responsible about it and doesnt push it so I suppose its fine. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
My firmness on that value of mine hadnt had such a direct pergunta to my decision of people to be around and to choose to be friends with since those that did do it that I was friends with did it after I already took them as longer term friends so something like that was a matter of concern for them rather than decision making on my part over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
But personally, as much as I disagree with the usage of drugs and what not, as long as people arent in my face about it and trying to get me to take part and they themselves arent harming themselves with it or their behavior while on it isnt harming others, then its not really horrible. Everyone's life is their own over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Same as Zeppie and agree !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly I really like my Microecon professor XD I mean Ive always loved Economy - both Macro and Micro - but he just makes the class great. Both a wonderful professor and just person in general XD Plus with my amor for participating, tendency to sit in the front, and the small conversation I have with him before and after class Im on pretty good terms with him too XD

But lowkey my favorito class to go to (until we get to Poultry in Animal Science prolly) Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Imma wanna die the seguinte two weeks XD

I have 9 hours of band practice this week, then an all weekend marching trip, two labs, and a midterm XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
omg

"arrrghh my head"

Youtuber: "Yeah you should just amputate it" Posted over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
ouch XD , get well soon Riku~bun<3 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Nah XD That wasnt at me it was a thing in the game he was going through over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
hehe thats good xD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
extraverted Sensing (Se) (30.2)
good use

introverted Sensing (Si) (25)
average use

extraverted Intuiting (Ne) (29.3)
average use

introverted Intuiting (Ni)      (34.3)
good use

extraverted Thinking (Te) (43.6)
excellent use

introverted Thinking (Ti) (30.3)
good use

extraverted Feeling (Fe) (20.7)
limited use

introverted Feeling (Fi) (27.2)
average use

TEMPERAMENT: Theorist Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Oh the Temperament was a different wording for the "Rationals" "Idealists" etc etc over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
But yeah that felt like probably the most legit of the tests out of the ones I took over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Fuck I was gonna record it but decided against it and now wanted to post it on my mural but now I cant find it :v

Anyways there was a Hijikata quote along the lines of "If I find myself in capable of doing a task, it is my responsibility to delegate it to someone who can." Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Personally thats the great thing about communications, having people around you with diverse skills, and - in the larger spectrum for like nations and what not - trade. Time is very limited and one cant spend their whole life learning literally everything (against as much as I talk about it and seem to try to XD) so some things have to be passed up. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
AND THIS ALL STARTED FROM ME THINKING ABOUT A HIJIKATA QUOTE over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I hate myself XD (not really) over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Hijikata is also pretty relatable. Saito is mais specifically relatable while Hijikata is mais generally relatable Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
WOOOOO DORM TO MYSELF. God its been so long since I felt as free as this XD I amor my roommates but as the anterior post on this mural said, my mind just automatically assumes that they serve a presence like my parents so like... yeah XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly the thing about PTSD that I didnt really fully notice until I went to college is how it just makes you have a constant sense that where-ever you are and regardless of what facts you present, there is a massive tag on everything that marks it a threat / possible danger.

Like I find that my dorm honestly feels exactly like it did when I was back at início but there is NOTHING here actually to give it that feeling Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Likewise, the college itself does as well outside of learning. I just suppose it hasnt fully occurred to me because when I felt that constant presence of a threat that isnt there was when I didnt know / accept that I had PTSD and when I did know / accept it, I had my boyfriend around me at least an hora almost every dia over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
And as cheesy as it sounds, I can honestly say the only place I felt normal - at least in terms of sensing a threat or anxiety - and safe. When I am around him, there is no levels of filters watching every word and every gesture and every thought and everything. Im fully genuine around him because my brain goes "Oh look. We are good and safe. No worries, feel free" cause he just makes me feel safe. HE doesnt really do anything too actively. HE isnt over protective or take up my inner routines to protect myself from a nonexistant threat. Its just that hes there and its like a safety net or harness. You wouldnt go on an obstacle course 200 feet in the air without one of them, but when its there and given por a company you can sue, you are much mais okay with it over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Im charismatic, smart, driven, good at applying myself, and considerably successful and just looking at the stats Ive got everything going for me way better than him. But honestly, its like people being amazed at the árvore and how beautiful it is without looking at the very soil, water, and nutrients that even let it be that. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Ughh XD Im sad now. Im hearing the band practicing field show for tomorrow's football game that I didnt sign up for cos I figured Id be exhausted but now that I hear them its giving me good old memories to late night practices and now I wanna be there XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Today was a fucking shitty day. 10/10 would NOT recommend Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Hijikata is great XD Saito seems mais fitting as a partner in my opinion but Hijikata is a great character XD I seriously amor his casual cursing being part of the smaller details of his characteristics XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Oh shit one of my options for a therapist is trained in EDMR therapy XD I dunno if I wanna go for it though cause I dont really know if its the type of processign and recovery I want to go about but that therapy is like a really rare type to see Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
It really shouldn't feel as odd as it is to be given normal friendly attention and to be treated as a normal person as it does. Posted over a year ago
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IRL I mean. I have a lot of online friends I feel give me that too over a year ago
Riku114 said …
WHY IS BUDGETING TO MUCH FUN? Posted over a year ago
2ntyOnePilots commented…
*too I’m sry, couldn’t help it. Argh.. plz don’t @ me, ik I’m hypocritical over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
It was actually supposed to be *So over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Also 7-10 PM Chemistry Labs was a mistake Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
And people are starting to notably notice that Im ahead of most of the class even when Im in a large universidade XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
College is the ability to say "You know this professor lectures 4x slower than I can learn por leitura myself and I have a TA and discussion classes to work through anything I might not know so fuck this lecture" Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I have a midterm for Chem (not really a midterm cause I have two cause they dont understand what the word 'midterm' means) seguinte week and tehre are two mais chapters to cover and Im pretty sure I could cover the two chapters on my own and start doing practice tests in the time itd take them to cover the single first chapter today over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Personally I think I like Pokemon partly because Im an animal lover and the fantasia of being in sync with your pets much mais like companions and partners and going into battle with them just sounds like an awesome relationship.

Of course a large part is being raised with it, but my animal lover, my combat obsession, and my amor for fantasia just kinda melds together as well. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I suppose to animal lovers, it depends if you see the battles as forcing them to fight or as working as a partnership to fight that makes you pergunta it. Also I like to imagine pokemon less in the "I wanna be the Pokemon Master" way, and mais in just like a world of Pokemon and conflicts and stuff going on and stuff. A more... mature and stuff orientated type over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
HArd to explain but I dunno XD over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
I feel the same way when it comes to that matter !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
My hair is so good for hair / head banging Posted over a year ago
JetBlack__ commented…
Meow over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
headbangs with Riku❤ over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I am honestly so sick of shitty fucking service management and help in the mental health department of fucking everything. Fuck Kaiser and maybe now also Fuck Davis Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I amor Davis but fuck their whole student care. Im paying for insurance yet have to struggle to book a single fucking appointment with therapy OR psychiatry. I have STILL yet to get one despite all my efforts over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Poor service in the mental health department isnt even funny in the slightest anymore over a year ago
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Not that it ever was over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
FINALLY GOT AN APPOINTMENT jesus CHRIST over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Linkin Park is a real headbanger.

Also for those that wonder how well I hide emotions and even major breakdowns, Ive had two full breakdown and like.... three or four almost breakdowns and none of them have been noticed por my roommates or bandos who have been around me pretty much 24/7 Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
I know how that is very well !!!! over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
And yes. Linkin Park rocks. It still remains one of my favorito Bands !!!! over a year ago
2ntyOnePilots commented…
Linkin Park rocks! (Literally) I’m glad I’m not the only one who still gets a kick out of their music. (R.I.P. Chester) over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I still hate when my mind randomly reminds me how ruined and stolen my childhood and teenhood was stolen from my family situation and mental health. I usually accept it and can think about it and grow from it, but sometimes my brain just hooks on it in a form of comparison and just get really envious and sad and tries to drag me back into grief over it. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Its one of the things that I still almost definately need música to block out. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I was video chatting with my boyfriend when I took a two minuto break and something just brought it back and now Im just kinda really tense trying to block out the thought cause its not good for me to think about and if I think about it my mind starts going down a bad track and I start dissociating but even when Im playing música to block out the bad thought train, I still am tense af and my body still wants to be anxiety ridden over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I really do need to figure out therapy though so I can actually continue to work through things over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Personally for a while, I spent a lot of my life kind of lost in my own mind and just living in the worlds in my head and even in a reality slightly warped or rather wrapped in a veil of distance and separation. It felt so separate from the world.

I would have this sense of companionship and socializing talkign to online friends 24/7 while pent up in my room, rarely actually talking to anyone. A life that was perfect and a well developed and stable personality Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
While not knowing the first thing about myself and while being a mental health mess in a toxic family over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
It was honestly a bit of a false reality and while it may have felt really good from time to time, I feel that its good that I got my reality and the TRUE reality to match up and work on actually taking part in the world over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I am not to say that friends online are not real friends or they dont provide companionship, however its hard to say that it fully fills the role when there is nothing in the actual physical world to be around over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
If I were to say anything, it was probably a lot easier, mais peaceful, and fun to live like that and honestly sometimes there is a deep longing to go back to living like that, but this seems better - as mais difficult as it is over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Welp I finished Saito's route and like.... I dont wanna go onto completing ANY of the other 12 rn cos I amor Saito and that story worked so well it doesnt feel like the others could compare XD

Im sure they are great but Id feel wrong moving on so fast so I might take a few days break or something.

Saito is great though Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
14 hours of game play and there is 11 other main routes XD over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Welp, it is reasonable. Give yourself some time to reflect on what you have went through before you jump straight into the other Routes XD !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Saito is so making my relatable characters list XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Sometimes, I honestly feel like if Im not of use to people, I really am not wanted, needed, or worthy of attention / affection or whatever.

I am very aware that it isn't true, but I can't say I am not taken off guard or uncomfortable when I realize someone is liking me not for my skill in anything or my intelligence or my ability to help them, but just rather for me and myself and...

Its just weird Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I kinda relate to Saito in that matter over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I was actually having jantar with one of the other trumpet freshmen and for over half of it I was internally struggling to comprehend the fact that I neither was amazing at the trumpet compared to others, havent shown off any particular academics, or really anything useful to them yet.... they still treated me and seemed to want to welcome me into being friends regardless and it just didnt seem right or to make sense XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
XD Thanks guys. Its not really a major concern but mais so a reflection / analysis / observation I noticed on myself and felt like rambling about. It is just something that I noticed and one of the things that resonated strongly with me when a similar topic was beign discussed in Hakuoki XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Lowkey in a huggge ramen mood since I cant go to the dining commons but also not wanting to spend money

Id kill for like... legit ramen. Like legit cooked ramen. The real delicious good shit. Posted over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
ramen I WANT ALOT*_* YUMMY!!!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
ALSO FUCK HAKUOKI SLIGHTLY XD

It makes me miss my boy mais XD Cos Im like "Aww... this is such a nice romance cute thing... I relate case of my boyfriend... BUT HES NOT FUCKING HERE AND ITS BEEN LIKE TWO AND A HALF WEEKS AND I WANT HIM BACK. GIVE HIM BACK TO ME." Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Honestly, I just kinda like having him around because I get a nice sense of security that makes it so I dont have to be well in check 24/7, looking over thigns 24/7, being responsible and controlling everything, and jsut all in all being a really spectacular, responsible, hardworker all the time. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I mean its GOOD when I am doing that and it REALLY doesnt drain me too much to be like this 24/7 cause its honestly just a different mode of sorts and doesnt really take much energy for me to keep track of everything and stay on task and everything, but I really do enjoy occasionally allowing myself to be stupid, to make mistakes, and to not have to look far ahead to make sure everything is going exactly as I plan / want it to and all over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Still tho. I amor Hakuoki over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Hajime Saito > Hajime Hinata

I amor both but Saito is great Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Hajime Ichinose > EVERY other Hajime so far !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
"All too often, doubt is little mais than a poison" ~ Saito Hajime Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I burnt my self out helping my roommate with basic Chem that I just had a major energy and mood crash the segundo a minor inconvenience occured in my work when I started it at night

Whoops Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly the great thing about a well done Otome game is it gives you a small, short version of the feeling of falling in amor all over again. Its not as long lasting, and its not as intense, but for a short moment when playing it, you just get the rush and softness for a minuto or two where you are like "Ah... Love"

Not enough to where you fall in amor for real, but enough to get the feeling of being loved and loving. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
So it seems the first game "Kyoto Winds" is mais of the set up and is much mais linear even with the different romancable options and then "Edo Blossoms" is the segundo half where you start right away getting to be offered which route Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Its just kinda nice being as busy as I am to be honest XD Makes keeping my club up and active harder but still lets me have fun and what not while still feeling like Im making progress in my life

Oooooh

I think I get to sheer ovelha, ovelhas this Friday por the way

#Hype Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Relatable !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Apparently I am matching with Saito mais just with my natural decision choices XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I wonder how much Ive read in Visual Novels in my time... Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Hakuoki plays a lot better than I expected XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly... People assume me to be much mais in control and independent than I am - or at least mais than I comfortably am. Im driven and perseverant and all, but I really dont like doing things Im completely unfamiliar with alone and I dont necessarily know how to do everything. I mean, that is normal for people, but it seems like almost everyone but maybe my boyfriend and maybe my oldest sister realize that. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Im great at leading when its somethign foreign that Im somewhat used to or something similar to something Im familiar with and all, but when its completely unknown, I really amor to have someone actually help me out. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I can get pretty easily overwhelmed alone in an area I feel like I dont have any solid footing in. Most things I do feel like I have solid footing in, therefore I lead rather well and handle myself rather well - but if I dont have a plan or any real guidance of something Ive seen before or anything, it just throws me off over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Cos bois I still got severe anxiety thats just being mediated por medication over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
I see that being perfectly natural, Rikubun. Someone thinking otherwise would seem unusual to me. That applies to every person and the impressions they are giving. Especially if you have come to know them well !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Ugh. I honestly wish I was actually taught how to do taxis and bus crap cos now I have to figure that stuff out on my own and its a pain in the ass. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Also a note as to why I need to take my anxiety meds daily. Cause I missed it today (and probably also cause I missed it two days ago), it was causing my body to start reacting in an anxiety attack what with the inability to breathe and shit over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Im alright cause my sister actually gives me mais help than "Take cash money and figure it out" and cause Im aware the reaction my body was having was primarily due to the lack of medication and I just took my medication but yikes over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Apparently I bike at least 4 kilometers on a regular school dia so its a bit too convenient for Pokemon Go XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I might start playing Pokemon again. My schedule isnt as dense as I hoped it would be to make playing the DS mais convenient but I still probably will. Maybe help my roommate complete the Pokedex Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
My roommate and sister dragged me back into Pokemon Go. My trainer code 1156 7110 6840 for anyone who wants to add me Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Im so forwardly in amor with birds Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
AQUA IS OFFICIALLY A BOSS FIGHT IN KH3 Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Me: Yeah theres a lot of biking in Davis

Oldest Sister: I told you there was a lot of biking in college

Me: No you dont understand

Me: Davis is a whole new level

Me: Just google UC Davis Bike

Me: Just look out your window at Davis

Me: Davis is a bike Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Its kinda nice that the torturous longing to be able to hug and cuddle and be with my boyfriend has been replaced with an excitement to go início and be with him in just a week of being here.

I really miss him and we can do so much when I get back XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I'm honestly just so lucky to have him. The distance honestly kinda makes me appreciate even the smallest things even more. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
But yeah Im not really the type of person who should have been out of therapy for over three months straight Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
You are going to be starting it again now that Summer is over. Right? over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
If I can work through Davis over a year ago
Riku114 said …
TFW you are unsure whether you are just really bad at recognizing your own emotions or really good at lying / convincing yourself that one emotion is the seguinte Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Cause lowkey had a bit of a breakdown over the thing mentioned below and I know my need to stay active is a hugeeee front and the boredom is a HUUUGEEE red herring to keep myself from actually having to feel / think about my feelings over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
The thing is, even after a bit of a crack in it, I still dont know what Im blocking out, what, or why and for the time period that I was extremely distressed about boredom, I genuinely thought I was depressed cos I was bored cos thats a thing for me but like, I can bet you I was depressed for some other reason and I only started to feel it cause I wasnt busy and was distressed cos I was feeling depressed and was using the scapegoat of boredom so I could ignore my own issue over a year ago
Riku114 said …
God Im bored Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Im not even a week into college and Im already bored of it. >.> over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
It doesnt help my mind isnt in a "Have fun and relax" mode and thus dont feel comfortable / motivated doing anything fun which means I cant get into a game or mangá or animê or anythign even if I forced myself to over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Im HONESTLY going to burn out so fast if Im like this for much longer or if I cant relax on the weekend over a year ago
Riku114 said …
That feeling when your shy introverted roommates have a larger will / want to make mais friends than you XD

I just am too lazy and dont have people Im interested in yet XD

Ive got invited to like... two or three parties already XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Sorry if I dont talk too much to people I usually would XD Ive been busy and distracted to keep up with my normal online routine XD Posted over a year ago
Shukuya commented…
No problem over a year ago
JetBlack__ commented…
Hey,as long as you still here that’s all it matters. over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ This. It is understandable, Rikubun. No need to even mention it !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Me: Imma take a bit of a nap 20 minuto cause Im super tired and I never end up napping for mais than a few minutes

*two hours later*

Me: FUCK ITS 4PM AND I MISSED dia ONE OF SCH- Oh wait. Huh. *talks to roommate for like two minutes* Imma just curl up for like five minutos or something

*five minutos later*

Roommate: We should probably go eat soon since we have to leave in a bit

Me: Yeah sure around five

Roommate: It is five. You fell asleep an hora atrás Posted over a year ago
JetBlack__ commented…
The cama must be so comfy xD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Its alright XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I was just super exhausted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
So this is gonna be a copy paste from what I texted people on messenger but college story time Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Also dude. Someones bike flipped and they flew off it cos a janitor bumped the back of their bike with their vehicle and she - the rider - totally skinned her knee really badly and was bleeding a lot over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Karma has its very own pace and ways of rewarding. Glad things worked out for both of you !!!! over a year ago
JetBlack__ commented…
That was weird xD Hope it's just a beginners welcoming XD be seguro Riku<3 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I honestly just feel happy and comfortable when I can really help the people around me that I care about. ITs one of my easier ways of showing affection and all, and if people can come to me for help and I can help them, it just makes me feel respected and liked.

Maybe its a bit wrong, since its a dynamic that could get unhealthy, but in moderation I feel like its fine Posted over a year ago
Shukuya commented…
I think you're doing great over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Update: Quickly getting my good biking legs back Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly if Im not on much its cause Im moving in and doing school prep and figuring life out at college and all and I just feel odd being on my computer much now XD Posted over a year ago
Rihanna312 commented…
linkI`m just gonna leave this link here for when you get back on, in case you haven`t seen this yet ^_^ over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Awww XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Wow my whole dorm room is the " 5' 1(.5)" girls with dysfunctional families bringing trauma and bad pasts to UC Davis hoping for mais luck and a fresh start here " Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
My roommate is a wonderful person and I amor her XD We are gonna have a fun ano Posted over a year ago
JetBlack__ commented…
^Since when (her) means boy? xD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
^ Plus platonically amor XD Also Im bi / ace af so gender doesnt matter for me over a year ago
Shukuya commented…
Sorry about that i didn't noticed!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
On a scale of one to ten, do you want to die?
On a scale of one to ten, do you want to die?
But if you want to die
You cant afford a funeral
So sadly I must say, you can not die Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Honestly its not that bad for me but feels man over a year ago
Shukuya commented…
Life is game, dying means quiting it and I never quit a game over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Me and my roommate are whining and complaining about medical shit and college shit and assholes who write their own textbooks every ano and make their students buy them Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
... well I was gonna make a Luka + Flugelhorn ícone but I cant upload it >.> Posted over a year ago
JetBlack__ commented…
Oh ! why? over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
fanpop glitching over a year ago
8theGreat commented…
I dig it over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Seriously though I just amor my college band. So hyped for Monday Practice this Monday XD They make me feel loved and welcome. Its great not being the mom for the first time and just being the 'kid' of the band since you get that really nice older sibling feel and that "we have your back" feeling that I havent had in a while.

They are honestly wonderful people. Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
That is wonderful to know !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
As for a college update, Im moving in tomorrow XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
TFW you spend all dia playing online games with your boyfriend since you both have the dia off and you still miss him XD Its honestly lowkey great to miss him like this. It both means Ive made great progress in mental health, that I really did amor him, makes the smallest things feel like the largest, and honestly just makes me mais fond.

It sucks but like... Ive never been so happy or excited to play Fortnite or Stardew or anything before. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I realize that when comida is now on my own money, I eat a lot less of it XD Its probably for the better tho cos like... I eat mais than I should XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly its quite a great thing that Im missing my boyfriend XD Its a huge improvement from what I used to be like with my mental health. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Annnnd now I need to figure out something to keep me busy and entertained the seguinte two days in a city I dont know, without a car, and with dead legs from band camp XD

Ill figure it out but for now Imma sit cos my legs are dead XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I AM BACK AND THE BAND IS GREAT.

#YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
WELCOME BACK! XD That is good to know !!!! over a year ago