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wantadog said …
I think I adequately fucked with Riku's mind right before she went to sleep. I'm satisfied with that Posted over a year ago
wantadog said …
Why does Faba not have a Flygon? Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I AM BEING SHAMED FOR HAVING AN ESTIMATE OF 300-450 ENGLISH SONGS PICKED OUT ON THAT LIST.

FIRSTLY, THATS ONLY LIKE THE topo, início OF THEM EACH

SECONDLY, I ADMIT IM A música JUNKIE, BUT COMPARED TO SOME PEOPLE I KNOW AND ZANHAR, IM A CUTE BABY Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
THIRDLY, I HAVE AN INSTUMENTAL PLAYLIST PROBABLY 9X LONGER, A JAPANESE PLAYLIST ABOUT THE SAME LENGTH (guessing), AND A KOREAN PLAYLIST THAT IS PROBABLY A BIT SMALLER over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
THIS IS NOTHING enxada over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
*cough* My irl friends have no place judging me :v over a year ago
wantadog commented…
My USB currently has 225 songs in the English folder. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, people in my school make fun of me for only listening to 'weeb' music, but truth is I probably like mais English songs than most of the people saying that. Im a música junkie. Its just I have so much I like that downloading all of it is overwhelming :v Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ #Relatable !!!! over a year ago
wantadog commented…
música is just really nice. over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Without this música I don’t know how I would’ve fought this - Lane Boy |-/ over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Ha. My English teacher had us 'read' like six books in preparation for the AP Exam essay, then I did my mock on Romeo and Juliet (one that wasnt one of the six) and I said Id probably do it on the AP Exam cos I know that one better than I should

She said I shouldnt because its been a while since I read it and since it doesnt cover all the topics that well and should study the other books (not that I even studied R&J) Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
But fuck that XD Totally wrote my essay on Romeo and Juliet XD I know that piece too well solely cause its famous, cos I read Tybalt two years atrás and really liked his character mais than I should have, watched an animê version of the play (which btw, had the plot changed a lot, I recommend the anime), and cos its jsut a good piece to analyze off of since a lot of stories can take a lot of inspiration and similarities off of it over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Even one of my side stories has a lot of parallels I didn't really intentionally do over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSS !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Despite never really watching the movie or anything, Ive always been attached to the idea and things themed / inspired from Alice in Wonderland Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Same honestly. Have always found its whole concept fascinating !!!! over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Me too! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Im sorry Im like.... on a tired high.

I only got 3 hours of sleep for a really busy dia XD

If I say weird stuff, enjoy XD Posted over a year ago
wantadog commented…
TIRED RIKU! DON'T APOLOGIZE! COME OUT FURTHER! DO MORE! over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
If I talk too much I might start casually talk about murder or shit. Im in a demented tired :v over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
A tired high? Oh so that’s what you call it. That happens to me as well. So excuse any crazy stuff I say... I’m out of it a lot over a year ago
wantadog said …
Seriously Riku needs to stop being all ansty about it and accept my offer to let her stab me with one of her knives. I mean sheesh. It's a flesh wound. MAYBE liver injury at worst. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Keep talking weird shit like that and itll be in the head over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
jk jk over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, I am not going to lie. I am 'crazy' and 'insane'. I used to be even mais so, but honestly even now I still can be. I've gone to the point of naming myself something else. I've talked way too excessively with people in my head, one of which tried to convince me I was a god before I realized I was getting way too off the rocker.

I've thought of excessively sadistic things with no guilt or shame to back it up. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Personally, I strongly accept that part of me. The closer you get to me, the mais creepy and unsettling things you might find my mind causing. But its honestly something I accept of myself. I am definately working out of it since it isn't a GOOD thing to be like this, but its not something Im going to let harm my esteem or hold against myself over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I dont disclose too much of specifics of how... off... I can get at times since theres no need for that to spill out onto here, because I always sound like a psycho edgelord and I find that cringey, and because personally I dont like to attribute it to my no geral, global character. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
But yeah thats just kinda a ramble over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I want sleep Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
You NEED sleep !!!! over a year ago
wantadog commented…
Sleep? over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
ya deserve sleep so much over a year ago
wantadog said …
"If that's the case, then you owe it to yourself to pick apart the games you LOVE, not just the ones you hate."

amor that. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Person: Im so stressed out Imma pull out my hair!

Me, a person with Trichotillomania: https://tinyurl.com/y8fvjeqz Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Honestly, I'm not the type to be like "OMG YOU ARE MAKING LITTLE OF MY DISORDER" because Trich is pretty poorly covered and that is a common saying, but I still kinda just take a pause whenever I hear it over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Cos like... cadela, puta I doubt you are literally gonna pull out your hair :v Stop appropriating my culture over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Jk jk over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I just find it funny-ish whenever I hear that line over a year ago
wantadog said …
I text Riku too much. Confirmed. RIP Posted over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Ha I bet ya do! Y’all are so close! :) over a year ago
Riku114 said …
*deep breath* *sigh* Honestly, searching for a roommate is a pain in the bunda with my family issues and vulnerability issues and just my no geral, global trust issues and stuff. Like I know I'll be fine regardless and I'll make friends and all just fine. Its just my brain being stupid about it while I'm waiting for a reply combined with how this whole "I cant just get this done with" stuff does not fit with me who likes to get things done with before moving onto the next. Posted over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Good luck buddy. Try not to listen when you tell yourself stuff like that. You’ll get through it and everything will work out. :). [Wow. Listen to me, little motivationist. I’m trying.] Stay Alive |-/ over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Nah, to be honest, the things that concern me are genuine issues I need to keep in check. Some of the issues I have with making irl friends are deep rooted with family issues of mine and I actually genuinely do sabotage them myself with how my anxiety and stuff reacts to certain things. Its a work in progress and all and I know Ill get through it XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Its just a stinkin pain in the asssss over a year ago
2ntyoneplts said …
Hi I’m back! A few days is like a ano when you live here Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Welcome back over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, Im waiting for mais information on Osoro Shidesu specifically from Yandere Simulator. Cos honestly right now she kinda borders relatable, but there is so little actually given out on her character.

Im super interested tho. Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
She looks interesting. Has a pretty cool appearance too !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
So got back from Infinity War.

Not nearly as depressing or sad as like.... 99% of people make it out to be. Maybe its the fact I bathe in tragedy or because I write stories and tragedy as much as I do, but it didnt really hit me too hard.

Also rather predictable if you ask me. Like I wasnt shocked or surprised with anything other than the abrupt ending. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
With that being said. I loveeeed the movie. It was great and I honestly like how the first like... half of the movie had my favoritos XD Thor, Loki, Dr. Strange, and Guardians of the Galaxy. Just awesome XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Oh and Stark. Thats the other one. XD topo, início Five Marvel Characters. ((Yes GoG is counted as one imo XD)) over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Great to know. Looking progressivo, para a frente to seeing it myself !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
My dad pissed me off. My dad just wants us to keep breeding my bird and wonders why we arent letting Smokey breed and every time we tell him its not healthy for them, its abusive to make them breeders for money, and that it adds to the problem that most parrots go to shitty homes, he just scoffs.

I called him out at constantly scoffing at it and hes like "You could make money"

So like. Fuck that greedy bunda bastard. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Ill stuff that asshole in a cage with a woman and force them to have children for money. See how he fucking likes it. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Not really but still. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I dont HATE him as much as I sound like I do. I just refuse to forgive him or give him any leeway or even truly see him as my dad / family until he gets his behavior straightened a bit and honestly and genuinely makes amends and realizes how shitty of a person he was / still sometimes is over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, smart charismatic people are some of the last people you want to trust. They can analyze people way too well, and with charisma, they can pull strings way too well to make things happe-

.... oh shit wait. Posted over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Lol! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Also a aleatório fact

Birds are literally dinosaurs

I raise baby dinossauros Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Also, you doubt it until you hear what baby cockatiels sound like. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
link over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Also aleatório fact about Riku

On an average, I make sure to get at least 30-60 minutos of bird vídeos within each day.

It makes me happy. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
On another note, as I begin talking of my plans for the future and all, the rate of which my amor and knowledge on birds began to become well known rapidly sped up

At this point, I can now expect that if I hear any talk of birds between two people and there seems to be disagreement or uncertainty of facts, that within five minutos Ill hear "Hey Riku! You are the bird expert, give us some info on this topic!" across the room Posted over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
It’s expected por now I imagine:) over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Im just shaking my head here at this argument between two people over Akashi.

One side is arguing "Akashi doesnt care for team work and bringing people together and only cares about winning." The other side is arguing "No, Akashi is all for team work and bring people together. Its one of his strongest characteristics and his main role in his team."

And Im just like.... Neither of you are right or wrong. You are just ignoring an entire half of his character. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Like I dont even know how they just ignore one side or the other. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Honestly I really need to see "The Last Game" since there is a lot mais interaction between Bokushi and Oreshi. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
GONNA WATCH INFINITY WAR TODAY.

#HYPE Posted over a year ago
BlindBandit92 commented…
It was a great movie. over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ #ThanosDemandsYourSilence lol !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Annnd my dad didnt understand me when I said we had to leave early cos itd be busy / sold out XD So going tomorrow! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Decided to take the trumpet solo in the Game of Thrones theme for Zeppie cos she seemed happy enough that we were playing it, I figured Id do that in her name as well. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, Im tired as hell despite me constantly sleeping at least an hora or two early most nights.

I am really just a permanently exhausted and tired bun.

I just want a good night to sleep and all.

.... did I not have a weekend to rest or something? I dont really remember 5 days back XD Posted over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
take care of ya riku =( and try to sleep if ya can , want to see ya healthy over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ This, pretty much. Make sure you rest whenever you are able to. Still hyped for #RelaxedRikubun at some point !!!! over a year ago
2ntyoneplts said …
oi this probably sounds really weird but I amor you guys. Feel free to ignore this if you want. Most people either feel very uncomfortable or just don’t understand.
Stay Alive |-/ Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Its cool dood XD over a year ago
nightiee commented…
You too over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Most people could feel uncomfortable but I doubt that they wouldn't understand. Your feelings are much appreciated. Right back at you !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
So in my school we have this thing called a Senior Exit Project required to let us graduate and all where we have to present a powerpoint to a panel of teachers about our plans and all

I dont get why everyone is freaking out, trying to memorize it, and some barely passing it.

I did little to no preparation other than setting up the power point and just por talking about what I did for my Job Shadow and why I wanna do what I wanna do, I got a perfect score on the mock Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Relax. Talk genuinely and tell them what you feel and mean. Its not that hard. I get the shy introverts struggling with it, but even some of the large known extroverts are stressing out over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Good job. I bet you’re glad that’s over thou! |-/ over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly if I watched Madoka Magica again I feel Id relate to Kyoko mais than I did the first time Posted over a year ago
wantadog commented…
I could see you relating a LIL bit to Mai from Ghost Hunt over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Kyoko has always been one of the Characters that interested me the most in this Series. I am pretty curious about which Character I could mostly relate myself when I finally continue and go even further with this animê !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Yeah honestly though, I am such an extrovert.

Now that Im not a ball of anxiety, depression, angst, and massive distrust, I find that a lot of my goals surround people and having them around me and being a speaker and stuff.

Im not even an ambivert. Im a strict extrovert XD Just a highly selective one at that. Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
link over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Wow 5hats pretty cool over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
❤️ over a year ago
wantadog said …
Alright Im back. And with an emote of my own. -x- Posted over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
lol over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Good to know. Welcome back !!!! over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
welcome back wanta! over a year ago
sunny
TheLefteris24 said …
Attention everyone! ''Rikubun'' has been added to the list of Nicknames available for Riku. I would like to make this Official. Fluffy Rikubun will certainly be referred to as such from now on.

KANPAI !!!! Posted over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Got it :^; over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Uh what was that I just did?! over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ Are you talking about the Emoji you made? It certainly seems unusual. A Typo, I guess? over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Yup. lol over a year ago
2ntyoneplts said …
<3 thanks for the hope Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Keep the hope alive. <3 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Preach 🙏 !!!! over a year ago
nightiee commented…
Keep the enxada alive over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Oh Satan! XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I always wanna write but dont have the energy and/or the creative flow XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Gosh Im tired XD Im still good and all tho guys. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Sorry about all the trauma talk out here lately XD I usually like to keep things fun and all, but Ive been too busy to be full on obsessed with anything, and dealing with trauma has been one of my largest focuses and goals these days XD

I dont any of you mind but I wanted to put that out there. Posted over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
don`t say sorry riku we understand it totally over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ !!!! over a year ago
BlindBandit92 commented…
riku it's your club. You're entitled to do anything you want. It's a blog of sorts. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
XD I know. I just wanted to put it out there over a year ago
sunny
TheLefteris24 said …
Also......

HAIL HYDRA !!!! Posted over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
xD leftie over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
XD !!!! over a year ago
sunny
TheLefteris24 said …
#PidgeonLivesMatterToo !!!! Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
#PigeonLivesMatterToo over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ Preach !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
So I asked my therapist out of curiosity and all, and I do have PTSD apparently. Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
I see. It makes a lot of sense when thinking about it !!!! over a year ago
wantadog said …
Just gotta keep urging Riku to shoot someone in broad daylight. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Aye over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Riku: The Highly Selective Extrovert. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I actually saw that while scrolling Tumblr and I think that descrição fits me VERY well XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Better than Ambivert tbh XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
WOW MY DAD JUST DID THE MOST CARING THING I EVER HEARD HIM DO IN ALL MY CHILDHOOD

HE OFFERED TO GO ON A WALK WITH MY MOM TO GET HER OUT OF THE HOUSE WHEN SHES DISTRESSED COS OF MY SISTER Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
omg

My mom and dad are watching a horror show about where parents go crazy and try to kill their children and my dads like "Its like your husband" Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
At least we now know hes aware over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
I... Kinda have my concerns about your father watching Horror Shows... over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
^Eh... hes a child over a year ago
Riku114 said …
What I planned on doing:
-Get all the last Z Crystals in Pokemon
-Write another piece to my stories
-Write RPs
-Relax
-Play Hitman and other Steam
-Take today off to relax and have fun as I rejected activities to do so

What I got done:
-Six scholarships
-Researched and planned out mais of my college stuff
-Got my Health homework done
-Researched aleatório stuff
-Finished two essays for an application
-Finished everything I can do right now for Davis Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I had a super productive day, but Im not satisfied since I barely got anything at all I planned today done XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I did one post to the RP and like... Kinda took some Flight Rising time but thats not really there either? XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
UC Davis: For a chance at a $1000-4000 scholarship, write an essay on your leadership experiences and how it affected you and will continue to help you in the future

Me: *flips through 900 things I could talk about cos leadership has played a major role in my life and Im super thankful for it and very passionate over it* Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Dude, Id write a 14 page essay on Leadership for free cadela, puta over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Like I literally might even be dead if I never found myself in a leadership position some how. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
PLUS IF THEY ACCEPT ME THEY WILL BRING ME IN FOR AN INTERVIEW AND I LIKE THAT KIND OF STUFF ESPECIALLY IF ITS ON THE TOPIC OF LEADERSHIP over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Personally, I dont really believe too much in not chasing what I want. Its part of the reason I cant sit and relax too much, but if I determine I want something, I weigh out how badly Im willing to want it, then charge full on ahead.

I make excuses from time to time, but if I cant get something done in the long run, its often capable to blame myself for not taking action. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
At least partially blame myself that is. There is a level of rationality to how much one can and cannot control over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, I personally wonder where I stand on the trauma scale. I know I probably fit under the "traumatized" title, but I dont really know if I actually fit one of the trauma disorders. Its something Ill probably ask my therapist or psychiatrist about at some point. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I'm probably a lot better now. Had a really bad moment related to shitty stuff of the past and all but direclty after a lot of the depression and massive amounts of anxiety withdrew for the most part. Ive been shakey when I wake up for the past few days, but I think Im good so for anyone worried or concerned, I should be fine.

Thank you so much to everyone who watched out for me and helped. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Some part of the whole fiasco with Wanta 'triggered' something I think and it kind of let mais of my really bad mental state thats usually disappears when Im online carried in over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Im back to normal I think. And now that I see a massive unprocessed wound, Ill probably take goals to addressing it in my seguinte therapy session and individually on my own. over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
It is certainly good to know about the progress that has been made and will continue to do so. For the both of you, I hope. Always here when needed, Riku. We amor you too !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
We officially have a baby bird. Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
NOICE! A NEW MEMBER IN THE FLOCK! CONGRATULATIONS, FANPOP'S LOCAL BIRDKEEPER !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
We might have two over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
congrats riku our birdmum =D *throws confetti and open a bottle of chamapaigne*, for the non alcoholics suco, suco de xD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
#StartingTheHitmanSeriesFromTheLastGame Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly though.

Akashi I am officially going to call my favorito character from now on. He super deserves it. He absolutely does deserve it. Outside of loving the character, he has always been consistently a significant figure in helping me process and work through issues, helping me make the right decision, calming down, self reflecting, etc.

And fun fact, his vídeos can calm down one of my poor mental states so quickly and successfully Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
That I have this thing on my phone called "Emergency Akashi" since I could be in a really bad mental state and if I recognize it, Akashi vídeos can almost always return that bad mental state to AT LEAST a neutral or calm and managable mental state over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Even if his character sucked ass, the fact one fictional item could have helped me so much through my mental health journey and all, it alone is deserving of it over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Yeah Im doing better now but honestly, I still need to take time to chill. Who knows I might wake up and have another bad time or something. I cant be sure but Imma take it somewhat easy. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I apologize if it takes me a bit to get back to being my old energetic and peppy self I like to be on here and usually am.

The recent events through me into a bad loop and pool that might take a while to fully get out of.

Im alright though. I just don't feel in the right place to have the energy and exorbitant positivity I usually do. Its not anything Wanta did or anything Im pretty sure.

Thank you to everyone that has been putting effort into this situation and helping me out. Posted over a year ago
Zeppie commented…
Take all the time you need. over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
It is understandable really. Take your time, Riku !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Feeling better ish rn over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
A little over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Figuring out which Akashi ícone to use when you have so many is hard. Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Literally every time I want to display a new ícone showcasing favoritos of mine. It takes a while !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
For me I have to like the ícone and have that feeling like my mood at the moment likes the ícone either cos it represent it or because it soothes or it just feels fitting at the time over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Its liking it and then finding one that I feel is kinda nice at the moment and like the look of how it looks when I post over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Same here XD Relatabilty is a major factor when I am going to display an Icon. It makes things all the mais harder honestly with such a variety !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I can always rely on Akashi and KnB to neutralize shitty mental health crap. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
aleatório Anxiety: "I want to die."

Me: How about no you over-dramatic sensitive edgelord? Take your damn bunda medicine Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I don't have time this morning to read through the uh... five or six messages since on early start days I always wake up for just barely enough time to work through my regular routine.

But I see there is a lot of misunderstanding the in meaning and intent of the words.

And also, I figured with how often Ive talked about my issues with relationships with other people before addressing it with them to you specifically, that you knew the difference between mine and Zeppie's stance Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I dont believe in going directly to the friend if the situation is serious or important enough. Doing that is how you make bad, emotional, and irrational ideas off of current feelings. For major and very important issues, it is best to go to other people for conselhos and a segundo opinion. Ive always lived por that and only kept my avoidance of following it for Zeppie in specific since she gets majorly hurt por it otherwise. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I wanted to say that one for everyone who reads this. over a year ago
BlindBandit92 commented…
Honestly I might be out of turn. But if something is really important. I wouldn't make an exception. It might seems like I would be a dick or something. But I rather be a dick than let a problem fester with no easy way or solving it. over a year ago
wantadog commented…
Feel free to say your peace as much as you like, Blind. Riku apparently won't talk to me about it for another hora so...*shrug* over a year ago
wantadog said …
Everyone gets all upset when things that aren't directly related to the story in Pokemon games are not post game. I loved cadastrar-se Avenue from Black 2 and White 2. I loved where they placed it and found it entirely relevant and helpful Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
You know, one of the shittiest things about mental health, especially as a kid and teenager, is that it steals away your childhood.

A lot of people have good memories of their high school life, they remember the fun with their friends, they remember all the fun risks and activities they did...

But when it comes to mental health, you just kind of have all those times stolen.

I personally realize... As a senior, I'm far too late to regather them

But Ill cherish what I have. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Ill be happy that I have it right now and not let what I have left go to waste because of what I already lost over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I do wish I could have my childhood back, heck I wish I could REMEMBER my childhood again, but theres no point in crying over spilt milk. Past is past, its time to accept it and mover on. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I owe people in my highschool mais credit and appreciation than I give them since I've spent most of my time around them being a reserved, angsty, emotionally-scared child.

Like one of my friends from 7th grade... never really opened up at all to him. Apparently I was a huge inspiration and role model for him. We talked a lot but it was really one sided

Or the trumpet brother of mine I'm not dating. He dealt with so much of my stupid jokes and I amor him. Hes family. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Those two really helped me out even if it was no where near direct. Honestly, they both opened their doors to me if I ever needed to escape my house even though they dont even know the tiniest tip of the iceberg of how horrible my house can and could get over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Ill be honest. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
For the first time, Ill say it. I will miss them. I will be sad. But its not bad. Its kind of nice. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Geesh. Lucy - The Eternity She Wished For is a super sad story

#FeelsBad

#Sad Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
College: Has your dad been physically present in California for at least three years-

Me: Not emotionally present but sure I guess hes been physically present Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
"And squaring numbers are just like women, if they are under thirteen just.. do them in your head" ~ Bo Burnham Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Thats actually going to be my clubes new quote over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
True, I suppose !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
My body is so damn worn out XD

Going to the fitness center for like 45 minutos is always good for when the brain is being stupid. Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
#Relatable !!!! over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
It is great to know Riku. Exercise will do you pretty good !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Heres to never having heard your dad ever say the word "love" "care" or "proud" to you in a positive way over the seventeen almost eighteen years of being alive.

Heres to him instead liking to get violent and yelling when anyone even remotely asks for him to say something remotely similar to it

Heres to him getting your therapist to give up after thirty minutos of being asked to compliment you. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
At the very least I get "good jobs" here and there for doing good things regarding his money and my money. Its something. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
TFW you get hit por a sudden wave of mild depression and anxiety and are about to post about it

Then realize you forgot to take your anxiety medication this breakfast and thats probably part of it. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, I dont think I can watch the new season of sobrenatural or really much of any of it until I deal with my issues entirely.

It brings back bad flashes of really bad coping mechanisms and mental states I used to way too heavily relate to back when I practically binge watched it.

Sam and Dean are strong members of my relatable character list, but theres a reason for it. Some of those frases hit way too close to início and their dynamic feels too personal. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Like anyone else get that 'flash' feeling in their head when something reminds them of something unpleasant or tempts to bring you back into a anterior bad mental state? Like you dont actually fall back to it, but you feel the pull for a segundo in your head and its kinda uncomfortable but not immensely so? over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Like a mini panic of a warning? over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
XD this is just a pergunta for anyone XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
@Me a ano atrás saying "Am I the only one that wonders when my signature would randomly become something fancy? Like adults seem to always have one (parents and all) and some of my classmates have one then theres me thats all like "What is cursive?"

Yes, it did happen. I dont know when but it did Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly going through my mural for an artigo is interesting cos firstly, this ícone makes all the posts super hilarious and secondly, because Im really realizing how horrifically depressed I was.

Even mais shocking since I actually tried not to post it on here too much and to keep it subtle.

Honestly super concerned for my past self Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Me: Okay I literally wasted an hora of my time doing the most stupid and wasteful things. Before I can feel comfortable doing osmething slightly unproductive but also not stupid and wasteful, I have to do something fully productive. *groan* Ugh fine Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Flights Rising is literally the largest waste of my time but I still do it so much XD over a year ago
wantadog commented…
That's me with whatever aleatório app has my interest for the mês XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, I have a weird relationship with change. I hate change coming into my life up until it hits me and there is no return. Cos once I jump straight into it or get run over por whatever change came my way, I just kind of go 100% into it and embrace it to the point I amor it.

Im someone really happy and comfortable with my natural normal schedule, but Im also someone who likes to take change as an opportunity to massively fix things. So its just interesting. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Im officially committed to UC Davis XD

God I have to many massively long trips coming up in the future Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
That is great to know. Wish you all the best Riku. Have a good progress most of all !!!! over a year ago
wantadog said …
Pokemon knew what they were doing when they let you name your rival. Honestly it's the most cathartic release. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
IM FINALLY início AFTER A 15 hora ROUND TRIP OF DRIVING OVER A LIKE 35 TRIP OVERALL.

IM FINALLY NOT SITTING

...

and Im back at my computer. :) Nice. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Maybe even 16 hours idk XD over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Welcome back XD !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, being a "leader" is a great feeling and isnt something Id really ever want to give up. I always amor having a team that I can work with and helping them / maximizing their potentials and getting work done and all.

Plus the respect and ability to influence another person's life positively is always nice. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Watching a PS4 gamer try PC Gaming for the first time is hilarious. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Currently off in Davis checking out UC Davis today and tomorrow. Took like... an eight hora drive to get here but Im here. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
link

Please do take and enjoy.

Wanta and I put a lot of work into it XD Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
I certainly did enjoyed it. Well done, to both of you !!!! over a year ago
wantadog said …
Riku confirmed that Professor Oak is a Totem Pokemon in Pokemon Ultra Sun and Ultra Moon and can be unlocked with a sticker. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
There is something really wonderful about learning about yourself in all ways possible. Looking deep inside yourself and finding all the good, bad, weaknesses, and strengths and accepting them. Its really wonderful to be honest.

I never loved myself mais than when I started doing this.

It hurts like Lucifer's wrath on steroids at first, but the longer and longer you do it... the mais magical and wonderful and secure and confident you feel. Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
It is certainly wonderful recognizing that. As I said before, pretty admirable !!!! over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Seeing you making those positive remarks alone feels pretty satisfying to me as well :') !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
God Im tired XD Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Being tired honestly isnt good for my mental state Im guessing. Go wonder XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Im alright tho. Its just amusing the amount of intrusive thoughts Ive been playing baseball with over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
#StrikeAllThoseHomeruns over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Relatable XD !!!! over a year ago
wantadog said …
Riku is oppressing me! Posted over a year ago
wantadog said …
Never name your Pokemon after mental issues.

Duskull used Foresight.

Codependance was identified.

Me: "...." Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
:v over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, if I got into Harry Potter, Id probably fall in amor with Snape. The issue however is that Harry Potter is everywhere. After estrela Wars and Kylo, I fear having two popular series holding characters I amor Posted over a year ago
BlindBandit92 commented…
You would amor Snape. Snape would be hands down your favorite. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
He currently is from the little, tiny bit I know from the series XD over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^^ I agree about Snape as well. He certainly is your kind of Character XD !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Jeesh. Yuki Kajura is an amazing composer. Pandora Hearts OST, Fate OST, Madoka Magica OST, Sword Art Online OST, Tsubasa Chronicles OST.

Those are all some of my favorito works geesh.

*knows mais animê osts than animes* Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
I have listened to some of them and I agree that there are quite a few amazing Tracks. Pretty interested to check out the rest !!!! over a year ago
BlindBandit92 commented…
You've listened to the fate ost even though you haven't really seen the anime? lol over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
You continue to sin, Riku. Not that I cannot understand that but still lol !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I decided and I am committing to it.

I am going to process through my trauma and try to see if I can clear the fog on my memories and bring back, experience, remember, and accept what happened for everything it is.

Its not going to be fun, but I want to be able to pull myself back together before I leave off to college.

Honestly the hard part is though I only get really bad over my trauma when its abruptly brought up. I dont really get connected to it much on command Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
The thing about trauma though, especially at a young age, is that it steals away a lot of yourself and a lot of your ability to be an entire person. You forget a lot. You loose your history and your past. You loose your childhood. You loose your sense of identity. You become a grandly incomplete person over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I really cant be me at my full potential until I work through it fully so as much as I hate it, I want to do the most with my life. over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
That is quite an admirable way to look at things, Riku. Making peace with the past is a major step towards one's Improvement. I too believe you can do it. There is no doubt about that !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly one of the things i appreciate the most in friends and people close to me are people who have experienced stuggle and can manage and handle it well.

I really appreciate and like that since they usually do good with conselhos and keeping me under control when Im at my worst. c: Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I often, especially in thr past, need people who can handle and keep things in a good perspective while keeping me from doing anything stupid off of stress or anything over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Cos I can lack self control at times and have too many demons on my shoulder. Its kinda why I like Lefteris a lot. Hes my "positive echo chamber". Hes full of nice health lines to encourage positive growth. over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
I am all about encouraging one's Growth XD It helps when I feel myself strongly relating with said person. I am always here for you, Riku ^_^ !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
DUDE. POKEMON GENERATIONS LOOKS SICK.

THEY A ADDRESSED POKEMON BLACK 2 AND WHITE 2 SCENE SO NICE.

IMMA WATCH IT. Posted over a year ago
wantadog said …
Wantadog's depressing introspective about Love.

amor is nice when you think of it like "Oh two people who were meant for each other" but sadly the case is that when they say true amor is one in a million, they mean it. 90% of relationships are not true love. 90% of marriages are not true love. 90% of true amor CASES are NOT true love. Odds are no one here has even seen "true love" in action. Posted over a year ago
wantadog commented…
"Love is not equal" over a year ago
wantadog commented…
I won't dismiss someone else's relationship, but my statement on the main post holds true. over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ I'll have to agree with it !!!! over a year ago
wantadog said …
Three cheers for depressing yourself por asking for the impossible Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Also, Im a really strong advocate for taking medication for mental health issues, especially when it starts to get too extreme.

Taking medication for anxiety, no matter how much actually thinking about taking it gave me mais anxiety, was probably one of the best decisions of my life

It lowered how bad my anxiety got to a manageable level. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Personally before I got it, I got the horrible feeling like I was going to kill my real self off. It felt like a half assed indirect suicide. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I actually got super suicidal over it I think. But it really helped in the long run. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I mean I was already suicidal during that time, thats why my therapist was like "You really need to see a psychiatrist and get medication", but it made it worse over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Ive been on medication for like.... ten months I think now. Its been helpful without a doubt over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Its interesting how Psychosis and Dissociation are commonly seen talked about in the same areas. They are strictly different, but I can see where a lot of the similarities come in play.

Psychosis is a break away from reality, dissociation is a cut off from reality. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Baujel is such a wonderful character over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
The only issue I have to be honest with composição literária his character is that I por no means depict him por his actual age XD There is no way a kid would act this way at his age XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
But sh.. this isnt a formal composição literária peace. I dont have to be that realistic. Its just hobby composição literária and its a side story to depict things. Maybe Im composição literária it how he remembers it so it comes out as mais mature since people have trouble fully making themselves as immature as they were when they think back to their past experiences :v over a year ago
Riku114 said …
tfw you have symptoms of a large portion of mental health issues but write a character whose main issue is the ONE you dont so you gotta research :v Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Okay I decided. I will amor Lusamine begrudgingly Posted over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Riku: I hate you... But I amor you... But I hate you !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Accurate over a year ago
Riku114 said …
But for people that struggle to realize the difference between "OCD" ins a colloquial sense and OCD in a literal diagnosis sense, the single phrase of "If I dont do _____, then ________ will happen / ____ might happen" paired with genuine anxiety if the latter statement occurs to the point it locks you into doing the first statement. Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly I just found out Pokemon Sun and Moon completely changed Lusamine's character to only be 90-95% of a shitty mother that she was in the game and totally pretty much entirely lightened the theme of abusive / toxic families seen in the game so....

Yeah that annoys me.

Some children have had shitty parents and stuff. It would be nice if they werent written off as "not kid friendly" or whatever Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Gladion is precious Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly I do have to thank this mural and the people who read this. It gives me a place to process a lot of stuff and really makes me feel at peace and comfortable.

Its probably part of why I got as far as I have with my mental health Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Im not really watching American Idol but my mom has been and all I gotta say is that Cade is a serious rock estrela already.

Like wtf is he doing here?

Why isnt he already out there? Posted over a year ago
Riku114 said …
https://tinyurl.com/yao3batc

IRL fotografia of me and Wanta Posted over a year ago
wantadog commented…
LEFTERIS! WHY'D YOU TAKE A PICTURE! over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ It had to be done XD !!!! over a year ago