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Riku114 said …
Can someone get me a pillow? Apparently that wore me out from "could sleep but not at all tired" to like...

"Im so tired I cant figure out any new ideas for stories or really create words to speak, I wanna sleep and am yawning every minute" Posted faz 16 horas
wantadog said …
"Do stuff I guess" - Wantadog2018 Posted faz 17 horas
Riku114 said …
oi if anyone wants to know one variation of dissociation and depersonalization, Im right here.

I somehow ended up entirely numb cause my brain kept working me with unnecessary trauma shit and I took too long to determine if I wanted to dig deeper and ruin my mental state for processing something, cutting it off entirely and dissociating unnaturally which is worse than this, or just letting myself sleep and forget it all

And now Im just sitting here pretty darn empty. Posted faz 17 horas
Riku114 commented…
And that actually turned out to be a really short thing cos between my boyfriend and Wanta both stubbornly being stupid concerned dumbasses kinda ended up clicking with me and kind of giving my traumatized shithole brain a little bit of what it needed faz 17 horas
Riku114 commented…
Its nice to see some people have my back and genuinely really care for me as much as those two do. faz 17 horas
Riku114 said …
I am honestly tired of PTSD and trauma and feeling extreme anxiety and lack of safety for no reason.

Is there a place I could waiver out of it or like.... give it to one of those tumblr shitlords that think having mental disorders is cool..? Posted faz 17 horas
Riku114 commented…
Fuck. Took way too long trying to decide which way to go with it and now Im just emotionally numb again. Ah well. faz 17 horas
Riku114 commented…
I really want to kinda just sleep even though Im not tired or anything. Seems easier that putting effort to keep myself entertained or to dig deeper into that crap pile faz 17 horas
wantadog said …
Munakata: "Sorry for making you do this"

Chisa: "Say my name and it's even!"

Munakata: "No"

Riku: "Sorry for making you do this"

Wanta: "Call me your best friend and we're even!"

Riku: "No" Posted faz 18 horas
TheLefteris24 commented…
Lefteris: ''Call me por a nickname like I do for you and we're even!'' faz 16 horas
TheLefteris24 commented…
Riku: ''Maybe seguinte time'' faz 16 horas
TheLefteris24 commented…
The relatable feels are all over the place, man !!!! faz 16 horas
wantadog said …
I scared Riku with how badly the Aoi thing is taking its toll on me Posted faz 19 horas
Riku114 said …
I am so bored Posted faz 22 horas
TheLefteris24 commented…
#RelatableAsAlways !!!! faz 21 horas
Riku114 said …
FUCK I WAS PLAYING FORTNITE ON SOLO AND GOT SECOND

THE GUY WHO WON HAD LIKE 5 HP AND SINCE HE WAS RUNNING FROM ME I WAS PRETTY SURE HE WAS LOW ON AMMO OR SOMETHING

SO FUCKING CLOSE UGH Posted faz 1 dia
Riku114 said …
Me: Haha. Yeah the diagnosis with PTSD still is sometimes hard for me to believe since my mind has trouble believing it was really that bad.

Therapist: Well when you start to pergunta it, just ask yourself [insert pair of perguntas that blantantly Bpoint out that it was very shitty]

Me: *spending the rest of the dia frequently and randomly getting pulled into fixations and bad memories of said shiftiness* Aha... You are right. Posted faz 1 dia
wantadog said …
I'd like to give a quick shoutout to a special person in my life that really has helped me throughout the last couple days when I've been going through a rough spot and facing some big decisions in my life. This person always made me laugh, made me emote even in anger, kept me on the straight and narrow, and even showed me their weak side.

So Remae from the game Spiral Scouts. Thanks! You made me feel good for a bit.

#BuyTheGame Posted faz 1 dia
TheLefteris24 commented…
You really got me there, I must admit !!!! faz 1 dia
Riku114 said …
So the official final set of diagnoses from the probable last session with my therapist is PTSD with Dissociation, OCD, Trichotillomania, and GAD Posted faz 2 dias
Riku114 commented…
Oh and Chronic Stress faz 1 dia
Riku114 said …
Take the shitty hand you get dealt, accept it, and make something amazing from it.

Life is really never ever a fair thing. Some people are born with a shit ton of wealth, loving families, and everything they could want. Some people are born in absolute poverty, abusive and broken households, and in the middle of the perhaps a deadly war or gang territory.

The thing is, you cant really change what hand you were dealt. All you can do is adapt and morph it. Posted faz 3 dias
Riku114 commented…
I dont have the worst hand. I have a less than ideal and kind of shitty hand but not the worst. As do others who follow this club and all. The thing is though, its possible to change said weaknesses into strengths and use it to grow if you think about it faz 3 dias
Riku114 commented…
Personally, I take the hand I was dealt and use it to push reason to grow and to use it as a basis to let myself reach out to others better. faz 3 dias
Riku114 said …
I'm the kind of friend that to get close, you have to pay increasing work and effort into understanding and figuring out the bumps that naturally come with being close to me, but once things smoothen out I am also the type to pay it off extremely XD

Cos Im really driven and really goal orientated and good at planning and getting thigns done. Im also really good with mental health and struggles and have heard SO many stories of people both with mental and non mental health struggles Posted faz 3 dias
Riku114 commented…
Monetary issues? I can probably help. Mental health issues? Gotcha. Suicidal? Talk to me, Ill make sure you walk out alive. Cant get your life together? Lets figure out something we can do. No passions in life? Lets figure out something for you to work towards. Never seen things in life? Lets fix that. Family issues? Gotcha. faz 3 dias
Riku114 commented…
Then even better, if [I] cant help you, I have contacts that probably can help me help you. faz 3 dias
wantadog said …
Riku is a Formula One.

Im a Ford Pickup thats left in the backyard till you need a lift Posted faz 3 dias
Riku114 said …
I dont think Ill ever die TRULY satisfied with life. I can be 90, saved ninty bird species, millions of birds, changed many lives, warped and washed away the stigma of mental health, had a family, mastered forty languages, mastered multiple instruments, mastered multiple combat styles, got multiple PHDs and all that

And I will STILL find things I would have wanted to find more. Posted faz 3 dias
Riku114 commented…
If I dont keep learning and dont keep evolving who I am and developing, I dont feel like Im living. And thats NOT bad. Its WONDERFUL. I feel so alive chasing goals and plans. Its not that whole "Once I get all this, I can relax" - no. Its "Once I get all this, I can explore mais of the amazing interests of this world". faz 3 dias
Riku114 commented…
When I die, Ill be glad I did everything I did and its posisble for me to be at peace (cos theres a chance I wont if its a shitty death) but I dont think there will ever be a time in my life where I no longer have any strict goals faz 3 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
That is quite Relatable. It makes me glad to see others feeling that way as well. Life is a constant struggle. Constant Improvement is a major part of it !!!! faz 3 dias
Riku114 said …
Huh. Despite being someone who isnt one to believe conspiracy theories and never was quite into Avril Lavigne, the theory that she died and was replaced ACTUALLY has some notable evidence XD

Its interesting. I could somewhat buy it Posted faz 3 dias
Riku114 said …
Personally, I try to make it out to be the best that it can be and accept it, but its quite painful and frightening to know your problems with memory and knowing youll probably forget many things much faster than one shout and things no one else would

If you go off to Davis, will you actually remember all the fun you had with people and how much you care about them when you return 3 months later? Did you forget or did it just not happen? What was it like being depressed? What about happy? Posted faz 3 dias
Riku114 commented…
The bright side of it is I am very nicely trapped in the moment and future plans. I can get myself excited for my goals and plans. I can enjoy whatever is in the moment cos I things that happened a few hours atrás feel like days, and days feel like months and months feel like years atrás faz 3 dias
Riku114 commented…
Anyways Imma go to sleep faz 3 dias
wantadog commented…
I am Rikus memory faz 3 dias
Riku114 said …
Tfw you FEEL that night time depression sneaking up

But you ALSO wanna read some Pandora Hearts Posted faz 3 dias
Riku114 commented…
Prolly read some then sleep faz 3 dias
wantadog said …
USB = Unsuspectingly Saucy Butthole Posted faz 3 dias
Riku114 said …
Honestly shocked and disgusted with people. Posted faz 3 dias
Riku114 commented…
Major faith in humanity and friends lost faz 3 dias
Riku114 commented…
Seriously anyone who thinks thats funny and okay is disgusting as hell faz 3 dias
GDragon612 commented…
same here faz 1 dia
Riku114 said …
One a segundo note, Im incredibly disgusted, sickened and pissed off with people from my band cos one of my band children and his family had a small song bird fly into their house and instead of saving it (even when it was easy to save and grab) they decided to FILM the gatos hunting and killing it while finding a shit ton of amusement out of it.

One kid was like "Oh should we grab the hat (that it was sitting on)?" and then the mom owuld be like "No let it hunt" and everyone had cameras Posted faz 3 dias
Riku114 commented…
Like... are they REALLY finding amusement in watching a helpless bird get killed por a cat that PROBABLY wont even actually eat it? Seriously? I mean its KINDA okay if it did because círculo of life, and honestly, I wouldnt mind that bad if they filmed it or something. Because oi maybe its an idea of recording nature and shit. Like a snake eating a rato or whatever. But the commentary PISSED me off. "Oh let it hunt" "Oh lets watch it" "Oh look it got killed lol" faz 3 dias
Riku114 commented…
And of the 36 people that liked it, only one bothered to comment "Why didnt you save it? ;-;" while everyone else either didnt care or found it funny as well faz 3 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
I could say a lot about this but you already did yourself. People like these disgust me as well !!!! faz 3 dias
Riku114 said …
On one note, its Lucys birthday today and he got all sorts of toys and has been cantar all dia like he knows it is his birthday and its great.

Im glad to have such a wonderful bird in my life...... BUT Posted faz 3 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Happy Birthday to him. May he continue to grow and be healthy !!!! faz 3 dias
Riku114 said …
Also, I amor the look of slender builds on men.

I'm just saying that.

While I like rounded and curved women cos I amor thick thighs and boobs. ((That being said, my taste is much less strict for women than men since I do amor the extremely flat too and only a bit less than curved))

Slender builds are great. Perfect hugging size. A bit mais to the feminine side. Less domineering look. Posted faz 4 dias
Riku114 commented…
I really cant stand the idea of being the 'woman' in a relationship. It either has to be off the charts of being able to figure it out and balanced, or I'm the "man" in it. And personally the big and bulky look, while I dont hate it and its not a deal breaker or antyhing, tends to put me on guard. faz 4 dias
Riku114 commented…
And im not saying no to muscles. Muscles are nice too XD I just think slender frames are niceeee. faz 4 dias
Riku114 commented…
^^ faz 4 dias
Riku114 said …
While I DO amor Davis and STILL amor Davis and had a wonderful trip there, I do have to say the sheer amount they pushed the liberal ideologies and agenda onto everyone was a little... concerning.

As someone who is moderate, probably a little leaning towards Libertarian, I found it kind of honestly uncomfortable. It was almost cult like to be honest. Talking about lines and verses and explaining what they mean and what they make us feel like and why they are true Posted faz 4 dias
Riku114 commented…
RATHER than discussing it thoroughly and properly, there was a whole "Do this, or else" and a "This is the objective response to the topic / idea and not subjective, so tell me why its right" faz 4 dias
Riku114 commented…
It was just so super PC faz 4 dias
Riku114 commented…
I just feel people are too quick to be driven to be nice and make everyone happy and all they miss a chunk of reality faz 4 dias
wantadog said …
When Wantadogs fucked up mind comes up with shit so weird and unexpected that both he and Riku can't even bring up the energy to acknowledge its existence. Posted faz 4 dias
wantadog commented…
topo, início that, Davis band chick faz 4 dias
Riku114 commented…
XD faz 4 dias
Riku114 said …
[Riku gets boners] Posted faz 4 dias
wantadog commented…
[Wanta gave Riku a boner] faz 4 dias
zanhar1 commented…
Put ur weiners away there are aces here :v faz 4 dias
Riku114 commented…
XD Wanta was denying his ability to write smut, and while it wasnt smut, it was a sensual scene and he did really good so I have to call him out on it cos I got an empathetic boner for my character :v faz 4 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Having seen it, I can attest to its Sensuality. Not bad at all. It was certainly a nice part !!!! faz 4 dias
Riku114 said …
That feeling when the aleatório person you met in a UC Davis band chatroom is pretty much on a fanpop Friend level basis with you and you openly discuss and share many similarities and opinions on mental health, music, classes, etc.

She noticed my extreme passion and drive to learn :v

Is it really that obvious? Shes talked to me in IM for like... less than a week :v Posted faz 5 dias
wantadog commented…
I've been replaced already..... faz 5 dias
wantadog commented…
Hasn't even started at Davis and Wantadog is already old hat faz 5 dias
wantadog commented…
#TheOldModel faz 5 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Great to know. It doesn't really surprise me. Your Passion on certain Subjects has a way of really standing out. One of your charms. Many in here could attest to that !!!! faz 5 dias
Riku114 said …
On another note, I tore / bit my finger nails and fingers way too much yesterday out of stress of how annoying the schedule builder was.

My eyebrows are a given.

But my fingers hurt. Especially the right thumb which hurts like a betch, Posted faz 6 dias
wantadog commented…
You shoulda stayed up with me all night XD Clearly the smart play. faz 6 dias
Riku114 said …
HUNGER GAMES FOR universidade CLASS SEATS BEGINS IN 22 MINUTES

LETS SEE WHO WINS THE TWO CHEM CHAIRS OUT OF THE LIKE 300 STUDENTS WHO WANT IT

I mean there are mais like.... eight seats for like... a hundred people but still. Posted faz 6 dias
wantadog said …
Whoa. Fortnite got crazy... Posted faz 6 dias
wantadog said …
*lays head down in a depressed manner* Posted faz 6 dias
Riku114 said …
Put me out of my misery :V Posted faz 6 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
You need to fight it, Rikubun !!!! faz 6 dias
Riku114 said …
Made it to Sacramento XD Tomorrow starts Davis' Orientation Posted faz 7 dias
JetBlack_ commented…
Let the new journey begin. 👏🏻 faz 7 dias
Riku114 said …
Also my anxiety over college has mostly subsided now that I found ONE person who I am a lot like and get along with online XD Posted faz 8 dias
Riku114 said …
Personally, if you ever get concerned of how pointless and meaningless life is, think of it like this.

Life is less like an RPG game or story game

Life is much mais like a sandbox game. It has no real point or goal, but it is full of opportunities and game mechanics that allow you to do so much, experience so much, and explore freely. If you learn to work the game mechanics well, you can pretty much do anything.

Heck, if you work the physics engine Posted faz 8 dias
Riku114 commented…
you can do things that might seem impossible faz 8 dias
Riku114 said …
Its sad that I am so uncomfortable being alone with my parents for mais than half an hora without something actively distracting me or someone to balance it out / distract me Posted faz 8 dias
JetBlack_ commented…
Daydream might com in handy.. faz 8 dias
JetBlack_ commented…
link faz 8 dias
Riku114 said …
I LITERALLY HATE THAT MY favorito comida IS BIRD

AND THAT MY favorito THING IN THE WORLD IS BIRD

WHY HAST GOD FORSAKEN ME Posted faz 9 dias
Riku114 commented…
LIKE. I COULD STOP EATING PIG. I COULD STOP EATING COW. BUT STOP EATING POULTRY KILLS LIKE 90% OF MY DIET faz 9 dias
Riku114 commented…
NO BIRD LIFE IS BETTER THAN ANOTHER. ITS LIKE EATING COCKATIELS JESUS. faz 9 dias
Riku114 commented…
And no, I dont care. XD Dont get me wrong, I amor cows and pigs too. Its just that there isnt the strong instant emotional connection or strong obsession and amor that I have for birds that makes me feel guilty wheneveR I eat it XD Plus I dont eat pork and beef NEARLY as much as I do chicken faz 9 dias
Riku114 said …
I just realized I no longer remember any of the physical abuse I witnessed a lot as a kid huh...

I REMEMBER remembering it. But I dont remember it itself.

I KNOW it happened, but no matter how much I procurar my memory files, I genuinely cant find it.

Youd think somehting like that would be embedded deeply but I guess tis the way of repeated trauma. Posted faz 9 dias
JetBlack_ commented…
Same faz 9 dias
JetBlack_ commented…
A weak memory in certain situations is blessed I truly believe that because it deletes all the awful things that a person went through. faz 9 dias
laugh
GDragon612 said …
Good humor is the health of the soul, sadness is its poison. Posted faz 9 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ Stay humorous. Stay healthy !!!! faz 9 dias
laugh
GDragon612 said …
I'm a sarcastic person, and people don't get my humor sometimes. Posted faz 9 dias
cool
GDragon612 said …
The secret to humor is surprise. Posted faz 9 dias
Riku114 said …
Body = Tense Posted faz 10 dias
wantadog commented…
Body = Primed faz 10 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Body = Naked !!!! faz 10 dias
GDragon612 commented…
bodycontrol ^^ faz 9 dias
wantadog said …
Man being stuck in the situation where you are not being energized sucks ass. I find that I'm not 100% introverted in that even if I'm alone, I still am not necessarily energized. What recharges my battery is my environment. I could do the same thing with the same people in one setting and not get revved up the same as I do in others Posted faz 10 dias
wantadog commented…
But right now I'm not in any environment that gives me energy it seems cuz with each passing dia I'm mais and mais worn out and mais and mais drained. faz 10 dias
wantadog said …
A aleatório ramble about one of Wantadogs RP characters.

I just really like Kumau because of how he is the most accurate embodiment of his nation that we have so far. He's a patriot. He can do anything because he has the support and strength of his people, urging him on to new heights. Likewise, his people can accomplish whatever they set their mind to because he is there supporting them with all the power he possesses Posted faz 10 dias
Riku114 said …
I am still learning a lot about my mental health and even mais specifically on what is normal and what isnt normal and what is likely due to past trauma and shit Posted faz 10 dias
Riku114 said …
Ugh now Im bingeing Versailles violão, guitarra solos. Why do I have such bad impulse control XD Posted faz 11 dias
wantadog commented…
Called it faz 11 dias
Riku114 said …
Why does Kamijo look so young? Posted faz 11 dias
Riku114 said …
Brain: Remember that song that back in 9th grade even though we werent severely or actively suicidal, almost helped you really screwed up mind and the many fictional things in your head that you talked to 24/7 that it was both good and okay for you to kill yourself?

Me: Yeah.

Brain: It was pretty lets go listen to it again.

Me: Okay.

Me: ...

Me: Wait.

Me: THIS IS A TRAP. :v ITS NIGHT TIME AND YOU WANT ME TO LISTEN TO A POTENTIALLY DANGEROUS SONG Posted faz 11 dias
Riku114 said …
My hobby is spraying myself with a spray bottle or shooting the spray bottle above me and letting the water fall nicely down on me on hot days

It feels so nice Posted faz 12 dias
Riku114 said …
Quite frankly dealing with the issues that arise on the ícone Contest and trying to go about them diplomatically is quite a pain in the ass. There is a process Wanta and I go through that makes things relatively simple

Not gonna say the idea of canceling the contest didnt occur to me. Im not going to, but I did contemplate it. Posted faz 12 dias
wantadog commented…
The bitchy replies are getting annoying. Stop chewing us out simply because you’re atuação suspicious. faz 12 dias
Riku114 commented…
^Not even that. Its just the annoying defensiveness. If you didn't do it, just say so and be like "Hey I think this is a missunderstanding" instead of feeling the need to pull up an entire argument that is just sooooo over the top. faz 12 dias
Riku114 commented…
link faz 11 dias
Riku114 said …
Heres the thing though guys.

Its hard to judge someone, or at least it should be. If you think about it, every person in the world is human - every person in the world has emotions - every person in the world have their wants, loves, desires, etc - every person has struggles.

Some might be smaller than others, some might be insane or invalid. The thing is that somewhere in their head, their behavior and beliefs make sense and are something they feel is necessary, whether Posted faz 12 dias
Riku114 commented…
they are aware of it or not faz 12 dias
Riku114 commented…
So personally, I have trouble full on judging someone (at least long term) for things they do and all. Personally, if I wasnt so open and so genuinely trying to figure it out myself, Id probably be disgusted with myself and my actions, but personally, I know I am working my hardest on figuring out what feels right and what is okay. People behave interestingly based on their stories, what they want, what they lacked, what they never had, what struggles theyve been through, or what struggles theyve never had faz 12 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Well said. Personally, I always try to place myself in the shoes of others before I judge them. It has certainly given me mais insight !!!! faz 12 dias
Riku114 said …
That feeling when you get up to brush your teeth and grab something to eat cos you are hungry

But instead go pee, then go back to your escrivaninha, mesa and now have to try again. Ugh XD Posted faz 13 dias
Riku114 said …
Honestly Im not even gonna keep it a secret since its not my natural personality to do it

Im leitura Pandora Hearts cos its actually an animê I loved and intentionally neglected for years so I could read without much memory of it. It also had a huge impact on me like... three or so years atrás so its really interesting

Its likely going have my new ícone Contest entry Posted faz 13 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Hype 👍 !!!! faz 13 dias
Riku114 said …
REALLY good time at the Fourth of July celebration yesterday. It was a lot of fun and the peopel there were great. Kinda felt like a normal family for once

....

Also I somehow dont remember much of any of it still tho.

Just a huge fog.

Thats the level of my memory Posted faz 13 dias
wantadog said …
Riku has really put me into a dilemma. She compared me to a character from an anime/manga I haven't seen so I can't even look into it to see how accurate it is Posted faz 13 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Same lol. Although I did some research on each Character. Just for the Personality part though. I'm planning on getting on with this Series soon. Seems quite interesting !!!! faz 13 dias
Riku114 commented…
^Muahahahaha faz 12 dias
wantadog said …
Rikus new descrição of my personality: "Mopey poutiness" Posted faz 13 dias
Riku114 said …
Dude, for all the things I find New York to be kinda dumb for, requiring elementary, middle, and highschools to teach their students about mental health is definitely one I am NOT on that barco for. Posted faz 14 dias
laugh
GDragon612 said …
banging your head against a mural burns 150 calories an hora Posted faz 14 dias
GDragon612 commented…
ouch XD faz 14 dias
wantadog said …
Being as obsessive as I am is monotonous. Posted faz 14 dias
Riku114 said …
To be honest, I just want my free meat and chips and soda Ill get at the rua party my boyfriend's family invited me to. Like... the carnivore in me is happy. The "Drinks Dr. Pepper Like Beer" in me is happy XD

The me who loves absolutely loud noises is happy especially since the neighbors have a literal canhão they light and try to get the loudest noise out of.

Is it legal? Maybe, maybe not.

Do they keep running it back and forth between the garagem and the street? Yes. Posted faz 15 dias
JetBlack_ said …
Is chá even good for parrots? 🤔
I’m watching youtube 👀 Posted faz 15 dias
Riku114 commented…
Well some but I would typically avoid it since there are a lot of things you have to keep an eye out for that ARENT in the chá to make sure they are okay for the bird to have (caffinee, flavors, specific chemicals, etc) faz 15 dias
Riku114 commented…
It could be good for them if you find the seguro ones but not too much to my taste faz 15 dias
Riku114 said …
For those that I didnt tell, seguinte session with my therapist we are going to go over the possibility of a dissociative disorder diagnosis rather than leaving it as just 'dissociative tendencies' to perhaps make my transfer to a new therapist easier when I get around to it.

So oi we might see if I fit into one or not XD

Cos it might just be C-PTSD. Might have gotten extreme enough to be mais than just C-PTSD which has dissociative symptoms. *shrugs* Posted faz 15 dias
Riku114 said …
Keep Talking and Nobody Explodes makes me want to die :v Posted faz 15 dias
wantadog commented…
Trust me. We tried faz 15 dias
GDragon612 commented…
boom!! faz 15 dias
wantadog said …
Me and Riku are playing Keep Talking and Nobody Explodes.

Riku: "It looks like a círculo with a little toupee"

Me: "?"

Riku: "Or like an upside down 9"

Me: "...you mean a six?"

Riku: "...oh ya" Posted faz 15 dias
Riku114 said …
ME AND MY MOM MANAGED TO CONVINCE MY DAD HE MIGHT BE GROWING A TAIL Posted faz 15 dias
Riku114 commented…
Oh man, taking advantage on his lack of any science-based education made up for his snotty comment on the vet bill being not worth it faz 15 dias
wantadog commented…
Well if you think about it... faz 15 dias
Riku114 said …
Bird wound stress :v Posted faz 15 dias
Riku114 commented…
And done. 3 hours off to being a good mama bird XD faz 15 dias
Riku114 commented…
Also, even though we lied and said the $100 we spent to get her helped was $30, my dad stil lsays it was a waste of money even though she would have likely died in the near future if we didnt faz 15 dias
Riku114 commented…
Pretty much such lack of care for animais is kinda what got my parakeet killed so *shrug* Not surprising faz 15 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
All's well that ends well for now !!!! faz 15 dias
Riku114 said …
Btw, meditation, stretches, and breathing gym / exercises (the ones we did when I was training with an open class DCI group) are good for loosening up body tension Posted faz 16 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ #LefterisVerified !!!! faz 16 dias
Riku114 said …
oi you people that cheat on ícone Contests and/or have multiple accounts, can yall like just use your other accounts to fã this club so I can reach a number which theyll let me add a background XD Thatd be cool fam

Jk jk. Id be mais annoyed that the fã count would be a poor representation of the people who are / were interested in this club Posted faz 16 dias
Riku114 commented…
I also dont even know when that number level is XD faz 16 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Honestly, the ability to make Multiple Accounts could be of good use. Putting cheating, trolling / spamming and deceiving others aside, certain aspects of this Website can benefit from such support !!!! faz 16 dias
Riku114 said …
Im messing up my schedule and cant write cos Im in too pissy of a mood

I already missed an animal volunteer dia since I was busy yesterday

And Im already behind on exercising :v Posted faz 16 dias
Riku114 commented…
Fuuuck faz 16 dias
Riku114 commented…
I need to get out of this pointlessly disgusted disappointed mood faz 16 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Some chance of pace would do you good. Hope you managed to relax !!!! faz 16 dias
Riku114 said …
If you are going to be a parent, please go through extensive planning before hand so you can be responsible with it. Even if its an accident child, please plan while pregnant.

And please

Never

Use

Pregnancy

As

A

Trap

If someone wants to go, dont force them in with a child. You are screwing over both your partner's life, and the kid that is being used.

If you are a parent, take responsibility Posted faz 16 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ !!!! faz 16 dias
Riku114 said …
"THERE IS A SATISFACTORY AMOUNT OF SEROTONIN IN MY BRAIN RIGHT NOW CAN YOU BELIEVE" ~Gyldenyovth Posted faz 16 dias
wantadog said …
See Riku made a mistake asking me to watch amor Stage with her cuz now we get weird statements like "So Rape is ok so long as you put them through hell?" Posted faz 16 dias
Riku114 said …
Personally, part of the reason the reason I am working mostly on my trauma and PTSD and recovering from it over all the other stuff I have is because Im like 90% sure pretty much every other issue of mine has strong roots in said trauma.

If I try to knock those out, theyll just come back sooner or later if the thing they are rooted in isnt fixed first. Do such a thing is like trying to remove weeds por clipping them in half. Posted faz 17 dias
Riku114 said …
Akashi - KNB
Byakuya - Bleach
canhão - Umineko no Koro Ni
Daiki Aomine - KNB
Eggsy - Kingsman
Ferid Bathory - Owari no Seraph
Guren Ichinose - Owari no Seraph
Hibari Kyoya - KHR
Izumi Sena - amor Stage
James - Pokemon
Kano Shuuya - Kagerou Days
Lussuria - KHR
Misogi Kumagawa - Medaka Box / Muramasa - Bleach
Nagito Komaeda - Danganronpa
Ogami - Danganronpa
Peko Pekoyama - Danganronpa
Quill Peter - Marvel
Raikou - Nabari No Ou Posted faz 17 dias
Riku114 commented…
Saix - Kingdom Hearts Tsurara - Nurarihyon Ukyo - Amnesia Viral - Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagaan Wallace - Pokemon Xanxus - KHR Yuri - DDLC Zack Foster - anjos of Death faz 17 dias
Riku114 said …
I'm going through my youtube "Watch Later" which is pretty much a list of vídeos I saved cos I likeed them and felt Id like to see them again in the future, so if I post a lot of vídeos on this club, thats why Posted faz 17 dias
BlindBandit92 commented…
Ya I do that a bit too much with other sites tbh. faz 13 dias
cool
GDragon612 said …
eyo guys I am back nowe tehehehe
so whats up in da house =D Posted faz 17 dias
Riku114 commented…
oi sup XD Nothing much faz 17 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Welcome back, Kitkat. Nothing much for me either. Just trying to enjoy some of Summer's freedom. How about you? faz 17 dias
GDragon612 commented…
omo thank ya riku and leftie I am doing F***ing great hehe,kat is relaxed now and getting brown skin like a chocolate *eats myself* =p faz 16 dias
Riku114 said …
Okay so rant time. Posted faz 17 dias
Riku114 commented…
Part of the reason DCI is amazing - at least with the world class corps - are that they BLAST your face off while sounding great. Its one of the things that come with the name of Drum Corps and its loved. faz 17 dias
Riku114 commented…
LAST year, a huge trend was a shit ton of amplification with microphones everywhere and shit and personally, it was quite annoying since it didnt sound nearly the same or as good. Yeah, amplification for the soloist and shit is good and normal, but they went around pretty much amplifying the entire band and it was bleh. It actually became a fonte of debate among people who like DCI faz 17 dias
Riku114 commented…
Havent looked at any of the non-west coast shows yet tho. Saving that for Finals faz 17 dias
wantadog said …
There is no pair of games mais addicting than Sonic Forces and Huniepop Posted faz 17 dias
Riku114 said …
I am stubborn as hell, both for and against my own good XD Posted faz 18 dias
wantadog commented…
It's super annoyi-I mean charming XD faz 18 dias
wantadog commented…
jk faz 18 dias
wantadog commented…
mooooostly XD faz 18 dias
Riku114 said …
d e p e r s o n a l i z a t i o n

i s

w e i r d

a s

f u c k Posted faz 18 dias
Riku114 commented…
Actually I only had it for like.... two minutos but being slowly pushed out of your body and not being able to connect your face with your identity in the mirror for like.... that small period is weird as fuccccck faz 18 dias
wantadog commented…
I leave you alone for three hours...Riku Riku Riku. Imma have to keep a closer eye on you XD faz 18 dias
Riku114 commented…
Shut up :vvv faz 18 dias
Riku114 said …
UPDATE. I still kinda fear and anxiety around women that look feminine and social. Posted faz 18 dias
wantadog said …
I have a really nice cama Posted faz 18 dias
Riku114 commented…
You are in Florida faz 18 dias
wantadog commented…
So is my bed. Thus...I have a really nice cama that I get to lay on faz 18 dias
wantadog commented…
Why? What you think I meant? faz 18 dias
Riku114 said …
I want to lay down on a reaaalllly nice cama Posted faz 18 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ #Relatable !!!! faz 18 dias
wantadog said …
Riku now officially thinks I know nothing about how rape works Posted faz 19 dias
Riku114 commented…
Naaah XD I was just playing with your game faz 19 dias
wantadog commented…
Rape isn't a game, Riku. Seriously show some restraint.... faz 19 dias
wantadog commented…
They certainly wont XDDDD faz 19 dias
Riku114 commented…
:v faz 19 dias
Riku114 said …
Seriously though. Its been a while since I spent 50% of the time Im awake being mildly depressed or down / low mood for no reason and if you remove the time Im distracted, its probably a good 80% of the time.

Sometimes it goes from mildly to kinda badly at night if Im not on my A game at countering it but... eh.

Also my scale of "mild to severe" depression might be skewed cos Im referencing it off past experiences and mannnn was a bad before.

It just really sucks bunda Posted faz 20 dias
Riku114 commented…
I'll be fine because its something I've had for a long while and compared to other things Ive lived through, this is literally like going back to the first dungeon in a RPG game after you completed the game faz 20 dias
Riku114 commented…
Its not really concerning, but it just sucks ass. I should try to find some time to talk to some other people from my school and maybe hang out but thats a huuuuge step for me. faz 20 dias
Riku114 commented…
Yeee. I dunno if it is REALLY a good thing, but at the very least in the like... week or so that Ive been on summer break, Ive probably a massed mais hours of genuine good mood / happiness than I did all of last years summer :v yeesh last ano summer was bad :v But Ill take that as a positive note XD faz 19 dias
wantadog said …
Oh my goooood. That was such a friggin long dia at work.... Posted faz 20 dias
Riku114 said …
THIS ícone HELPS MY MOOD SOME HOW Posted faz 20 dias
Riku114 commented…
Seriously amor Stage has been great for keeping my mood up at night. Might watch it myself again after I finish it and might just keep rewatching it at night until summer is over. Either that or swithc over to Romeo X juliet faz 20 dias
Riku114 said …
amor Stage is both WAY mais gay than I remember and wayyyy cuter than I remember Posted faz 20 dias
Riku114 said …
Honestly my dad going back to actually laying a hand on my mom is really all it takes. Im like... pretty sure I might just call social services on my dad so I can perhaps go to UC Davis feeling like Im not leaving my mom alone to be beat Posted faz 22 dias
Riku114 commented…
Because apparently hes perfectly fine hitting my mom when my back is turned and not watching him with the constant unspoken threat that Ill kick his bunda when he tries to faz 22 dias
Riku114 commented…
And I have been disowned por him for saying he deserves the deepest layer of hell, which honestly to that I say "Good riddance" faz 22 dias
Riku114 commented…
^ faz 20 dias
Riku114 said …
Had to beat my dad for hitting my mom. Would have put him in a chokehold until he fainted if my mom let me. Posted faz 22 dias
wantadog said …
Lefteris knows how much I want cannibalism in Danganronpa so if I don't get any from V3, I'm blaming him Posted faz 22 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Gotta let it go, my Man XD !!!! faz 22 dias
JetBlack_ said …
Let’s watch Riku sleeping

https://imgur.com/a/DY4lSo8 Posted faz 22 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
That kinda Creepy though... faz 22 dias
JetBlack_ commented…
Be quiet xD faz 22 dias
Riku114 commented…
I amor watching Riku sleep faz 22 dias
wantadog said …
I'm so fucking angry....

The one time Riku actually wants to stay up and hang out and I fell asleep in my chair.

ugh....I'm just so pissed off right now.

and she's asleep so all I can do is vent in aleatório places. UGH Posted faz 22 dias
wantadog commented…
fuck my life faz 22 dias
wantadog commented…
fuck my job for making me tired faz 22 dias
JetBlack_ commented…
Drink soda or coffee xD faz 22 dias
Riku114 said …
I'm honestly not used to the feeling of people liking me and wanting me just for being myself and doing nothing. Its not something my mind can embrulho, envoltório itself around properly. Posted faz 22 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Gotta get used to it because we wouldn't have it any differently XD !!!! faz 22 dias
Riku114 said …
Seriously tho, pretending your intrusive thoughts are some really annoying blabby outspoken person make it a lot easier XD Posted faz 22 dias
Riku114 commented…
Suggestions: 12-year old X-Box kid, annoying backseat driver, super uptight religious lady, Know it all Greg, Casper the Wanna-Be Horror Ghost faz 22 dias
Riku114 said …
Personally, I dont really like seeing little kids too often since it usually puts into perspective the shit I was going through.

I amor kids and all, but I always have that "Oh shit." moment when I realize how young I really was. Posted faz 22 dias
Riku114 said …
Hot diggity, I had to get new headphones cos my old ones were pretty shitty and I had to like... mess with it to hear música right

And shit the ones I got my boyfriend a while back for a gift were AMAZING.

I got him better headphones than I currently had :v I mean I only buy heaphones once a ano and usually go for whats cheap / on sale rather than anything else

But dang. Posted faz 23 dias
Riku114 said …
I'm honestly quite concerned my mom wont maintain the attention and training Ive done with Lucy and Avery over the ano Ill be gone at UC Davis without an ability to have a pet :/ Posted faz 23 dias
JetBlack_ commented…
Don't you know anyone who can temporarily adopt your birds who is expert with training? faz 23 dias
Riku114 commented…
Nah I wouldnt trust that honestly. And no not particularly cos Im the bird person in the like... entire school XD faz 23 dias
Riku114 commented…
Best person I know is my older sister who is in Utah but getting them there is.... eh. faz 23 dias
wantadog said …
Man I know I have to write her bio but T-T

Poor Koko....I feel bad for her having such a fucked up premise Posted faz 24 dias
Riku114 commented…
:v I dont thinks shes half as bad as like 30% if not mais of mine XD faz 23 dias
Riku114 said …
I kinda wanna play the School Days Visual Novel XD Posted faz 24 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Same. I might not be a big fã of the Series in general but it is certainly intriguing !!!! faz 24 dias