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Riku114 said …
... well I was gonna make a Luka + Flugelhorn ícone but I cant upload it >.> Posted faz 7 horas
JetBlack__ commented…
Oh ! why? faz 7 horas
Riku114 commented…
fanpop glitching faz 7 horas
JetBlack__ commented…
Log in using another browser,might work. faz 6 horas
Riku114 commented…
That worked faz 5 horas
Riku114 said …
Seriously though I just amor my college band. So hyped for Monday Practice this Monday XD They make me feel loved and welcome. Its great not being the mom for the first time and just being the 'kid' of the band since you get that really nice older sibling feel and that "we have your back" feeling that I havent had in a while.

They are honestly wonderful people. Posted faz 7 horas
Riku114 said …
As for a college update, Im moving in tomorrow XD Posted faz 8 horas
Riku114 said …
TFW you spend all dia playing online games with your boyfriend since you both have the dia off and you still miss him XD Its honestly lowkey great to miss him like this. It both means Ive made great progress in mental health, that I really did amor him, makes the smallest things feel like the largest, and honestly just makes me mais fond.

It sucks but like... Ive never been so happy or excited to play Fortnite or Stardew or anything before. Posted faz 8 horas
Riku114 said …
I realize that when comida is now on my own money, I eat a lot less of it XD Its probably for the better tho cos like... I eat mais than I should XD Posted faz 14 horas
Riku114 said …
Honestly its quite a great thing that Im missing my boyfriend XD Its a huge improvement from what I used to be like with my mental health. Posted faz 17 horas
Riku114 said …
Annnnd now I need to figure out something to keep me busy and entertained the seguinte two days in a city I dont know, without a car, and with dead legs from band camp XD

Ill figure it out but for now Imma sit cos my legs are dead XD Posted faz 1 dia
Riku114 said …
I AM BACK AND THE BAND IS GREAT.

#YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Posted faz 2 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
WELCOME BACK! XD That is good to know !!!! faz 2 dias
JetBlack__ said …
Psh.. riku is all high and mighty now xD Posted faz 3 dias
Riku114 commented…
I AM BACK faz 2 dias
Riku114 said …
I havent been able to touch the internet much for a few days and probably wont for the seguinte two XD Posted faz 4 dias
Riku114 said …
So in Pre-Retreat we...

1) Dont know who owns a baggage cos no one claims it so we might have lost some one

2) Played Spike the Section LEader with a Bag

3) Claimed a section dog

4) Claimed a section Ikea Shopping carrinho found on the street

5) Tired XD Posted faz 5 dias
Riku114 said …
Gosh Im tired as heck XD Lots of fun. I amor my new section to be honest and for the first time in years, I was the one adopted rather than the other way around. Posted faz 5 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Great you're having fun while at it. Keep it strong, Rikubun !!!! faz 5 dias
GDragon612 commented…
try to sleep well Riku~bun<3 faz 5 dias
Riku114 said …
:v tfw you have to wake up at 4 am, its 11 pm, you have a long long dia tomorroq and youve been trying to sleep for the past hora and cant :v Posted faz 6 dias
Riku114 said …
I'm blank. Posted faz 6 dias
Riku114 commented…
Literally just staring at the screen for minutos at end faz 6 dias
Riku114 commented…
Never consciously dissociated this hard without breaking into a different mode / persona of sorts faz 6 dias
Riku114 said …
Me: I wonder what a aleatório post from a ano atrás says

Me, a ano ago: "anxiety"

Me: ...

Me, a ano ago: "anxiety anxiety anxiety"

Me: *gently pats my year-ago self's back* Posted faz 7 dias
Riku114 said …
Man Im pooped. Exhausted, tired, and pooped.

Not like actual poop but like...

Energy poop Posted faz 7 dias
Riku114 said …
Man I get overwhelmed when multiple people are talking to me and asking me for information I dont know on the spot and dont have time to look up cos they are rushing for an answer.

On the other side, Ramune is an okay substitute for Dr. Pepper when it comes to chilling down from that. Posted faz 7 dias
cool
GDragon612 said …
yooooo Riku and CO !!! Have an fantastic weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Peace and out kat meow xD Posted faz 8 dias
Riku114 commented…
XD My weekend will be chaotic to be completely honest with you. Heading off to college this weekend faz 7 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ Hang in there, Rikubun. You'll pull through that Chaos just fine !!!! faz 7 dias
GDragon612 commented…
welcome in the chaos hehe =D you are not alone riku =p faz 5 dias
Riku114 said …
There are the times when you have to put energy to hold yourself up when your mental health is trying to make you curl up and shut down.

But just surviving isnt good enough. As difficult as it is, you have to push yourself a little extra. Do something to make sure you keep it up and remind yourself that you are better than the whispers in your head are trying to convince you that you are. Posted faz 8 dias
Riku114 said …
When an old nostalgic Green dia song is one of your options for Audition música for your upcoming marching band

https://tinyurl.com/y9vjxx79 Posted faz 8 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
The Nostalgia vibes are pretty strong indeed. Green dia is always the way. Awesome !!!! faz 8 dias
Riku114 said …
I will amor anyone who will massage my thighs rn XD

Jkjk that job and prize is already taken

But geesh my thighs are sore XD mais so closer to my knees but specifics dont matter Posted faz 9 dias
Riku114 said …
Ughh... Finding the perfect finger colarinho, colar for your significant other to claim them as your partner is hard. Posted faz 10 dias
Riku114 said …
Huh... I might have to figure out how to be emotionally vulnerable... or just normal but like... emotionally vulnerable for my standards again.

Since I wont have my boyfriend around for three months and hes been the only place I can be entirely genuine with my emotions. Cause if I dont I think Ill kinda go back a good few steps and snap again and thats not good. Posted faz 10 dias
Riku114 said …
When things get down to it, theres usually something to tend to neglect that can easily disrupt and cause problems both in your personal and interpersonal life. If you can figure out what you lack a balance of, you can likely make mais harmony in your life por balancing it out. Posted faz 10 dias
Riku114 said …
Happy 9/11 da-

Oh shit no. Thats not what you say Posted faz 10 dias
Riku114 said …
Also I stopped playing Dragon Age. Something abotu it just cant keep me drawn in. Posted faz 10 dias
Riku114 said …
I should watch some animê again... or read Medaka Box again... choices... choices... Posted faz 11 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
I have been considering of rereading Medaka Box as well. It would be nice to have someone on the same pace to discuss while doing so !!!! faz 11 dias
Riku114 commented…
That sounds cool honestly. As the last two breathing fans, I like the idea faz 10 dias
SilentForce commented…
I've actually been planning to read the "Medaka Box" mangá for quite a while now faz 10 dias
Riku114 said …
"You took most of what I introduced to you and showed you and took it to the extreme Riku. My friends that saw you grow up say you are like me, but level two - or mais meanly put - Scar 2.0" ~ My Oldest Sister 'ScarlettGriffin'

Im not going to say shes wrong, at least during my childhood XD Most of the notable things (good and bad) I had from her was cause I took her conselhos or introductions to things to an extreme Posted faz 12 dias
Riku114 commented…
Like... anime, Guardians of Gahoole, some mais immoral tendencies I had, Trichotillomania, etc faz 12 dias
Riku114 commented…
Its mainly since even as a kid I was kind of an all or nothing kind of person. I either have little interest and dont involve myself with it much at all, or I get strongly invested into it. One or the other faz 12 dias
Riku114 commented…
And back when I was younger, my oldest sister was the closest thing I had to a parent figure so she kinda introduced me to a lot of things and a lot of concepts / views to take a look at faz 12 dias
Riku114 said …
*deep breath* As much as I amor change and amor growth and am excited for college, the massive change just gives me that natural halt and paralyze-anxiety moments in my head.

I have everything pretty planned out and back up plans to follow with it and everything. I set everything up so that transition should be both pretty good and considerably easy, but honestly, no matter how much I prepare and plan, I cant stay that the base fact that MAJOR things of my life are changing Posted faz 12 dias
Riku114 commented…
ISNT at all a bit anxiety causing. I know itll be fine and I know Ill flourish, but honestly going from my rather regular life style Ive had for... at least six or seven years and abruptly change both the environment, the frequency of which I am able to be around my boyfriend, and simple school is a tad bit intimidating faz 12 dias
Riku114 commented…
Im really driven and confident, but I still am a normal 17 (almost 18) ano old with severe anxiety XD So as much as my drive and confidence lately has done GREAT to balance the scales, I'm still quite human in the way that such a strong shift with a distance long enough that I cant reliably say I have my family and boyfriend covering my back like they usually do (at least my family with driving and making sure I eat and get basic needs done) faz 12 dias
Riku114 commented…
A ano or two atrás Id be having a major panic attack or anxiety attack over this to be honest. Now I just have a few segundos of paralysis when I think about it too much and maybe a bit of avoidance in actually thinking about it too much. faz 12 dias
Riku114 said …
Had a great first party of three (possibly four since it sounds like people want to celebrate a little on my actual birthday in Davis) XD Went swimming, spent an hora playing Rocket League and Fortnite while just being goofs, then just like... two or three hours watching memes and other hilarious Youtube.

Pretty awesome tbh. Plus it was enough of a success they want me to organize a get together in the winter when everyone is back together. Posted faz 12 dias
Riku114 commented…
Honestly, all my non-trumpets canceled / didnt get back to me after saying they wanted to go, but I really dont mind. The trumpet section had this great bond and all with one another. It was amazing to spend the dia with them faz 12 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Great to know that you had an awesome time !!!! faz 12 dias
Riku114 said …
So lets run a progress check on how much Ive improved over the past three years with my ability to think of myself as worthy and comfortable with being slightly vulnerable por asking for people to hang out with me for my birthday... Posted faz 13 dias
Riku114 commented…
2016: Literally took three therapy sessions over three weeks of my therapist telling me how I NEED to have a birthday party and hwo he wants me to have one and my mom and sister bugging me to do it. I reluctantly invite THREE people to jantar for my birthday. Spend the week before it very uncomfortable and lowkey panicking and begrudingly checking up on who can make it. faz 13 dias
Riku114 commented…
2017: Willingly, on my own accord, set up a birthday party. Very uncomfortable still. Not really wanting to do it, but knowing its good. Freaked out internally for like half a week. Enjoyed it, invited like ten people, about five appeared. faz 13 dias
JetBlack__ commented…
An inspiration. faz 12 dias
Riku114 said …
Once I got through the Arguement Armament that was bugged on Hard, I got the full ending of V3 and it sucks less with the last bit but still annoyed me and pissed me off for the most of it. But thats just my opinion.

Im not on the side of "I hated the ending" but I mais so on the "I disliked the ending". Posted faz 13 dias
Riku114 commented…
Actually it continued past what I thought and I like it better. Im neutral on the ending. Really executed poorly through most of the Chapter, but I suppose they ended it good enough faz 13 dias
Riku114 commented…
I will not say that none of my gripes I was going on before dont exist though. Its not a great ending or a good one, but its not THAT horrible since it cleared up one of my larger gripes faz 13 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
It is only fair. I am glad that you went back at it and finished the whole thing yourself, having a somewhat better reception of it nonetheless. That is what the DR Experience is all about !!!! faz 13 dias
Riku114 said …
I might sleep early cos my headache is making me tired Posted faz 14 dias
Riku114 said …
Yeah V3s Ending is an Ending I will pretend NEVER happened Posted faz 14 dias
Riku114 commented…
I closed out of the final Armament arguement cos I didnt feel like doing it and if I have to redo the ending, Ill research the characters and watch other people talk to them and whatever. If I have to do mais than the armament, Im honestly not thinking its worth it faz 14 dias
Riku114 commented…
Its a sad dia when I dont put a positive review for a Danganronpa game. As much as the first five chapters were pretty good (save how annoying Atua got), when combining the ending, the sheer lack of connection to the past story, the sheer lack of a conclusion to the anterior stuff, and how buggy it was as a PC port, I just couldnt say Id recommend it unless it goes on a major sale faz 14 dias
Riku114 commented…
^Nah, as I said in PM, I still amor the game. Its just the ending is baaad faz 13 dias
Riku114 said …
Ugh. V3's ending so far is so predictable, underwhelming, and kinda annoying that I actually stopped mid-climax cause I was getting bored and tired of them jammering on about the thing I predicted from like the prologue. Posted faz 14 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Always finish what you start. Things aren't always exactly what they seem, Rikubun !!!! faz 13 dias
Riku114 said …
Danganronpa Chapter 5 Ending

Favorite Male Ranking:
Kokichi Ouma
Gonta Gokuhara / Kaito Momota
Shuichi Saihara / Keebo
Korekiyo Shinguji / Ryoma Hoshi

(Rantarou Amami is unsorted)

Favorite Female Ranking:
There honestly isnt a ranking.
I just know that I dont
Care much for Tsumugi
Or Angie much currently
This weird spacing for this
Is for the aesthetic of a ranking Posted faz 14 dias
Riku114 said …
I also realized while thinking about it to myself that the reason Im mais ENTJ than ENTP is the line "Honestly, my plans and shit arent that limiting. I amor the ability to adapt and branch out into different options so I always ADD IT INTO MY PLANS"

I had to pause there and kinda realize I plan to not plan and thats probably why Im mais of a J than P XD Posted faz 15 dias
Riku114 said …
If I was in Danganronpa Universe:

"I am The Ultimate High School Level Bird"

"Dont you mean Bird Owner or Bird Expert"

"No Bird" Posted faz 15 dias
Riku114 said …
Personally, as dumb as it sounds, the way you walk, stand, and sit can really affect your confidence I believe. Posted faz 15 dias
Riku114 commented…
Definately add dress into there too faz 15 dias
Riku114 said …
TFW you are listening to one of your favorito Project Diva Future Tone songs and you feel you fingers not tapping to the beat but rather to the rhythm it memorized to clear the game XD Posted faz 15 dias
Riku114 commented…
I honestly dont know why I like "This is the Happiness and Peace of Mind Commitee" so much faz 15 dias
Riku114 said …
Im SO fucking blind and dumb XD Im not kidding you XD How did I jsut realize this Posted faz 16 dias
Riku114 commented…
Four fucking years guys. faz 16 dias
Riku114 commented…
Possibly even mais faz 16 dias
Riku114 commented…
STILL didnt realize it faz 16 dias
Riku114 said …
Oh my fucking god I feel so fucking dumb XD XD

Im so retarded and blind XD XD

For all of you that think I understand myself really well and my mental health, you just hear me out right here XD

Ill change that for you. Posted faz 16 dias
Riku114 commented…
Cause I just realized that back when I used to have VERY aggressive responses to people showing me affection to the point of going to mental, emotional, and psychological torture and probably the most blood thirsty language and manipulation you can think of and in two cases actually getting violent. For the ones that happened the worst, it was cause my boyfriend was being too affectionate to me and I kinda liked him back and it terrified the SHIT out of me faz 16 dias
Riku114 commented…
You literally dont get much mais textbook PTSD and flashbacks there faz 16 dias
Riku114 commented…
jesus Fucking Christ how did I JUST realize this faz 16 dias
Riku114 said …
>Makes a Cute Playlist for Part of Boyfriend's Gift

>Sneaks in a Happy Feet 2 Song

>Boyfriend gets the playlist on 4th week

>Boyfriend doesnt comment / call me out

>:successkid:

....

I like Happy Feet (especially the segundo movie) música too much. Posted faz 16 dias
Riku114 said …
That feeling when your boyfriend realizes you are getting #LiterallyTriggered before you even realize it and hugs you tightly causing you to snap out of it relatively quickly and very well calming you and your body down with said hug Posted faz 16 dias
Riku114 commented…
This is why I amor him tbh. How the fuck does he notice before I do when Im the one getting mentally tormented and completely blanking out from my surroundings. faz 16 dias
Riku114 said …
Do you ever get like that rhythm game depression?

Where you like.... practice one hard part over and over again for like ten minutos straight... think you got it.... choke the first full run through, decide to give it a segundo time, and just find absolutely none of the skill there so like... you jsut shut down the game, turn off the console, turn off the TV and sit there wondering what the hell you did with your life to get no where Posted faz 16 dias
Riku114 said …
aleatório Fact: I have a secret lowkey amor for playing cards. I can never reject a pack of them and while the amor isnt pushing me to actively collect them, I do collect ones that are free or easy to get Posted faz 16 dias
Riku114 said …
I personally believe dystopia and utopia are one in the same. Or rather, for one to exist, the other almost always exists for another.

The two go hand in hand. For every light, there is a shadow, for every shadow, there is a light. Posted faz 16 dias
Riku114 said …
.... god why do I amor the people who fuck with the trials the most? XD

Nagito? Kokichi? Togami? Posted faz 16 dias
Riku114 said …
TFW when your favorito of two ícones has a colorscheme that when reduced to a small ícone looks like shit so you gotta work with your segundo favorito Posted faz 16 dias
Riku114 said …
Well my boyfriend admitted to bragging about how smart I am whenever prompted to people XD Posted faz 17 dias
Riku114 said …
TFW YOU HAVE TWO imagens THAT COULD MAKE WONDERFUL ícones BUT PIXLR IS DOWN Posted faz 17 dias
Riku114 said …
ALL HAIL KOKOCHI OUMA! Posted faz 17 dias
Riku114 said …
Really I cant imagine how some people do that whole "30 years old, neck beard, in parents basement, jobless"

I have had a longer summer than the majority of people and everyone going off to college and work just gets me feeling like a lazy worthless piece of shit XD

I mean I dont take it seriously cos I know Im only on a longer break than everyone else, but man do I feel like a deadbeat lazy piece of crap XD Posted faz 17 dias
Riku114 commented…
And I dont feel like that for mais than like three segundos in the morning XD Cos I was like "Wheres my mom - oh yeah she has work now too. ... hmm... i guess ill play some video games" faz 17 dias
Riku114 said …
If you ever get close enough to me to the point I ask you directly for affection or comfort rather than just ranting to you or having a breakdown in front of you, you know you really are someone I trust.

Cause ranting or breaking down is often a sign I kept things to myself too much like I do 95% of the time. If I go and just say "I need a hug, can you hug me" or "Im feeling bad and could really use someone to be around" or basically anything along the lines of Posted faz 18 dias
Riku114 commented…
"Im [insert negative emotion] and vulnerable, but could you please [insert help]" cause I rarely let people I dont trust around me when I feel I might be in a vulnerable state and even when I do trust someone, its unlikely I would both tell them Im vulnerable and feeling bad AND ask them to help. faz 18 dias
Riku114 commented…
Its something I SHOULD do mais often, but it goes against every instinct and habit I am used to. Its like asking a lobo to eat tofu. I mean Im sure they probably can to some degree, but its just so unnatural faz 18 dias
Riku114 said …
Its kind of sad that I still have to be in very specific conditions and situations to be remotely comfortable with actually thinking about any stressors that arent necessarily easily fixable let alone talk about it or express it or anything.

I didn't really think about it much, but other people cant control it and/or are free and seguro enough feeling that they are able to let themselves feel and express their feelings and emotions even in inconvenient times Posted faz 18 dias
Riku114 commented…
As much as I have worked on it, I still am not really near the emotional availability and transparency level of a normal person. faz 18 dias
Riku114 commented…
Unless I am outside of my house, around someone Im comfortable with, having a therapy session within a week or two, and am not under time pressure or a critical period of time, can I genuinely feel comfortable touching upon all that stuff faz 18 dias
Riku114 said …
ENTJS ARENT AUTOMATICALLY THE MAIN VILLAIN IN EVERY SERIES XD

Me and Zeppie are memeing about how in like 80% of the charts, ENTJs are the main villain of any series XD Like cut us some slack Posted faz 19 dias
Riku114 said …
Sometimes its really interesting to see how differently two people could see and view the world. Depressed VS not depressed. Creative and in amor with imagination / fantasia and someone whos been mais interested in real and worldly activities.

Even taking away psychosis and colorblindness and all that, the sheer difference in the ways we interpret the world just based on our upbringing is just honestly fascinating. Even mental health and all aside, the possibilities are astounding Posted faz 19 dias
Riku114 commented…
Like as someone whose dissociated a lot since as far as I remember and probably my entire life from reports from my oldest sisters, I dont think Ill ever FULLY interpret the world and take it as seriously or feel as connected to it as people who have never dissociated before. I can recover all I want, but hte predisposition will always be there. faz 19 dias
Riku114 commented…
Or the contrast between me and my boyfriend. As you all know, Im VERY into stories, and characters, and fantasy, and all that creative stuff that go far beyond anything realistic. On the other hand, a lot of his interests are mais grounded in worldly things. History, space, documentaries, racing, sports, camping, things that are physically around and that you can see for yourself and what not. Its not to say he doesnt have an imagination, but he finds such interest in things I would otherwise call rather boring. It honestly fascinates me and while it sounds like an issue that would cause problems, its honestly part of something that intrigues me the most about the relationship. Just trying to see the world that he sees it and understand it in the way he does. Its just quite baffling faz 19 dias
Riku114 commented…
Then just speaking in the spectrum of my own life. The sheer difference between the world when I was extremely depressed and suicidal versus now where I dont really suffer from depression outside of maybe rare bursts that can last from an hora to a week, but even then its rare. But tangents aside, the sheer difference between now and then on how the world looks and feels and all is baffling. Take that one major thing away and it literally seems like the world is brighter and mais enjoyable and free where as it appeared dark, empty, and threatening before. faz 19 dias
Riku114 commented…
Perception, interpretation, and understanding are just such interesting topics when you see how differently one person could experience the EXACT same situation differently, and even how one person can experience the same event at different poitns in their life and perceive, interpret, and understand it differently. This is just one of those things I like to contemplate on and find just simply amazing faz 19 dias
Riku114 said …
Really, one of the best things I can get when Im having an anxiety / panic / traumatic breakdown is for someone to get me to look at them and remind me that Im safe.

Cos most of the time I get that thousand yard stare cos Im pretty much stuck in my head and usually getting me to focus on something around me that I am comfortable around is a bit of a nice way to slow down my brain and kind of snap me out of it.

A lot of the time I dont realize it too which is kinda funny Posted faz 19 dias
Riku114 commented…
Pretty much if I sound distraught and Im staring off at nothing in particular and all, I sometimes just need someone to refocus me and ground me and that can help a lot faz 19 dias
Riku114 commented…
Usually my boyfriend is really good at noticing my 'negative' o espaço outs where Im silently panicking or stressing out in my head cos I apparently have a specific look with my usual "staring off at nothing" and hes pretty good at snapping me out of it there before it becomes a problem and tends to be a lot better at it than one would expect when he somehow gets me to vocalize it, usually when its gotten pretty bad faz 19 dias
Riku114 said …
I... I dont relate with much of the Libra sign much anymore.

I used to relate to a decent amount of it but not so much lately. Posted faz 19 dias
Riku114 said …
I should make a new ícone at some point. Posted faz 20 dias
Riku114 said …
Fuck Atua XD Posted faz 20 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Shhhh.... He is watching over us !!!! faz 20 dias
Riku114 said …
I think I might be getting a cold Posted faz 21 dias
BlindBandit92 commented…
Rip. I hope you feel better. faz 20 dias
Riku114 commented…
I think it wasnt anything serious. I mostly seem better now faz 20 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Tht's certainly good to know. Stll, take care of yourself as much as you can !!!! faz 20 dias
Riku114 said …
Techno música makes great exercise music. Just sayin' Posted faz 21 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ !!!! faz 21 dias
Riku114 said …
So I was looking mais into MBTI and all (actually was awhile atrás but I was specifically looking into mine today) and letters alone and descriptions alone, I am a pretty solid ENTX

The interesting thing is the two I feel are closest to me are ENTJ and ENTP which have NO shared cognitive functions.

I will say I am sure that ENTJ is my main "default" mode, but I do feel in certain situations and cases I can very much be an ENTP. Posted faz 21 dias
Riku114 said …
I personally like Danganronpa cos I like mysteries and debating and arguing and high stakes and death and tragedy and all my favoritos dying

Its the Danganronpa experience, killing all your favoritos off to make you feel true despair. Posted faz 21 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Same goes for me. Plus, the determination that is required to go through true Despair. A world filled with it as well as Hope, both countering one another. Havng the courage to still look at the Future despite the circumstances. It always felt like a pretty unique message to me. Fictional or not, I keep being inspired regardless !!!! faz 21 dias
Riku114 said …
I am honestly quite tired XD Posted faz 22 dias
GDragon612 commented…
welcome Riku~hun XD faz 22 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Relatable as always XD !!!! faz 21 dias
Riku114 said …
It does still baffle me a bit how people can not so simply step back from their own issues and disconnect their emotions from it to get a good leitura on what kind of action should be done.

On the other hand, I must say I do creep myself a bit on how I can do it. Posted faz 22 dias
Riku114 said …
Ah man I was just hit with a wave of something and my balance was knocked off. Like if yesterday I was standing in the optimal "goldilocks" zone where I had the energy and drive and optimism to go forth at things

Its like today I've been teetering and going back to sliding and running back and forth to keep myself balanced. Posted faz 22 dias
Riku114 commented…
Im honestly fine Im sure. If I sleep and wake up theres a good chance Ill probably be reset and all. Hopefully at least XD Otherwise Id have to figure this manually myself. faz 22 dias
Riku114 commented…
Maybe a dia of not playing games 70-80% of the time Im awake will do me some good. I suppose it might be causing my escapist tendencies / accusations to come back XD faz 22 dias
Riku114 commented…
But nah Im all good, its just that its uncomfortable faz 22 dias
Riku114 said …
Chapter 2

favorito Male Ranking:
Kokichi Ouma / Kaito Momota
Shuichi Saihara
Gonta Gokuhara
Ryoma Hoshi
Korekiyo Shinguji / Keebo

(Rantarou Amami is unsorted)

favorito Female Ranking:
Kirumi Tojo
Maki Haruwaka
Kaede Akamatsu
Miu Iruma
Angie Yonaga / Himiko Yumeno / Tenko Chabashira
Tsumugi Shirogane Posted faz 22 dias
Riku114 commented…
Also Ouma's voice actor is absolutely great faz 22 dias
Riku114 said …
Personally I wanna get back to working on my mental health rather than kind of putting it in a backseat, but I think its kinda easier to not wake the dragon when I have so much other things going on and cos its not really a good idea to wake the 'Mental Health Dragon' when you cant see a therapist for a while XD Posted faz 22 dias
Riku114 said …
So lets see. Chapter 1 of Danganronpa V3 complete

Favorite Male Ranking:
Kokichi Ouma / Kaito Momota
Shuichi Saihara / Gonta Gokuhara
Korekiyo Shinguji
Keebo
Ryoma Hoshi

(Rantarou Amami is unsorted)

Favorite Female Ranking:
Kaede Akamatsu
Kirumi Tojo
Miu Iruma / Maki Haruwaka
Tenko Chabashira
Angie Yonaga
Himiko Yumeno / Tsumugi Shirogane Posted faz 23 dias
Riku114 commented…
I will do these each chapter to mark my changes in favoritos XD faz 23 dias
Riku114 commented…
favorito no geral, global would probably be either Ouma or Kaito. faz 23 dias
Riku114 commented…
Very good game so far faz 23 dias
Riku114 said …
I amor GONTA HES SO ADORABLE. I doubt he will be my favorito but I amor him XD Imma probably make him my child and I barely started Chapter 1 Posted faz 23 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
The Purity is strong. TOO strong !!!! faz 23 dias
Riku114 said …
Having a good "why" to what you are doing helps a lot with getting yourself going and sticking to what you plan to do. Posted faz 23 dias
Riku114 said …
Yeah I dont have the right to call myself an introvert at all anymore XD Im like a straight extrovert. Still selective but straight full on extrovert.

I get offered a dia to have to myself and play the three video games Im playing all dia and watching youtube and all after having active days, and it annoys me

So Im like "I guess Ill go out to exercise later" and then am like "I wonder if I could get in touch with any friends today. ... nah most are already off..." Posted faz 23 dias
Riku114 commented…
I get bored in an ENTIRE dia to myself XD faz 23 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Pretty relatable !!!! faz 23 dias
Riku114 said …
I am so not used to how HD this new laptop is Posted faz 24 dias
Riku114 commented…
Wow Danganronpa in just the opening screen runs SO much better on this faz 24 dias
Riku114 commented…
I still feel really bad about upgrading cos my old one still works well... I feel like itll be lonely and its a lot of wasted potential to not be used faz 24 dias
Riku114 commented…
I wonder what Fortnite will look like faz 24 dias
Riku114 said …
Honestly, maybe Im the odd card out cos my middle sister didnt care, but like... all the money going out into getting me stuff for college... like yikes.

Its a lot and I dont like spending - even money that isnt mine - so it kinda hurts to see bills of at least $100 a dia coming up. Well not EVERY dia but like almost cos we are doing small shopping trips daily. Posted faz 25 dias
Riku114 commented…
I dont get how people can spend their money so freely. faz 25 dias
Riku114 commented…
Im spending it on things college and my parents say are necessities and just... wow. Its not even my money and I dislike it faz 25 dias
Riku114 said …
Imma get carpal tunnel or some shit playing Project Diva: Future Tone. Posted faz 25 dias
Riku114 commented…
I wish Luvoratory was on it XD faz 25 dias
Riku114 said …
Shit Riku Says: "Imma groom them to like the arreios, arnês, chicote de fios just like a pedophile grooms a young child to have sex with them. .... It actually a very very similar process if you just change a few details." Posted faz 25 dias
Riku114 said …
I'm honestly really sensitive to the thought, sight, and all of child abuse or anything like it such as tough amor or whatever. I was watching a "What would you do" haivng something similar to it and my whole body just flares up and I start to get that narrow vision shit.

And I know its actors. And I know its on TV, but part of me gets really flared up seeing it. Its the only thing that gets me so drastically and emotionally responsive other than maybe animal abuse Posted faz 25 dias
Riku114 commented…
And that narrow vision usually isnt too good. My therpist says its something to do with panic attacks or whatever but it usually follows with some form of a 'fight' instinct. faz 25 dias
Riku114 commented…
I would like to say I simply hate it and cant stand for it, but if there is roughness and anger towards a child it just shakes me faz 25 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Relatable. I understand that feeling very well, dudette !!!! faz 25 dias
Riku114 said …
So my bird arreios, arnês, chicote de fios came in today and Ill likely begin testing it out and working with it later today

Rather than starting with agoraphobic Lucy tho Imma adjust "Accepts anything Riku does" Smokey Posted faz 25 dias
Riku114 said …
Captain might be pretty badly injured cos he hit a mural really roughly. His head feathers got torn out and I think thats whats causing the minor specks of blood on his head, but theres reason to suspect he MIGHT be blind or have poor vision right now. Ill check him out to see if he really is when hes calmed down in his cage a bit. Posted faz 25 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Hope everythings works out !!!! faz 25 dias
Riku114 said …
So it came up in conversation so I took the Mensa Online Pretest and apparently "have an excellent chance of passing the real exam"

And, for those that dont know, Mensa is a group for 'geniuses' with an IQ higher than 132 that my therapist bugged me about.

I think Im somewhere around the 140s or something like that if you convert my Pretest score?? Im like scrub tier 'genius' or high tier 'above average' Posted faz 26 dias
Riku114 commented…
I also finished 8 minutos early XD faz 26 dias
wantadog commented…
When my mom had her IQ tested yeaaars ago, she was like around 165. faz 25 dias
Riku114 said …
OH GREAT. I got the Chem teacher so notoriously hard he is a well known meme for crushing people's souls in the school XD

Sounds like a fun challenge I suppose Posted faz 26 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Those Teachers are the kind of people that value hard work above all, most of the time. As I said to you before, I doubt you could leave a bad impression on him !!!! faz 25 dias
Riku114 said …
Me: Great Im busy all dia on my actual birthday. I guess we could find some time either around jantar or on Saturday to celebrate it?

Roommate: That sounds good but we probably have a football game to go to

Me: Ah yes. "Cant make it, got band." I should feel stressed or disappointed or annoyed, but its honestly kinda nostalgic and peaceful. I'm kind of glad that line still exists. Makes me feel at home.

Roommate: Same Posted faz 26 dias
Riku114 said …
I HAVE SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO BUT NONE OF THEM OCCUR FOR LIKE THE seguinte WEEK DAMN IT Posted faz 26 dias
Riku114 said …
Anxiety and excitement are pretty much identical brain processes and chemicals and activity in the brain and the only thing that differentiates the two is the narrative you have around it.

Yeah thats probably explain why the level of excitement I have for college is getting to the place where my chest is crushing like anxiety and shit XD Posted faz 26 dias
Riku114 said …
1 TB is so much mais than I, even as a digital hoarder, need Posted faz 26 dias
Riku114 said …
I'm sad now...

I'm going to be leaving behind my Lenovo Thinkpad before its had a chance to do anything wrong for me... Im sorry baby. Posted faz 26 dias
Riku114 said …
Having someone who has faith in you no matter how much you dont have faith in yourself is honestly something that can do you wonders.

Its hard to find people willing to invest that much into someone and finding someone like that might honestly be crazy since its unnatural, but it does wonders for the recovery process. Posted faz 27 dias
Riku114 commented…
Cause when you start to have inevitable relapses or fall backs on your recovery process, its easy to loose faith in yourself and give up for fall into despair. But for someoen to always be rooting there from the side lines doing whatever they can to help, it can really help faz 27 dias
Riku114 said …
♫ God bless the dia I found you
I want to stay around you
And so I beg you
Let it be me

[..]

Each time we meet love
I find complete love
Without your sweet love
What would life be?

So never leave me lonely
Just tell me you amor me only
And that you'll always
Let it be me

And that you'll always
Let it be me

So never leave me lonely
Tell me you amor me only
And that you'll always
Let it be me ♫ Posted faz 27 dias
Riku114 said …
Honestly, I sound like Im making a big deal out of it, but going to Davis with a fresh start and making new friends and rebuilding my reputation away from my old angsty image others had set from my anterior years and away from my toxic family, it honestly feels like Im being given the chance to be alive and live like a normal person away from my mental health or hand I was dealt. Posted faz 27 dias
Riku114 commented…
Like this post was originally come out as "I can't wait to live!" but that didnt make sense without context / explanation faz 27 dias
Riku114 commented…
Cause I've already been invited to a party over there and while I dont usually like parties, someone actually bothered to invite me to one, so I might as well check it out and give it a shot? Its a going away party for my roommates friend and will be the dia I arrive and apparently shes really wanted to meet me as well faz 27 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
That is simply wonderful to know and completely natural. Just as it should be. Make the most out of it !!!! faz 27 dias
Riku114 said …
I still remember that one time I had a really bad sleep paralysis experience and I felt like I was literally dying while napping to Amazing Grace done por Phantom Regiment on repeat

Afterwards, all I could think of was how ironic is was and how, for the rest of that dia despite being kinda pretty suicidal most of the time, I didnt want to die XD

Just for that dia or two tho. Cos I was really bad then Posted faz 27 dias
Riku114 said …
Yikes. Tomorrow I have the massive task that is transfering my digital hoard off my computer Posted faz 27 dias
Riku114 said …
Its really interesting. Ive been playign the demo of Future Tone a good bit and theres an interesting mental skip I have when processing what to click and when where my brain never (or registers for such a short period of time I dont notice it) registers the actual button Im supposed to click.

Its like I see something on the screen and my fingers interpret it Posted faz 28 dias
Riku114 commented…
Im not saying Im fluent cos my muscle memory isnt perfect nor does it sync perfectly with my ears and eyes to get a perfect "COOL" all the time or anything. But I find it interesting since it has that SAME exact feeling of a skip of translation I get when I play my trumpet faz 28 dias
Riku114 commented…
I see a note and make the fingering, usually not actually thinking of what the letter note it is before playing it unless I check back and think it sounds wrong or something faz 28 dias
Riku114 said …
I'm SO gay for Megurine Luka. Posted faz 28 dias
Riku114 said …
Today was a long dia that was 70% spent in the DMV Posted faz 28 dias
Riku114 said …
You know Im no where even near the age or contemplation point for me to even be thinking about it since I definately do not want kids until I am rather well stable financially and extremely extremely stable within my relationship and have had time to enjoy my marriage when I get around there

Then even then Im not sure if I really want kids even then. Posted faz 28 dias
Riku114 commented…
WITH THAT BEING SAID, I do have a voice in my head thats like "If I were to have kids, that would be a good thing to raise them with" faz 28 dias
Riku114 commented…
It would be a TOTAL invasion of human rights and privacy so Im not ACTUALLY for it, but its really something when you have to get a license to drive a car but literally anyone can have a child faz 28 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Putting the adoption thing aside, I share the same beliefs on that matter !!!! faz 28 dias
Riku114 said …
Okay after researching Impulsivity VS Compulsivity I can say I dont have less Impulse Control issues and mais Compulsive Issues XD

Which makes sense because no matter how much I like to put the word "minor" in front of the diagnosis without them saying its minor, I do have OCD. Posted faz 29 dias
Riku114 commented…
Honestly though. I have to focus really hard for like five to twenty segundos to make sure my hand DOESNT do something. faz 29 dias
Riku114 commented…
It sounds silly but with how used to it I've gotten, its almost reflex that when I get that overwhelming body tension that within segundos I just do whatever its telling me to do faz 29 dias
Riku114 commented…
So better to nip it at the bud faz 29 dias
Riku114 said …
WHAT THE FUCK WAS THE LAST LIKE THREE minutos OF DANGANRONPA 3 XD

WHERE THE FUCK DID MUNAKATA WALK OFF TO - BETTER YET HOWD HE WALK ANYWHERE WHEN THEY ARE ON AN ISLAND. HE MIGHT HAVE WALKED TO A barco BUT WHY AND WHAT

AND THE ENDING MADE SENSE WITH HOPES PEAK BUT WAS KINDA ODD AND ABRUPT WUT Posted faz 29 dias
Riku114 commented…
ITS SUCH A SMALL THING faz 29 dias
Riku114 commented…
"YOU ARE A VALUABLE ASSET. CANT YOU AT LEAST TELL US WHERE SO WE CAN KEEP YOU IN CONTACT: faz 29 dias
TheLefteris24 commented…
Dudette, you can exclude Kyoko, Nagito and most of the DR2 Cast from the Dead List, Seiko's wish in a way didn't go to waste, so many Children appeared, were seguro and ended up happy, Hope's Peak Academy was rebuilt and you'll probably have a lot of material for Fanfics and various hypotheses concerning Munakata. The Future Foundation Member is still alive as well and kicking. DR3 is over. Let THAT sink in XD !!!! faz 28 dias
Riku114 said …
Oooooh roommates are nice XD I really cant wait to go to Davis. Plus the section leaders of the trumpet section contacted me and they seem sweet and kind. Posted faz 29 dias