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So after analyzing if for about a week, talking and discussing on dissociative and BPD focused forums on mental illness focused websites, and the recent session, its been determined that the past pergunta over whether or not I have multiple personalities or a really strong imagination and a poor sense of identity has been given the agreement that it is most likely actual multiple personalities. While it has yet to be placed into DID or OSDD-1B, the core base thing is mostly confirmed.

Between the names, the sudden ability to snap from strong fixated extremes, and considerably developed senses of selves between each of them, it was fair to say that it is. For those that are familiar, talk about this originally occurred in therapy when I started early and my identity online and offline were so aggressively against each other and different that when online, I felt I had to destroy and kill my offline life so I could be happy and capable, and when offline, I felt I had to destroy my online life or I will never be TRULY happy. That issue got cleared up after I made a friend that bridged the gap between online and offline as someone I talked to both in person and not. The...
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[[THIS IS PRIMARILY A RAMBLE TO MYSELF BUT I THOUGHT IT WAS SUPER INTERESTING AND WANTED TO SHARE]]

So this is just me kind of trying to think and logically figure a thing out so its not really bad as much as Im trying to re-evaluate it.

Anyways so the diagnosis for BPD is still not official since it does need time to see as it could be MANY other things. Like I do match almost all of the criteria for BPD now that I look over it more, but the thing is, if I were to say one other thign it could be would be that it could easily be OSDD-1B or some form of DID which was considered prior.

For those that didnt pick it up from the times Ive mentioned it casually before OSDD-1B is the "DID but not quite" pretty much which is "Other Specified Dissociative Disorder" and the 1B is the specification that it either has a lack of severe memory loss or developed alters.

Because a few nights atrás I kind of had that really weird and very brief mood balanço like I have been having before; however I am not sure if that wording is right as that would be mais of a BPD wording. With how oddly it went from A to B, I personally could also say I had...
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Opinion by Riku114 posted faz 4 meses
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Skipping perguntas I find boring / uninteresting.


1. What’s a pergunta you’re afraid to ask? To whom?
I dont really think theres anything I am particularly afraid to ask. If anything, I think it would be anyone irl other than my boyfriend to hang out or anything. I'm kind of avoidant in that manner. I personally would amor to have hung out with mais people in my highschool, but getting around to doing it just made me too uncomfortable for mais reasons that possible rejection or anything. I could handle rejection, its just a lot of other issues compiling into it.


2. What’s something you hide about your personality?
>what dont I hide about my personality<

Actually no, I try to be as transparent as I can be without my anxiety silencing me. If anything that I hide about my personality is the insecurity / uncertainty / ugly and not recovered parts of my mental health. The only person I genuinely ever showed the extent of that to is my boyfriend, and even he I doubt has seen it all. But hes seen a lot of my weakness.
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So hey! I was bored and decided it would be a cool and fun idea to go through and write what I thought about and predicted for all the Danganronpa V3 characters. Before the prediction, I asked Lefteris to give me 3-4 imagens of each character, their name, and the Ultimate that they were introduced at. Then I carried on and did everything below. I hope you enjoy!



So this is apparently Kaede Akamatsu and shes the Ultimate Pianist. I’m GUESSING that shes the main protagonist because shes the first one and because she has the main protagonist ahoge.

no geral, global I think she looks sweet and lovable making her seem like good waifu material. Shes not my general type trope I have for waifus but she looks really likable and cute. I wanna pet her and pinch her cheeks. Also shes a pianist so she knows música and shiz and Im expecting some good música from this game and from her because of that.

Its interesting to finally have an “Ultimate” as the main protag tho, let alone a female. Also I like the subtle música stuff in her character design. I really dont have much else to predict but I think Ill like her. I dont...
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Opinion by Riku114 posted faz 5 meses
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Pretty much Im bored so Im doing a compilation of tumblr “Send me X and Ill answer the respective questions” and posting it as an article

animais

dog - would you consider yourself loyal still to your best friend from two years ago?
When was two years ago… Cos while I don’t like to say it wasn’t Wanta, but theres a chance that if Im being real, the person I hung out with the most was not him… but considering the timeline I think it was?? So… Yeah, Im still loyal.

cat - do you bite your nails?
Tbh I bite and pluck myself too much. Im a compulsive excessive groomer

criceto, hamster - what’s your favourite sport?
Probably hockey or basketball

rabbit - favourite vegetable?
espinafre or Carrots

peixe - when did you learn to swim?
I think when I was three??

rato - favourite children’s tale?
I either didn’t know too many or, mais likely, its part of that massive o espaço in my past thats mostly deleted from my memory. I guess if I had to say one, it was like… The beijar Palm or the beijar Hand or...
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Opinion by Riku114 posted faz 5 meses
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Since there seemed to be a wide interest in me sharing these, I decided, until I no longer wish to share them, I no longer have mais I wish to share, and/or no mais to share, I will actually make this idea a thing. This is the first one where I go through my old therapy journals and pull out the ones I am willing to share that also have enough substinance to them. I hope you enjoy. Each entry will be denoted with the dia they were written on, as well as the times each entry was put in. There are often a lot of typos as they are copied exactly as originally typed on my phone journal. If said typos are crazy, I will put parenthesis corrections for interpretation purposes. If I cant guess it, the correction may have a pergunta mark. I am also goign to try to redact all names in here

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[i] 9/7/2016
Woke up 6:51 am

6:04 pm Its not exactly that I havent been feeling bad so I havent been composição literária that much as it is that I cant really grasp or word and actually give it enough attention
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DISCLAIMER: This is not an end all means all. Just because I dont show any of these blatantly does not mean I don’t care about you or do not like you or anything like that. I can be rather subtle with my affections and these primarily come out when I am extremely close and/or when the opportunity arises. This is also a list compiled off the topo, início of my head and is likely missing a lot that I didnt remember while composição literária and/or am unaware of.

So I was looking at the amor Languages topic thing again and talking about it a bit to Wanta and Lefteris in personal chat, and I felt I would go over some of the things I try to do to express my care and interest and affections - platonic or otherwise - for those that I am really fond of.

Speaking personally of the ones I receive the best, I take a lot of joy and am very receptive towards “Quality Time” and “Acts of Kindness.” Personally, I feel quality time is given as just being able to do something mundane with someone and enjoying it and just being in the presence of someone is plenty for me. I feel happy and loved to be welcomed into a regular part of someone else’s life, and even mais so if...
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Opinion by Riku114 posted faz 7 meses
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DISCLAIMER: Some of these details are guesses since I have not necessarily thought all of these out fully.

So I was bored and tired and decided instead of like… watching anime, I would take up the challenge of filling out a Huge bunda Character perfil for one of my current RP Characters. I am going to say it now, but I did not answer all of them as I removed ones I didn't feel like answering, felt were dumb, and/or unapplicable to the story. I also may have added a bit for the sake of the artigo Also, any inconsistencies with diagnosis are mais so what they resemble the closest to what his current character is like. So let's see.

Introducing - Baujel Noiguera!

Character Chart
Character’s full name: Baujel Martis Nogueira

Reason or meaning of name: There really isn't any specific reason or meaning for the name.

Birthdate: June 19th

Blood Type: O
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Opinion by Riku114 posted faz 7 meses
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((Just a get-to-know character game I did with Wanta. The first and every other character is mine, the rest are Wanta's.))

“When you’re upset do you want o espaço or attention?”

Jaden: Both. I know it sounds crazy and impossible, but both. When I'm upset, I don't want to see people - especially those that upset me, but I also kind of want them to make it up to me so…

Evangeline: I can want both depending on how I'm feeling or what the circumstances are, but at my core, I would want someone to acknowledge that I was wronged even if I wasn't...

Edric: Honestly, I don’t really know. For the most part, people havent really gotten the chance to make me upset and gotten the chance to be alive to give me one or the other. I usually just put them on the seguinte target list and mover on with my day. I might rant to Gianna, so I don’t really know if that counts, but I suppose I like mais o espaço than not?

Manager: "I just don't get upset. It's not professional, however, everyone is susceptible to the occasional fit of childish pique so por putting myself into that mindset, I can say that I would rather scream out into...
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Opinion by Riku114 posted faz 8 meses
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So Im back again with another ramble - just something that I was thinking about after watching a play through of a game that talked about the topic and I dont think I really ever shared my personal thoughts and views on it. I’ve shared that I’ve dealt with ideas of it, dealt with a few people around me attempting (luckily failing), and multiple suicide notes as well as how to deal with friends coming to you with the full intent on killing themselves, but I never really talked about how I see it and my thoughts on it… and honestly its because my thoughts on it are very complex and hard to fit into proper words.

It really isnt something so easy to say as “suicide is bad” - por all means, Im not endorsing it - but as someone with experience with severe depression, anxiety, and mental health problems, and as someone who was heavily suicidal in the past before, I really cant say that. Suicide isnt a good thing to happen to anyone, may it being their own suicide or someone they know, but just thinking about it, its not something you can just write off like that.
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Opinion by Riku114 posted faz 8 meses
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Honestly… Theres a lot of mixture and issues among my relationship with my middle sister. With my older sister, she pretty much was a mother of mine thanks to our age difference and with how much I was actually kind of ignored (emotionally and psychologically at least). With my oldest sister, when I seemed to get really bad, she stepped up to do what she could to keep me okayish. She opened the world for me, she got me my bird that helped me and really made me amor birds mais than I did before. My oldest sister, I have a clearly defined relationship with. If anyone were to ever hurt her, ever trash talk her, tell me to abandon her or my whole family - I would leave my family behind to protect and back her. I fought for her for a few months when my whole family wanted to disown her a ano ago. If she killed someone, I would cover her back. She was both one of the best oldest siblings I could imagine, she took care of me, and in a way, I took care of her back. Shes my family - both blood and otherwise.
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1) Do you have any close experience with mental health disorders either personally or with someone close to you? How has it affected the person's life?

Mental health issues have been around me way mais than they should have and way mais than I can imagine. My family is riddled with it since it has my stuff, my dad who has AT LEAST Aspergers, and my middle sister who is Bipolar. My oldest sister has Aspergers too and likely other stuff. Then on topo, início of that, I've known people with PTSD, Panic Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, Dependent Personality Disorder, Social Anxiety, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and probably one or two others I dont recall off the topo, início of my head. I think its fair to say a few of them caused really codependent and toxic friendships that had to end up being cut off for both my sake and their sake. Its also driven me to get a lot of suicide notes - or at least mais than someone my age should have por now.
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Article by Riku114 posted faz 8 meses
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So hey! Its been awhile since I wrote anything in specific on here hasn’t it? Sorry about that. I’ve been busy with school stuff and anytime I had time to write, I decided to dedicate it to the RP side stories I’ve been composição literária lately. With that being said, I was talking to Lefteris about the Kuroko no Basket characters I find relatable and associating with others, and it came up the parallels that make Akashi as relatable as he is for me.

This however is mais of a ramble since I have little to nothing of this planned or even properly thought about beforehand, so this is literally coming up purely as I go. I would like to put a disclaimer. This is before I saw the Last Game and is going off of what I heard from the movie. I also haven’t read the manga. That being said, I did watch Season 3 like four or five times over.

For those that aren’t familiar with the series or haven’t gotten to the point of which Akashi is really seen and plays a notable role, Akashi is the closest thing this series has to the ‘main antagonist’ of the series and the ‘final boss’ for the protagonists to pass by. Back in middle school, he was the captain of the...
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Opinion by Riku114 posted faz 8 meses
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Saruhiko Fushimi and Yata Misaki are sent off to the back room of the bar to collect some items per the request of Totsuka and Kusanagi. However, while working, the two get side tracked por one another’s presence.

Credit to @ridiasfangirlings​ for the story plan. This is an expanded version of the summary she gave out. link

Topic: K Project: Sarumi (Saruhiko X Misaki)

Word Count: 1383 words

Genre: Steamy Romance

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“Hey Saruhiko.” Yata said as he dug through the dusty shelves of the back room. “Did you find the film rolls yet?” He asked. About ten minutos ago, the two of them had been requested por Kusanagi and Totsuka to go to the back room of the bar to find some of the film rolls. According to the two of them, there were supposed to be a few back here, but over the past ten or so minutes, they had come out absolutely fruitless.
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Opinion by Riku114 posted faz 9 meses
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Since Im going to have no internet, Im going to do something I havent in a while and play a Pokemon game through por myself XD

However to make things interesting, I am adding a challenge to it and it will lead into Wanta's challenge when he gets Ultra Moon.

The rules go por the following

1) All pokemon must be nicknamed

2) If a pokemon dies, they get put into the "dead box"

3) If four pokemon die, you may be allowed to revive one of the pokemon from the dead box

4) Everytime you enter a new city with a Pokemon Center, you have to flip a coin. If heads, the Pokemon Centers are all able to be used. If tails, all of the Pokemon Centers are out of order and can not be used. They will be out of order until you reach a new town and receive a heads to allow the Poke Centers to open up.

5) If the Poke Center is out of order, you may only do one swap on the PC per availible computer

6) If you fail the challenge, you may revive four Pokemon in attempt to continue it. If you get bored, you can abandon the challenge and let yourself enjoy the game
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Article by Riku114 posted faz 9 meses
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((This is a highly requested artigo of mine that I decided to instead make a research paper for my Senior Exit Project in my school. It was delayed this much because I had to turn it in, have it checked for plagiarism, then have it graded before putting it up. I also got a bit lazy at the end since I was busy XD I hope you enjoy and take some important things away from this.))

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Birds, we all amor them. From their beautiful feathers to the funny vídeos of parrots playing with toys to their wonderful ability to speak, birds, and parrots in specific, seem like the one of the best pets to own. After all, who wouldn’t want to own a cute, pretty, and playful papagaio that could talk to you? It's a simple pet after all.

Wrong.

Currently, with how parrots are seen, this kind of thinking is common to those that are not well informed and is this kind of thinking that has caused a large problem for the parrots we’ve come to love. Throughout the rescuing centers, many birds are found abandoned, resold, and given away multiple times as owners find that their pretty feathered friend is not as simple and easy as they...
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Opinion by Riku114 posted faz 10 meses
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There once was a man

He was named Steve

He was born on a pirate ship on accident

He worked to gain the attention of his higher ups

He even asked them where the paper work was

But there was no paper work on a pirate ship

And he asked the nations psycho

While he was having a psychotic breakdown

And thus got a faca in his throat.

He was then thrown over board

Because he was taking up too much space

And was making a bloody mess

Dont be like Steve

RIP Steve

~A poem por Riku114
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Opinion by Riku114 posted faz 11 meses
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((Note, this is off DR2 knowledge only, if I get further into it and find an editation to my analysis, then I will mention it and if it is significant enough, I might rewrite this))

Hey! I felt like doing this to gather my thoughts about Nagito a lot better. Personally, I feel I am better at fitting into his shoes and predicting and seeing what and how he would think / react to a situation than I am actually analyzing or figuring out his character in worlds, but lets see how this goes. (Disclaimer: I am doing this as I go with little planning)

When I analyze characters, I like to look and think of the “pillars” of their characters, or basically the main character details, events, experiences, behaviors, and so on about them that become highly defined and significant pieces that essentially spread out to become the foundation for most of the smaller minuto pieces. For Nagito, off the topo, início of my mind, his pillars that I currently see are his views on hope, despair, and good luck, his past experiences / growing up conditions, and his actions that make Nagito the very controversial character that he is.
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Opinion by Riku114 posted faz 11 meses
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Devak Young
Character Origin: Sathanus Breath Part 2

Family History: Devak is the youngest child of the Ross family under the parents of Katelyn Von Bannister and Michael Ross. As the child of the prior main characters, each of which who had a long wound special history specifically directed por the god Time herself, there is a lot of family history to go through. On Michael’s end, the Ross family ties all the way back to Genesis with Adam and Eve. Because of this, the Ross family has always had the oldest son from each generation selected to be the “Choosen One” all but the generation for Michael as Michael was corrupted por being the reincarnation of the Beast King Cistal. Because of this, much like his siblings, Devak carries a large amount of Beast DNA through his body, however, it doesnt appear in the normal manner for Devak. On Katelyn’s side, the Von Bannister family goes back all the way to Izanami and Izanagi with the God of Life being a direct ancestor of theirs along with Susanoo. Along with this, the original “White Woman” or “Woman of Purity” was reincarnated into present dia Katelyn. Likewise, because of this, Devak...
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Opinion by Riku114 posted faz 11 meses
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The Prologue
1) I am literally only having this in Japanese cos Komaeda has Misogi's voice. ONLY reason other wise I would totally play this with English Audio cos English Audio was great.

2) WAS THAT MEGUMI OGATA OR NOT. GOTTA DOUBLE CHECK. IF ITS NOT THEN IM ABORTING JAPANESE VERSION.

Okay confirmed, it IS Megumi Ogata. Then it is acceptable.

3) Oh my 8 bit música of its opening.

4) ... okay i cant stand the japanese after playing in English. Imma go change it to English. As much as i want Misogi's voice, I cant. It just feels too weird after doing the first one in English.

5) ... :( Now Komaeda sounds too masculine in voice... I liked him with a somewhat high pitched voice.... Can everyone BUT Komaeda speak in English? im so accustomed to his Japanese voice

6) Ugggghhh. Komaeda sounding mais manly and Johnny Von right off the back ;-; I cant handle Japanese but this hurts XD
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Jared and Jasmine
Character Origin: Sathanus Breath Part 1 and 2

Personality: Jared as a character is probably one of my favoritos and one that I would want to be the friends with the most simply because of how optimistically he developed. Jared's personality is often known to be laid back and playful, often trying to make fun, create jokes, and have a good time with those that he is hanging around with. This goes out to the point that Jared is wondreful at turning a grim mood and area up to a mais positive atmosphere with his oozing optimism. Even when he himself is stressed out, depressed, and/or worried to hell about the situation, he puts on a smile and makes sure that everyone else he is responsible for is alright before letting himself react in private. When things get serious, Jared is good at taking the responsibility to match it when its needed to make sure what needs to be done gets done. Its practically impossible to dislike Jared with how he acts and how well he gets along with everyone. However, behind this friendly, happy, and optimistic personality, Jared is often suffering silently from the loss of his amor and struggles to truly move...
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Opinion by Riku114 posted faz 11 meses
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[i] I really wasnt intending to make this an article, but I collected them so why not. I was tempted to check it out to see if I could find any relatable statements (as I do with a lot of my relatable characters) por searching for words I apply to myself a lot. Turns out I found a lot mais than I was expecting so heres what I found before I backed off under the gut impression that Id accidently find a spoiler if I went further.

"Nagito first comes off as a polite, friendly, and easygoing, yet somewhat insecure boy."

"Though friendly with everyone, he is mostly interested in spending time with Hajime, and can be quite clingy."

"Nagito attempts to be the team's conflict mediator and a poster boy for optimism, often encouraging others to be hopeful and to cooperate."

"Although though he claims to be a pessimist, Nagito often appears unusually carefree. He lacks tact and occasionally says awkward, strange, and unsettling things without realizing it. At times he can also be mais forcefulーhe is quick to scold Hajime when he's being too pessimistic or when he thought he was bullying Mikan Tsumiki."
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Well shit. Actually no, I doubt you are actually here suddenly in a rush because you just encountered this situation a few minutos atrás and thought the best place was to check my club for whatever reason. If that is the case, please, you made a bad decision, call a suicide hotline, procurar a mais valid source, and focus on your friend and make sure they survive the situation. This artigo won't help you mais than anything there will especially since this is mais of a tip artigo from someone who has had a lot of experience with this.

So lets talk.

First thing we want to establish. Are they actively suicidal or passively suicidal? As in are they actively planning on killing themselves now or soon and/or have they come up with a plan to do so. If so, that is someone who is actively suicidal. If they are stating they want to die, they want to kill themselves, and similar lines but are not actually planning to and/or have yet to get to the point of planning it, then it is passively suicidal. The difference is important as one calls for mais immediate strict attention while the other one usually is best handled in a much mais softer manner, but...
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((Some background, pretty much a side story that takes place many many many years before the main story of Sathanus Breath between the Gods before the world was even created. Not much background is needed other than them being some Gods fooling around in the God Realm. Time *Miora* and Freewill *Ryuuske* are the oldest gods with Dagda and Themis, being Chaos and Order respectively, are young newly created Gods at the time))

Side step to the left at about sixty eight degrees, half a segundo after A34 moves. Good. Right foot pivot part ways, strike at body point 354 at- “OW!” Order shouted, skipping back as one of Time’s many cones quickly closed in, pressing the butt of a burning cigarette up on his forehead before all of them disappeared on the outdoor training yard, leaving all but one Time chuckling as she dropped the cigarette onto the floor before crushing it.

“Smoking is so unrefined; I don’t understand why Dagda and Ryuuske like it so much.” She smiled. “So Themis, you having some trouble there?”
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Dear Mayor Tom Smith,

    My family and I have been living within our city for many years, generations in fact, and over the years we have found you have done a great job keeping this city an enjoyable place for all of us to enjoy. However, it has come to my attention that our city seems to have a horrible infestation and plague when I noticed it reach into my son’s life as his friend seems to have caught it and, sadly enough, even my precious daughter was contaminated por it. I have talked to some of the other citizens within the city and many fail to see the sheer severity of this issue, but a few seem to have taken my explanation and reasoning into consideration, so allow me to explain this to you.

    A few months ago, my son came to me, his face drenched with tears as he explained how stressed out he was that his girlfriend seemed to be talking about killing herself. My son was concerned about this, and after gathering mais information from this, I found the reasons for his girlfriend claiming such statements were nothing but whiny crybaby excuses for her utter incompetency such as “everyone hates me,”...
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