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TomboyYaoiFan56 said:
I've told so many people to never feel lonely. Never become saddened. What empty conselhos that was. No one can become happy if you tell them to be happy, they must seek it and bathe in it. I promised myself I'd make this ano the most enjoyable, and I failed. I lied to myself saying I'd never feel a single each of sadness. I was stoic and only allowed myself to feel happiness, but then I realized, you can never control your emotions. I've heard several people around me telling me "You must control what you feel. It's not impossible." and it didn't work. None of it. Years after years of hearing that, and achieving it for months, here I sit, sad. Angry. Wanting people to relate to, but wanting to shut the world away. But in all of my loneliness, there is hope. I should never give up and spend my life thinking like this. Eventually, I'll find someone who relates to me. Accepts me. The thought of that makes me tear up. I never cry. I rarely do. And here I sit, on the verge of tears from my words and thoughts. Blinking my tears away as I finally see a silver lining in the grey nuvem above that says "You will always be alone." now I know it's not true. I'm not depressed, and I'm tired of waiting for happiness. I refuse to sit here and let myself soak in despair. I refuse to let this temporary depression get the best of me. I know what I want now, and I know what I need. It's time to stop feeling sorry for myself, and time to act.
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![Alex is the most beautiful boy I've ever met in my life. And I know people will think I've said that about every boy I've liked. But... they're completely [u][b]wrong[/b][/u]. The boys' I've liked were beautiful, yes, but they never had the beauty that Alex has. I'm too scared to look into his eyes, because he'll probably be freaked out. So I don't know what color, but I'm sure they're either brown or green. I have a feeling. But his smile, his hair, no geral, global his face is beautiful. And his laugh is the most loveliest sound I've ever heard. I amor the way he spoke to me first. I amor the way he smiles at me. I amor the way he sees me as a 'cutie'. I amor the way his hand gives me tingles inside. I amor the way he's on my mind every segundo of the day. I amor the way he can make anyone smile. And I amor the way that he's himself and that I know he'll never change his personality. I first met him at his job, Walmart. He had asked me if he's met me before. That I look familiar. I fell in amor with him immediately. It's like everyone was walking fast pace. Just a blur, too. Like no one else mattered. Just him. It was like he was the only one who mattered to me at the moment. It's like God sent him down from Heaven for me. He's an angel. And you know what's fate? He lived in London. Wanted to go to California. But out of ALL the cities in the United States, he ended up in some beat up town. I believe fate made us meet. Hey! You said to express myself. So I did.](http://images6.fanpop.com/image/answers/3268000/3268419_1371498314460.32res_500_329.jpg)
