Help

How can I be forgiven and how can I turn my life around. I really cry everyday thinking one dia people will find out this and hate me . The people who do know me hate me when on fact I needed help. How can I just build confidence on what happened.
I'm 19 now and I'm currently pregnant and with a 31 ano old. The first thing is that I want to learn how to stand up for my rights, I'm 19 so legally I'm an adult.
When I was 12 I lost my virginity to a 22 ano old yes I know it's bad but I can't stand it plus he paid me I did this thing with people from 22 up to 36 once while I was 12-16. I stopped and after moved to Serbia and I stopped. I then once I could work started to work in a club. I hated it, I'm just saying why I'm a stupid person why do people hate me. Why and how can I learn to not let things like this happen. I cry still.
Tell me what you think about it too and what you will do in my place. I live in Denmark btw. Just saying.