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You guys are the reason I'm still alive...

posted by triq267

Okay, I know the título sounds cheesy, but I'm about to get real serious in a second, so... Yeah.
Anyways, I'm about to say something I've never told anyone before. I hate my life. I'm depressed most of the time and have thoughts of suicide frequently. No joke. Today was one of the worse days. Let me just say I almost got expelled from school, and then after I found out I'm not expelled, about 15 minutos later, I find out that I may or may not have Aspergers Syndrome (Long story). So yeah, I've been pretty depressed. I was seriouslly considering suicide. AGAIN. Only this time, I couldn't think of any reason not to do it. My friends had let me down, they were partially responsible for my near expulsion, and they hadn't cared. I thought nobody cared about me, not even my family. Then I reallized, there were people who cared about me, at least a little. You guys. You guys don't need to pay attention to me, you could have ignored me, let me just give up. But no, you excepted me, you were friendly with me, and now I can honestly say some of you are some of my best friends. I chose to keep on living because of you. If it wasn't for you guys, I probably would've slit my wrists as soon as I got home, and it would've been the biggest mistake of my life. I know you all probably don't care much about my personal life, but I just wanted to say, thank you all. Thank you for unknowingly stopping me from ending my life. Just... Thanks...

Chibi-Chipette, tailsfan111 and 8 others like this

shadowknuxgirl Oh my......I'm just so glad to find you didn't commit suicide. :") *hugs*

dancergirl78 aww, I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I'm glad you're okay now!!! <3<3<3

clancker1223 wow. i never knew your life was this hard. were always here for you pal. anytime. btw, please dont ever think of committing suicide ever again

StarWarsFan7 [b]Oh triq. Don't leave us. Ever. Please. You're too good of a person to commit suicide. I'm against the whole suicide thing but even if I didn't know you, I wouldn't allow it. I almost cried. Triq, you're such a great friend to me and to all of us. Live, love, laugh.[/b]

shadirby Okay, so I know I already messaged you, but...Yeah. This made me cry.Big time. Also, dont feel bad. I'm a girl. I get touched when I see these kinds of things XD But in all seriousnes we love you. Not in the creepy way, but you know what I mean. Celestia...I'm so awkward.

Dewheart I know what it feels like to have no reason to live. I just failed two of my college classes and am now on probation, I'll be kicked out if I don't get my GPA up next semester. If I don't graduate my life will pretty much be over anyway. But if your feeling like suicide is your only option, just remember that it really will look better in the morning. You have your whole life ahead of you so don't check out early. I hope you find happiness and start turning your life around ^___^

whiteclaw wow, I`m speechless.

brijbee Triq, just so you know, I'm here. I know that feeling all too well. I also have a mild case of Aspergers, and am pretty much depressed most of the time. I got bullied to pieces in school and I couldn't bare to get up each day. Then Pinkie Pie happened. But that's a WHOLE different story. Triq, though we haven't spoken much, you sound awesome, and if you EVER EVER EVER doubt that, well, just look at [b] all [/b] these comments that say otherwise. Now gimme a virtual hug, brah!

triq267 ^*hugs* Thanks you guys. It means a lot. I'm glad to see that you guys think I made the right descision. It certainly helps me believe that. Thank you...

Fearlessdude88 Ive been in that situation before to Triq...i know how you feel :(

Alue26 Don't worry, having Aspergers isn't so bad. You could have got ASD, which I have.

sweet_cream We're glad that we helped you and Iam glad you joined fanpop at the first place :')

Tawnyjay Triq, I know this is late but: You've been a great friend to all of us. You don't deserve to have thoughts like that. You honestly don't, because you're awesome.