If these other two are physically dead then I think that this is not the right place for you to be consulting your feelings.Do it within the comfort of personal friends/family or someone you look up to as in a church member.But if they are just gone emtionally then I would say it's still very much a personal thing and that you should just talk/write/get your feelings out Completely(even though you if its physical you'll never fully heal from it)out.Then talk about them to your friends and see what they say.We are not connected enough for you to be seeking our conselhos on a subject matter such as this.But if you want mais simplier conselhos i'd be happy to try and help.:)
