Is it just a crush, or something mais permanent?

So, I've liked the same guy for 8-9 years. The problem is that I moved to a new city. He was one of my best friends up until then. We dont talk anymore except for the occasional athletic event against his school. I think to myself that if I hadn't moved things would be fine, even great, between us. He's got a girlfriend now, and my coração hurts just thinking about moving on. He's constantly on my mind, and I cry myself to sleep over him. His, face haunts my dreams, and it's been distracting me from my schoolwork. I got in trouble once because I had absentmindly doodled his name on my paper instead of my own. So, my pergunta is:

Is it the typical "i wonder what my name would sound like if I married him" crush, or something mais ?